Chapter 29 Part3 (1/2)

Chapter 29.3: Victory Claimed Through Steps

”You were looking for me?” Five simple words came out mildly from Su Lijiang's mouth, yet it crushed Su Tingyun's remaining imposing aura by half.

She lowered her head and looked at her toes. She hesitated a bit before she was able to summon up her courage and lift her head. ”The past, was my mistake.”

When her words fell, the wind seemed to instantly stop. The rustling sound of the leaves vanished, the birds and beasts disappeared. Even the clouds floating in the sky seemed to have stilled their movements. Su Tingyun felt as if she had entered a sealed s.p.a.ce that confined all of the surroundings within it.

Su Lijiang was still the same Su Lijiang. The surroundings seemed to have frozen, only the corner of his robe would occasionally flutter. There was probably wind blowing.

He didn't speak, but Su Tingyun felt cold. It was as if she'd been dropped into an ice cave. The intangible, perhaps involuntary pressure he gave off was already enough for Su Tingyun to feel very uncomfortable. This reaction also allowed Su Tingyun to confirm that he minded the incident back then. He minded it very much.

”If you brought me here for the sake of killing me for revenge, then you should just do it!” The old lady took a step forward and even heavily flung back her sleeves.

Su Tingyun's heart beat rapidly. She was just gambling. ”Su Lijiang, I'd rather die by your hand rather than be killed by others.”

Su Tingyun waited for the storm to descend. However, even after waiting for a long time he still didn't speak. Her courage slowly drained away from her chest. Just as she felt was feeling a little fl.u.s.tered and was about to lower her head, Su Lijiang, who was standing on the stone steps, spoke.

”You saved my life.”

”I was once… very grateful for your kindness.”

What was it like back then?

He had been covered all over with cuts and bruises and there had even been a knife slashed at his throat. He couldn't speak or move; at that time, he felt that death was imminent. Fighting surrounded them on all four sides. They had hidden themselves in the deep mountain forests, so there was no place to get treatment at all. All he could rely on was the bits of medicinal herbs that Wei Yun had found. As for the rest, he just forcibly endured it. As for Wei Yun, she couldn't bear to even use a bit of the medicinal herbs on herself. So he felt touched and had once thought about how to repay her. He had also once considered that idea. So what if he didn't love Wei Yun? She had taken off his clothes to treat him. No matter what, she was a woman. He had thought, if they survived it all, he would probably marry her.

Wei Yun recovered much faster than him. While he was still weak, almost lifeless and incapable of moving, she had already become able to hunt.

The events that happened after were the gray-colored memories that he meticulously worked to forget and bury deep in a corner of his mind. However, due to Master's request, he had to dust those memories off. The incident that happened to Wei Yun that night outside the Book Repository served to open the iron box that he had kept locked inside his heart. It was like the demon in his heart was let out.

During his recent cultivation period, he had been incapable of truly calming his heart. This was extremely detrimental to his cultivation progress and for the time being he couldn't attack the next stage.

Su Lijiang suddenly felt like he understood his Master's intention.

This gnawing matter has always been present in his heart. It was impossible to keep it hidden away. Even if it didn't break out right now, that didn't mean that it wouldn't later. When he tackled the Nascent Soul Stage or even the Crossing Tribulation Stage, these memories were bound to break out and become the internal demon that blocked his progress. At that time, the rebound would definitely be even stronger. Rather than that, it would be better to deal with it earlier.

He looked at this old acquaintance in front of him who has already aged and discovered that he couldn't separate his feelings of owing her from hating her very clearly. At that time, she had said she loved him. Thus, she recklessly wanted to be with him no matter what and wanted to have a child with him. Then, without regard for his feelings, she raped him. Su Lijiang had never loved before, he couldn't understand that feeling. However, though he had never loved anyone before, he did have the time available every few days when he had been young. While reading the verses in the poems, he had imagined the person that would fill his heart.

Based on what the books said, love should be a very wonderful thing.

In the sky, one would wish to be birds that flew wing to wing; on the earth, one would wish to be two trees that grew as one. However, what Wei Yun's love brought him was humiliation. It became his stocks and chains, the prison cage that trapped him. And now, it was becoming his internal demon.

At this time, this moment, Wei Yun was standing in front of him.

She apologised, and said that if he wanted revenge, he should just take it.