Part 16 (2/2)
I pretend that the lead singer-J Mascis-is singing me the song over and over again from Donna's living room downstairs. Mascis-who has long silver hair, because he is old now-keeps on singing, ”Come on down. Come on down. Come on down,” like he really wants me to come down from my little coc.o.o.n of haikus and misery.
I don't come down, but I like pretending there is an obscure rock star who wants me to.
The battery finally runs out, and when I take the headphones off, my ears are ringing, J Mascis is gone, and Donna is calling to me, asking me if I want some soup.
CHAPTER 27.
”Father Chee?”
”Yes, Amber?”
”When will it stop hurting so badly?”
”I don't know.”
CHAPTER 28.
GRa.s.s TEA BOILED AND DRUNK.
MY DOG ROLLS THROUGH TOMORROW'S CUP-THERE'S ENDLESS TEA
CHAPTER 29.
After a month or so, Old Man Linder pays me a visit on behalf of the entire Methodist Home.
Donna comes into my room and says that I have to come down to see Old Man Linder because he can't walk up steps. Donna's murder trial ended a week or so ago and she has taken some time off from work to care for me, which I told her not to do. She dotes on me now, even though I hardly talk to her.
”I only go down once a day to check the mail,” I tell Donna. ”Tell Old Man Linder he'll have to come up here if he wants to talk to me.”
”The man has tubes running up his nose and is attached to an oxygen-”
”Yeah, I know him,” I say, like a total cat.
”He can't walk stairs. He said it could kill him, but he really wants to talk to you, Amber. I don't think he leaves the home much. Please just come down. He's an old man and I think it might be good for you to-”
”No,” I say. ”Tell him he can come back tomorrow around one fifteen when I'll be checking the mail. That's when I will next come downstairs.”
”Amber, what's happening to you?” Donna says in this really dramatic fas.h.i.+on that p.i.s.ses me off.
When I don't answer, she leaves.
Ten minutes later, Donna returns and hands me a cup of hot cocoa and a Snickers bar, and then shakes her head at me before exiting my poetry coc.o.o.n.
I hear Old Man Linder breathing really hard on the steps.
One footstep, clunk, heavy breathing.
One footstep, clunk, heavy breathing.
One footstep, clunk, heavy breathing.
His oxygen tank makes an awful clunk each time he sets it on a higher step.
”Mr. Linder,” Donna says, ”perhaps-you really shouldn't-”
”Don't tell me what I can and can't do! I'm old enough to be your grandfather, thank you very much!” Old Man Linder says, and then sucks in an awful breath like he has been underwater for the last two hours or something.
He and Donna fight about whether he should be walking up the steps for another few minutes before I yell, ”Donna, your making him yell isn't helping!”
And then I only hear footsteps, clunking, and heavy breathing.
When Old Man Linder reaches the top of the stairs, he looks like he might fall backward and die. His face is completely white, which makes me feel like a total cat, so I walk into the hallway, grab his arm, and escort him into my room.
When he squeezes my shoulder football coachastyle, I know that he is going to be okay-that he probably won't die in my room.
He points to the Snickers and cocoa on my dresser. ”Compliments of Door Woman Lucy.”
I nod.
”How you holdin' up?” he asks me, and then sits down on the wooden chair that goes with the desk Donna bought for me.
I shrug.
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