Chapter 81 (2/2)

“He Nuo.”

He Nuo almost shed tears just a moment ago, but now the corners of his mouth merely twitched.

“It hurts?” Shi Yan saw his mouth twitch.

“Un.”

“I’ll come out now?”

He Nuo nodded. Shi Yan retreated cautiously. At the moment his entire object slid out, He Nuo uttered a moan, which was accompanied by his exhalation. Right afterwards, a cloudy liquid entangled with red threads of silk leaked out. Shi Yan grabbed his clothes and took his handkerchief to place it underneath, then he walked over to a cabinet to open one of its drawers and took a roll of toilet paper out. After he scrubbed off all the traces on He Nuo’s body, Shi Yan covered him with some clothes first before he started cleaning himself up.

He Nuo’s eyes had always been following him. He was really puzzled as to how this naked Shi Yan could move around in front of him in such a calm manner without any clothes on.

After he put on his shirt and pants, Shi Yan went back to the sofa and held He Nuo up. Once he moved, He Nuo quivered a few times. Shi Yan asked, “Does it hurt a lot?”

“It’s okay.”

Shi Yan let him lie in his embrace and kissed him, “That felt great. He Nuo, I really like you.”

He Nuo leaned his head close to Shi Yan. Shi Yan was in a drunken mood after his release, so he didn’t see the conflicted tears that trickled down He Nuo’s cheeks.

He Nuo took a longer time to rest this time, and afterwards it was Shi Yan who helped He Nuo put his clothes on since he couldn’t really move about. After he dressed He Nuo, Shi Yan removed all their traces in the office. By the time he sent He Nuo back home, it was already 11pm.

He Nuo couldn’t sleep well that night. Part of the reason was because of his body’s discomfort — that forbidden area always seemed to contain Shi Yan’s thick object as it throbbed with a dull pain from being expanded. But the main reason was because his mind was in a mess. He Nuo couldn’t figure out why things were like this. There was no sharp pain, but Shi Yan’s pounding movements had made him feel deeply humiliated. Yet when he wanted to push him away, he heard the words ‘I like you’ next to his ear and his hands changed from a push to a wrap around his body, solely because of the warmth that surged through his heart from hearing those words.

“You can do something like this as long as you like someone? Then what will happen in the future? Isn’t this something you do with girls? Is Shi Yan using me as a replacement for a girl? To use me until he gets a girlfriend?” While he was thinking of all these, the person lying on another bed was ruminating over the same problems. Of course Shi Yan knew what the normal situation should be, about how he should be embracing a girl to practice those theories, but why did he like to hold He Nuo in his arms? And to enter that kind of place? Shi Yan imagined how it would be like if the other party was one of his other buddies instead, and he immediately felt an urge to vomit and didn’t dare to imagine it any further — it was too disgusting. When he changed it to one of the college girls who was trying to ingratiate herself with him, he could somewhat accept the front part, but the moment he tried to

imagine the latter part, he immediately stopped. He thought it would be too dirty.

But the moment he imagined the other party to be He Nuo, Shi Yan could feel the blood in his body start to boil again restlessly; he really wanted to hold him in his arms forever, and especially liked the feeling when he was inside him — tight, warm, and it would even wriggle by itself. He was reluctant to come out ah. If it wasn’t because He Nuo’s face looked so pale that it seemed like all colour had been drained from it, Shi Yan wouldn’t have withdrawn from him so early. If he could always hold him in his arms like he did tonight, he would want to sleep inside him every night. His affection for He Nuo really did come from the bottom of his heart, and Shi Yan was holding his feelings for He Nuo carefully in both his hands.

When he thought of this, Shi Yan felt particularly excited: that’s right, he likes him, so he definitely needs to get into a college in the same city as him. Then they can be together every day. (Never mind his own college, Shi Yan knows that it’s a lousy school too so it’ll just be a waste of He Nuo’s excellent results)