Part 39 (2/2)

Miss Saville proceeded to defend herself with much vivacity against this charge, and they continued to converse in the same light strain for some time longer; Coleman, as usual, being exceedingly droll and amusing, and the young lady displaying a decided talent for delicate and playful _badinage_. In order to enter _con spirito_ into this style of conversation, we must either be in the enjoyment of high health and spirits, when our light-heartedness finds a natural vent in gay raillery and sparkling repartee, or we must be suffering a sufficient degree of positive unhappiness to make us feel that a strong effort is necessary to screen our sorrow from the careless gaze of those around us. Now, though Coleman had not been far wrong in describing me as ”weak, languid, and unhappy,” mine was not a positive, but a negative unhappiness, a gentle sadness, which was rather agreeable than otherwise, and towards which I was by no means disposed to use the slightest violence. I was in the mood to have shed tears with the love-sick Ophelia, or to moralise with the melancholy Jaques, but should have considered Mercutio a man of no feeling, and the clown a ”very poor fool” indeed. In this frame of mind, the conversation appeared to me to have a.s.sumed such an essentially frivolous turn, that I soon ceased to take any share in it, and, turning over the leaves of a book of prints as an excuse for my silence, endeavoured to abstract my thoughts altogether from the scene around me, and employ them on some subject less dissonant to my present tone of feeling. As is usually the result in such cases, the attempt proved a dead failure, and I soon found -260-- myself speculating on the lightness and frivolity of women in general, and of Clara Saville in particular.

”How thoroughly absurd and misplaced,” thought I, as her silvery laugh rang harshly on my distempered ear, ”were all my conjectures that she was unhappy, and that, in the trustful and earnest expression of those deep blue eyes, I could read the evidence of a secret grief, and a tacit appeal for sympathy to those whom her instinct taught her were worthy of her trust and confidence! Ah! well, I was young and foolish then (it was not quite a year and a half ago), and imagination found an easy dupe in me; one learns to see things in their true light as one grows older, but it is sad how the doing so robs life of all its brightest illusions.”

It did not occur to me at that moment that there was a slight injustice in accusing Truth of petty larceny in regard to a _bright_ illusion in the present instance, as the fact (if fact it were) of proving that Miss Saville was happy instead of miserable could scarcely be reckoned among that cla.s.s of offences.

”Come, Freddy,” exclaimed Mrs. Coleman, suddenly waking up to a sense of duty, out of a dangerous little nap in which she had been indulging, and which occasioned me great uneasiness, by reason of the opportunity it afforded her for the display of an alarming suicidal propensity, which threatened to leave Mr. Coleman a disconsolate widower, and Freddy motherless.

As a warning to all somnolent old ladies, it may not be amiss to enter a little more fully into detail. The attack commenced by her sitting bolt upright in her chair, with her eyes so very particularly open, that it seemed as if, in her case, Macbeth or some other wonder-worker had effectually ”murdered sleep”. By slow degrees, however, her eyelids began to close; she grew less and less ”wide awake,” and ere long was fast as a church; her next move was to nod complacently to the company in general, as if to demand their attention; she then oscillated gently to and fro for a few seconds to get up the steam, and concluded the performance by suddenly flinging her head back, with an insane jerk, over the rail of the chair, at the imminent risk of breaking her neck, uttering a loud snort of triumph as she did so.

Trusting the reader will pardon, and the humane society award me a medal for this long digression, I resume the thread of my narrative.

”Freddy, my dear, can't you sing us that droll Italian song your cousin Lucy taught you? I'm sure poor Miss Saville must feel quite dull and melancholy.”

-261-- ”Would to Heaven she did!” murmured I to myself. ”Who is to play it for me?” asked Coleman. ”Well, my love, I'll do my best,” replied his mother; ”and, if I should make a few mistakes, it will only sound all the funnier, you know.”

This being quite unanswerable, the piano was opened, and, after Mrs.

Coleman's spectacles had been hunted for in all probable places, and discovered at last in the coal-scuttle, a phenomenon which that good lady accounted for on the score of ”John's having flurried her so when he brought in tea”; and when, moreover, she had been with difficulty prevailed on to allow the music-book to remain the right way upwards, the song was commenced.

As Freddy had a good tenor voice, and sang the Italian _buffa_ song with much humour, the performance proved highly successful, although Mrs.

Coleman was as good as her word in introducing some original and decidedly ”funny” chords into the accompaniment, which would have greatly discomposed the composer, if he had by any chance overheard them.

”I did not know that you were such an accomplished performer, Freddy,”

observed I; ”you are quite an universal genius.”

”Oh, the song was capital!” said Miss Saville, ”and Mr. Coleman sang it with so much spirit.”

”Really,” returned Freddy, with a low bow, ”you do me proud, as brother Jonathan says; I am actually-- that is, positively--”

”My dear Freddy,” interrupted Mrs. Coleman, ”I wish you would go and fetch Lucy's music; I'm sure Miss Saville can sing some of her songs; it's--let me see--yes, it's either downstairs in the study, or in the boudoir, or in the little room at the top of the house, or, if it isn't, you had better ask Susan about it.”

”Perhaps the shortest way will be to consult Susan at once,” replied Coleman, as he turned to leave the room.

”I presume you prefer _buffa_ songs to music of a more pathetic character?” inquired I, addressing Miss Saville.

”You judge from my having praised the one we have just heard, I suppose?”

”Yes, and from the lively style of your conversation; I have been envying your high spirits all the evening.”

”Indeed!” was the reply; ”and why should you envy them?”

”Are they not an indication of happiness, and is not that an enviable possession?” returned I.

”Yes, indeed!” she replied in a low voice, but with such pa.s.sionate earnestness as quite to startle me. ”Is 262-- laughing, then, such an infallible indication of happiness?” she continued.

”One usually supposes so,” replied I.

To this she made no answer, unless a sigh can be called one, and, turning away, began looking over the pages of a music-book.

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