Chapter 202 (1/2)

Author: You Yi MACHINE TRANSLATION

Li Yan frowned. “So? What you mean is, you don’t know if he will love you forever, so you’re not even willing to give it a try? ”

Xi Wan was silent.

Li Yan suddenly laughed out loud “Jiang Xiwan, I’ve always thought that I was stupid, but it turns out that you’re even more stupid than me. Who can say for sure what will happen in the future You just have to be sure that he loves you at this second, isn’t that enough “If you really do what you said, do you plan to be lonely for the rest of your life? ”

Xi Wan’s silence was still the answer to Li Yan’s question.

Li Yan’s originally joking face turned serious at this moment. “Xi Wan, don’t really think that way, right? ” It was ridiculous to really be lonely for the rest of your life because of the uncertainty of the future.

“Oh my God, why would you have such a thought? ” Li Yan was in disbelief. She looked at Xi Wan’s silent face and really couldn’t understand.

Xi Wan said, “I know that the future is full of suffering, why would I want to try? ”

“How do you know that the future will be filled with suffering? WON’T IT BE SWEET? Besides, at least when we’re together, it will always be sweet and sweet. I believe that the sweetness in that moment can be compared to eternity. ”

Xi Wan smiled and said, “Li Yan, you think so naively. ”

Perhaps when they were together, there was indeed countless sweetness. However, one day in the future, the ugly reality, the heart that was too horrible to bear to look at, from the moment it was broken, the fantasy fairyland that you once interweaved was just a seven-colored bubble that was blown out by soapy water When it was broken, what remained was only the unpleasant smell of soapy water.

The sweetness from before was also the source of your heart-wrenching pain in the future.

IT WOULD NOT DISAPPEAR!

“I think you are the one who is inexplicable, ” said Li Yan “Just because you are worried that you can’t always be together in the future, you don’t want to try love. I think for a long time, I still can’t find an idiom to describe your stupidity. Really, I really think you are too inexplicable. ” Li Yan looked at the ceiling She choked and laughed.

“I think both of us are extreme. You are afraid of being separated in the future, so you don’t want to try it. As for me, I know that the future is uncertain, but I still desperately chase after it and try it. ”

She took a deep breath. After a long while, she said, “moreover, my brother is not the person you think he is. ”

“Xi Wan, if you don’t try with him, you’ll regret it. ”

“Li Yan, why do you suddenly want me to be with your brother? ”

Li Yan looked at Xi Wan. “who asked my brother to fall in love with you? ”

“Xi Wan, you know, the feeling of not being able to love someone is too painful. I don’t want my brother to be like me, living in pain. “Xi Wan, you’ve never been in love before. You don’t understand that feeling. That feeling of wanting to squeeze him into your body, tightly, tightly, and not being able to separate until the end of time. But in reality, you can’t do anything about it. “You can’t kiss him, hug him, or kiss him. You can only watch him walk further and further away. Even if you try your best to chase after him, you’re still getting further and further away from him

“It’s too suffocating, too depressing, and I can’t breathe. “sometimes, my chest hurts like it’s being pricked by needles. It hurts so much. You tell yourself that you want to give up, but you are not willing to give up. After so many years, maybe you will persist, persist… … because you don’t know if he will change his mind in the next second … If you give up this second, maybe you will give up your life.”

“This kind of struggle in the contradiction will drive people crazy. I don’t want my brother to become like me. ” At the end of her sentence, her voice became weaker. She turned her head and looked at the thick darkness outside the window.

“Let’s not talk about this, okay? ” This topic was too heavy. She did not want to think about it. Just like what Li Zhan said, she could just be a turtle.

Sometimes, when she hid in the turtle Shell, no matter if it was stormy outside or if there were lightning and thunder, she could quietly stay in the shell and live a peaceful life.

“If you want to run away again, that’s up to you. ” Li Yan pursed her lips. “But you should think about it carefully. I’m going to take a shower first. ”

“…”

In the dead of the night, Xi Wan opened her eyes and looked at Li Yan who was sleeping soundly beside her. She recalled what she had said. Maybe she was right, but maybe… …

In her struggle, she finally fell into a deep sleep.