Part 53 (1/2)
” 'Oh, you ask me to go back so many years,' he said. 'My Master and my Maker were one, a great writer of the Greek tragedy just before and during the time of Aeschylus. He had been something of a roamer before he set to work in Athens writing for the theater, and he had traveled into India, where he bought me from a man I scarcely remember who kept me for his bed, and had educated me for his library, and who sold me for a dear price to the Athenian who brought me home to Athens to copy for him and be his bed slave. I loved it. The world of the stage delighted me. We worked hard on the scenery, the training of the chorus and of the solitary actor whom Thespis had introduced into the mix of the early theater as it was then.
” 'My Master wrote scores of plays --satires, comedies, tragedies. He wrote odes to celebrate victorious athletes. He wrote long epic poems. He wrote lyrics for his own pleasure. He was always waking me in the middle of the night to copy or merely to listen. ”Wake up, Arion, wake up, you won't believe what I've done here!” he would say, shaking me and shoving a cup of water into my hands. You know that meter and rhythm were much more important to the Greeks back then. He was the past master of it all. He made me laugh with his pure cleverness.
” 'He wrote for every festival, every contest, every conceivable excuse, and was ever busy on every detail of the performance down to the procession that might precede it or the painting of the masks to be used. It was his life. That is, when we weren't traveling.
” 'It was his joy to go to other Greek colonies and there partic.i.p.ate in the theater as well, and it was here in Italy that he encountered the sorceress who gave him the Power. We were living then in the Etruscan city that would later become Pompeii, and he had been involved in putting on a theatrical in the festival of Dionysus for the Greeks.
” 'I can still remember the night he came back to me, and how at first he would have nothing to do with me, and then he brought me into his presence and clumsily he drank from me, and when it seemed that I would die, when I was sure of it, he gave me the Blood in a blundering terrible moment, weeping and desperate and pleading with me to understand that he didn't know what had happened to him.
” 'We were neophytes together. We were Children in the Blood together. He burnt his plays, all of them. He said that all he had written was worthless. He was no more among humankind. To the end of his existence he sought sorcerers and witches to try to find some way to cure the Evil Blood in himself. And he perished before my very eyes, immolating himself when scarcely twenty-five years had pa.s.sed. He left me a hardened orphan.
” 'But I have always been a resourceful soul, and, never wanting death, have not been tempted by it. I saw Greece fall to Rome. I saw my Master's plays in the bookshops and the marketplaces for a very long time --centuries. I saw my Master's personal poetry read and studied by young Roman boys, and then I saw the rise of Christianity and the loss of thousands of works --poetry, the drama, yes, even plays of Aeschylus, Sophocles and Euripides lost --history, letters --and with them the loss of my 275.
Master's name, and the salvage of a precious few from those days when I had known so many.
” 'I am content. I am resourceful still. I deal in diamonds and pearls. I use the Mind Gift to make me rich. I cheat no one. I am clever beyond what I need. And I keep Petronia always with me. I love the company of Manfred. He and I play chess and cards and we talk and we roam the streets of Naples together. I remember so vividly the night that she brought him here, cursing that she had had to keep a bargain.
” 'They had met here in Naples, she and he, and she had taken a fancy to visiting the swamps where he lived, and having there a hideaway. It had seemed to her an appropriate wilderness from which she could hunt the drifters and the drinkers and gamblers of New Orleans and all the Southland. And eventually, he built her a domicile and a fancy tomb such as she desired, and she loved to retreat to that place whenever she was angry with me, or whenever she wanted what was new and raw, and would be away from Italy, where everything had been done a hundred times over.
” 'But in time she'd come to promise Manfred that she would give him the Blood, because she had told him what she was, and at last she had had to keep her word, or so I told her, and do it she did, and brought him here, so that those he loved would think he had died in the swampland.
” 'Now it will be the same with you. They will imagine that you died in the swamp. Is that not so?'
”I didn't answer him.
