Part 19 (1/2)
And when the examination was concluded, that afternoon, the doctor informed Bibbs that the result was much too satisfactory to be pleasing.
”Here's a new 'situation' for a one-act farce,” he said, gloomily, to his next patient when Bibbs had gone. ”Doctor tells a man he's well, and that's his death sentence, likely. Dam' funny world!”
Bibbs decided to walk home, though Gurney had not instructed him upon this point. In fact, Gurney seemed to have no more instructions on any point, so discouraging was the young man's improvement. It was a dingy afternoon, and the smoke was evident not only to Bibbs's sight, but to his nostrils, though most of the pedestrians were so saturated with the smell they could no longer detect it. Nearly all of them walked hurriedly, too intent upon their destinations to be more than half aware of the wayside; they wore the expressions of people under a vague yet constant strain. They were all lightly powdered, inside and out, with fine dust and grit from the hard-paved streets, and they were unaware of that also. They did not even notice that they saw the smoke, though the thickened air was like a shrouding mist. And when Bibbs pa.s.sed the new ”Sheridan Apartments,” now almost completed, he observed that the marble of the vestibule was already streaky with soot, like his gloves, which were new.
That recalled to him the faint odor of gasolene in the coupe on the way from his brother's funeral, and this incited a train of thought which continued till he reached the vicinity of his home. His route was by a street parallel to that on which the New House fronted, and in his preoccupation he walked a block farther than he intended, so that, having crossed to his own street, he approached the New House from the north, and as he came to the corner of Mr. Vertrees's lot Mr. Vertrees's daughter emerged from the front door and walked thoughtfully down the path to the old picket gate. She was unconscious of the approach of the pedestrian from the north, and did not see him until she had opened the gate and he was almost beside her. Then she looked up, and as she saw him she started visibly. And if this thing had happened to Robert Lamhorn, he would have had a thought far beyond the horizon of faint-hearted Bibbs's thoughts. Lamhorn, indeed, would have spoken his thought. He would have said: ”You jumped because you were thinking of me!”
CHAPTER XV
Mary was the picture of a lady fl.u.s.tered. She stood with one hand closing the gate behind her, and she had turned to go in the direction Bibbs was walking. There appeared to be nothing for it but that they should walk together, at least as far as the New House. But Bibbs had paused in his slow stride, and there elapsed an instant before either spoke or moved--it was no longer than that, and yet it sufficed for each to seem to say, by look and att.i.tude, ”Why, it's YOU!”
Then they both spoke at once, each hurriedly p.r.o.nouncing the other's name as if about to deliver a message of importance. Then both came to a stop simultaneously, but Bibbs made a heroic effort, and as they began to walk on together he contrived to find his voice.
”I--I--hate a frozen fish myself,” he said. ”I think three miles was too long for you to put up with one.”
”Good gracious!” she cried, turning to him a glowing face from which restraint and embarra.s.sment had suddenly fled. ”Mr. Sheridan, you're lovely to put it that way. But it's always the girl's place to say it's turning cooler! I ought to have been the one to show that we didn't know each other well enough not to say SOMETHING! It was an imposition for me to have made you bring me home, and after I went into the house I decided I should have walked. Besides, it wasn't three miles to the car-line. I never thought of it!”
”No,” said Bibbs, earnestly. ”I didn't, either. I might have said something if I'd thought of anything. I'm talking now, though; I must remember that, and not worry about it later. I think I'm talking, though it doesn't sound intelligent even to me. I made up my mind that if I ever met you again I'd turn on my voice and keep it going, no mater what it said. I--”
She interrupted him with laughter, and Mary Vertrees's laugh was one which Bibbs's father had declared, after the house-warming, ”a cripple would crawl five miles to hear.” And at the merry lilting of it Bibbs's father's son took heart to forget some of his trepidation. ”I'll be any kind of idiot,” he said, ”if you'll laugh at me some more. It won't be difficult for me.”
She did; and Bibbs's cheeks showed a little actual color, which Mary perceived. It recalled to her, by contrast, her careless and irritated description of him to her mother just after she had seen him for the first time. ”Rather tragic and altogether impossible.” It seemed to her now that she must have been blind.
They had pa.s.sed the New House without either of them showing--or possessing--any consciousness that it had been the destination of one of them.
”I'll keep on talking,” Bibbs continued, cheerfully, ”and you keep on laughing. I'm amounting to something in the world this afternoon. I'm making a noise, and that makes you make music. Don't be bothered by my bleating out such things as that. I'm really frightened, and that makes me bleat anything. I'm frightened about two things: I'm afraid of what I'll think of myself later if I don't keep talking--talking now, I mean--and I'm afraid of what I'll think of myself if I do. And besides these two things, I'm frightened, anyhow. I don't remember talking as much as this more than once or twice in my life. I suppose it was always in me to do it, though, the first time I met any one who didn't know me well enough not to listen.”
”But you're not really talking to me,” said Mary. ”You're just thinking aloud.”
”No,” he returned, gravely. ”I'm not thinking at all; I'm only making vocal sounds because I believe it's more mannerly. I seem to be the subject of what little meaning they possess, and I'd like to change it, but I don't know how. I haven't any experience in talking, and I don't know how to manage it.”
”You needn't change the subject on my account, Mr. Sheridan,” she said.
”Not even if you really talked about yourself.” She turned her face toward him as she spoke, and Bibbs caught his breath; he was pathetically amazed by the look she gave him. It was a glowing look, warmly friendly and understanding, and, what almost shocked him, it was an eagerly interested look. Bibbs was not accustomed to anything like that.
”I--you--I--I'm--” he stammered, and the faint color in his cheeks grew almost vivid.
She was still looking at him, and she saw the strange radiance that came into his face. There was something about him, too, that explained how ”queer” many people might think him; but he did not seem ”queer” to Mary Vertrees; he seemed the most quaintly natural person she had ever met.
He waited, and became coherent. ”YOU say something now,” he said. ”I don't even belong in the chorus, and here I am, trying to sing the funny man's solo! You--”
”No,” she interrupted. ”I'd rather play your accompaniment.”
”I'll stop and listen to it, then.”
”Perhaps--” she began, but after pausing thoughtfully she made a gesture with her m.u.f.f, indicating a large brick church which they were approaching. ”Do you see that church, Mr. Sheridan?”
”I suppose I could,” he answered in simple truthfulness, looking at her.
”But I don't want to. Once, when I was ill, the nurse told me I'd better say anything that was on my mind, and I got the habit. The other reason I don't want to see the church is that I have a feeling it's where you're going, and where I'll be sent back.”