Chapter 89 (2/2)

“She can’t like him!”

“Un?” Qiu Linsong was confused, “You don’t want her, but you’re not going to let someone else have her either? Do you want her to become a spinster? San Ge, don’t tell me you’re sick ba?”

“I meant that she can’t like He Nuo. She can look for someone else, but she’s not allowed to look for He Nuo.”

“Why can’t she look for He Nuo? Just because He Nuo’s your friend? San Ge, when did you become so narrow-minded?”

“It’s a mantou that I’ve bitten, but after I chewed it for a bit I spat it out because it was tasteless. Isn’t it disgusting to give that to He Nuo? He Nuo shouldn’t be disgraced like that.”

At first, Qiu Linsong didn’t understand what he was saying, but when he realised that this metaphor was referring to Yu Yao, he burst out in laughter and pointed at Shi Yan as he scolded, “Your mouth is really terrible…no matter what, Yu Yao is still quite a pretty girl, yet you demoted her to being a mantou. If she knows about it she’s going to hate you to death, haha, haha……..”

Shi Yan couldn’t stop himself from laughing too, though he was still trying his best to control his facial muscles from losing control completely. He pretended to be stern as he said, “If you’re eating someone’s leftovers, it’ll be tasteless no matter how pretty it is.”

“Fuck, when He Nuo gets a girlfriend next time, does San Ge want to go check if she was a mantou that had been bitten?” Qiu Linsong couldn’t continue any further as he burst out into raucous laughter again. Shi Yan laughed as well and kicked him. The two of them thus rode their bikes as they made a scene with all their laughing and mutual cursing.

“……..He Nuo shouldn’t look for a woman, he should be a woman, then it would cause the least trouble if he became our sis-in-law……..”

At the junction where he split up with Shi Yan, Qiu Linsong joked before he rode towards the other side and laughed as he waved his hand.

After he ate, Shi Yan quietly thought of the words, “if He Nuo was a woman”. Shi Yan had never thought of something so impossible before. But, if, if He Nuo really was a woman? It was as if the moment this thought surfaced in his mind, Shi Yan thought of marrying him — he wanted to marry him. He wanted to hold his hands and hug him as they bathed in the warm spring breeze, tread the waves of summer, listen to the patter of the autumn rain and admire the snowfall in winter together. He wanted him to draw warmth from his embrace every night, and wake him from his dreams with a kiss every morning, then tell him: I love you, I’ll love you forever.

Shi Yan held his head that had drooped down. His hair fell in front of his forehead, and his eyes were filled with boundless tenderness and affection. He had merely imagined it, but Shi Yan’s heart couldn’t contain all the warmth he felt so his feelings were overflowing. During those nights when he stayed over at He Nuo’s house and had to quietly leave before dawn, he would always sneak a look at He Nuo before he went back. He Nuo would usually be in a deep slumber as he used Shi Yan’s arm as a pillow, then Shi Yan would give him a gentle kiss on his lips. However, he had always felt like something was missing. And in this moment everything was made clear to him — what was missing were those three words that have always been left unsaid!

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