Part 8 (1/2)
Leaving the room for outdoor covering, she presently returned with a long warm cloak and her hat. Had got them from the hall; came back with them over her arm. Having agreed to accompany him, she lost no time.
He a.s.sisted her to put on the cloak: an expensive, fur-lined wrap. He could not but notice that as, with trembling fingers--a nervousness born of his touch of her--he helped to b.u.t.ton the garment down the front.
Microbes multiply in darkness; sunlight kills them. Her natural manner, open as day, crushed the germ of suspicion. They left the house and walked along the parade: in the direction of the seat at the end of it.
CHAPTER VII
READING THE HAND
The moon was now s.h.i.+ning, now obscured. A capricious, gusty wind played fantastic tricks with dark clouds across its face. But by the time the eastern end of the sea wall was reached the G.o.ddess of Night had risen clear; was s.h.i.+ning brightly. She silvered and lighted up the rippling waters: jewelling it as only the moon can.
”Shall we rest for a few minutes?”
The suggestion was Masters'. Not that he was tired. But he had that on his mind to unload, which he felt would be easier of utterance sitting down.
They sat. After an awkward interval--she was afraid to help him--he spoke again. Not without difficulty. Love-making in his novels he had found the easiest part of his writing. He was finding reality a steed of a totally different colour.
In an imaginative man it is possible for imagination to be more real than reality; just as a painting may give a truer impression than a photograph. To Masters, just now, reality seemed frigid and limited. He felt himself bound; tied down to--and by--hard-and-fast lines.
Then again there was the horrible uncertainty: he was not sure. It was necessary to feel his way. He had heard her laugh once. He did not need a second edition of that--with himself filling the role of laughee. He had no desire to figure as a larger-sized a.s.s than was possible. Putting stripes on a donkey does not make a zebra of it. He said slowly:
”I have been here, to Wivernsea, regularly for years past. Have sat on this seat scores and scores of times. Now--I shall never forget Wivernsea or this seat.”
That was his heavily-shod method of feeling his way; of nearly putting his foot into it. She afforded him no fragment of a.s.sistance; being a woman, of course help was not to be expected of her. Woman is an enigma; sympathetic to the point of soft-as-silk, heart bleeding; yet there are times when she finds pleasure in a man's agony. Masters' speech simply elicited the query:
”Why?”
He gathered boldness from the sheer impudence of her question. Felt that it was impossible that she could have misunderstood; said:
”I shall always link the place--and the seat--with thoughts of you.”
Her impudence had limits. She could not affect to misunderstand that.
Besides, the accelerated beating of her heart warned her. She must change the subject.
”The last time we were sitting here, Mr. Masters, you hurriedly broke into the subject of palmistry, with wise prophecies of bad weather.”
”Realized prophecies! Give me that credit!”
”Certainly; you deserve it! But tell me now--quite seriously--do you believe in palmistry?”
The dexterous turning of the subject annoyed him. He was, however, compelled to reply to her question; said:
”Seriously? Well, to an extent--yes.”
”Really?”
”Oh, don't think I go too far! Don't for a moment suppose that I am pretending that the geography of the future, mountains, plains--the ups and downs of life--can be studied from the map of the hand.”
”And yet I have heard----”