”Then I said: ” 'Thank you for all you told to me, and for all you've taught me. I'm humble in your presence. I'd be a fool if I claimed to fully understand your age, the value of your perspective, your patience. I can only offer grat.i.tude. May I put one more question to you?'
” 'Of course you may. Put any question.' He smiled.
” 'You've lived over two thousand years, perhaps closer to three,' I said.
”He paused, then he nodded.
” 'What have you given back to the world on account of this?' I asked.
”He stared at me. His face became thoughtful but it remained warm and cordial. And then he said gently, 'Nothing.'
” 'Why?' I asked.
” 'What should I give?' he asked.
” 'I don't know,' I said. 'I feel as though I'm going mad. I feel as though if I'm to live forever I have to give something back.'
” 'But we're not part of it, don't you see?'
” 'Yes,' I said with a gasp. 'I see only too clearly.'
” 'Don't torment yourself. Think on this matter for a while. Think. You have time, all the time in the world.'
”I was near to weeping. But I swallowed it back down.
” 'Let me ask you,' he said. 'When you were alive, did you feel you had to give back something for life?'
” 'Yes,' I said. 'I did.'
” 'I see. And so you are like my old Master with his poetry. But you mustn't follow his example!
Imagine it, Quinn, what I have seen. And there are small things to do. There are loving things.'
” 'You think so?' I asked.
” 'I know so,' he said. 'But come, let's go back to the palazzo. I know Petronia is waiting for you.'
”I laughed a short ironic little laugh. 'That's comforting,' I said.
”As we stood to leave the cafe I stopped and looked at myself intently in the mirrored wall. I looked human enough even to my enhanced vision. And no one in the cafe had so much as stared at us, 276.
except for an occasional pair of pretty girls who had come and gone after their espresso. Human enough. Yes. I was pleased with it. I was magnificently pleased with it.”
42.
”WHEN WE RETURNED to the palazzo, which we did by ordinary means, that is, walking, we were told by the young serving girl, who was now frightened out of her wits, that Petronia was in her dressing room and wanted to see me there.
”I found the room entrancing. The entire wall was covered in mirrors, and Petronia sat at a great curve of granite, on a bench that appeared made of the same material, with a velvet cus.h.i.+on on it, while the young Adonis finished her hair.
”She was clad as a man in a buff-colored velvet coat and pants, with a ruffled white s.h.i.+rt that would have looked good in the eighteenth century, I well imagined, and at her throat was a huge rectangular cameo that was crowded with little figures, the whole thing surrounded by diamonds.
”Her hair was pulled straight back from her face, and the boy was plaiting it for her. She had two threads of diamonds running over her head, which as I've mentioned was beautifully shaped for this kind of severity, and the two threads of diamonds were being plaited into her hair.
”The room was open to the sea like all the rooms of the palazzo which I had seen, though I think I forgot to mention it with the bath.
”The sky appeared violet to me in spite of the hour, and once again the stars seemed to be moving; in fact the sky appeared to be moving into the room.
”My breath was quite literally taken away from me, not merely by the stars and their various patterns but by the sheer beauty of Petronia in her sharp male clothing, with her bold head once again revealed by the austerity of her pulled-back hair.
”I stood for a long few moments gazing at her as she looked back at me, and then the young Adonis told her softly that the plait was complete and the diamond clasp applied to the end.
”She turned around and gave him what appeared to be a very large amount of money and said, 'Go out, enjoy yourself, you've done well.' He bowed and backed out of the room, as though he'd been dismissed by the Queen of England, and then he was gone.
” 'So you find him beautiful, do you?' she asked.
” 'Do I? I don't know,' I said. 'Everything charms me. As a human being I was an enthusiast. Now I think I'm losing my mind.'
”She rose from the cus.h.i.+oned bench and came towards me, and then she took me in her arms.
'All the wounds I inflicted, they've healed. Am I right?'
” 'Yes, you're right,' I said. 'Except the wound no one can heal, the one I inflicted on myself, that I killed the innocent young woman, that I murdered her at her own wedding. No one can heal that. And no time will heal it either, and I don't suppose it should.'