Part 25 (2/2)

He grinned down upon me from his height.

”How should I know what time it went to bed?” he asked, with a laugh in his voice. ”I never raised a baby. I've come to talk about it, though.”

”Look here, Deacon Daniel,” I cried out, with affected indignation, ”I will not have my baby called 'it,' as if she were a stick or a stock!”

He laughed outright at this; then at my invitation sat down beside me.

We were silent for a time, looking at the color fading in the west, and the single star swimming out of the purple as the sky changed into gray.

The frogs were working at their music with all the persistence of a child strumming five-finger exercises, but their noise only made the evening more peaceful.

”How restful it is,” I said to him at last; ”it almost makes one feel there can never be any fretting again about anything.”

Deacon Daniel did not answer for a moment, then he said with the solemnity of one who seldom puts sentiment into words,--

”It is like the Twenty-third Psalm.”

I simply a.s.sented, and then we were silent again, until at last he moved as if he were waking himself, and sighed. I always wonder whether somewhere in the past Deacon Richards has had his romance, and if so what it may have been. If he has, a night like this might well bring it up to his memory. I am glad if it comes to him with the peace of a psalm.

”Have you thought, Miss Ruth,” the Deacon asked at length in the growing dark, ”what a responsibility you are taking upon yourself in having that baby?”

It was like the dear old man to have considered me and to look at the moral side of the question. He wanted to help me, I could see; and of course he cannot understand how entirely religious one may be without theology. I told him I had thought of it very seriously; and it seemed to me sometimes that it was more than I was equal to. But I added that I could not help thinking I could do better by baby than Mrs. Webbe.

”Mrs. Webbe is no sort of a woman to bring up a child,” he agreed. Then he added, with a shrewdness that surprised me a little: ”Babies have got to be given baby-treatment as well as baby-food.”

”Of course they have,” was my reply. ”Babies have a right to love as well as to milk, and poor little Thomasine would get very little from her grandmother.”

Deacon Daniel gave a contemptuous snort.

”That woman couldn't really love anything,” he declared; ”or if she did she'd show it by being hateful.”

I said she certainly loved Tom.

”Yes,” he retorted; ”and she's nagged him to death. For my part I can't more than half blame Tom Webbe as I ought to, when I think of his having had his mother to thorn him everlastingly.”

”Then you do think it's better for baby to be with me than with her grandmother?” I asked him.

”It's a hundred times better, of course; but I wondered if you'd thought of the responsibility of its--of her religious instruction.”

We had come to the true kernel of the Deacon's errand. I really believe that in his mind was more concern for me than for baby. He is always unhappy that I am not in the fold of the church; and I fancy that more or less consciously he was making of Thomasine an excuse for an attempt to reach me. It is not difficult to understand his feeling. Mother used to affirm that believers are anxious to proselyte because they cannot bear to have anybody refuse to acknowledge that they are right. This is not, I am sure, the whole of it. Of course no human being likes to be thought wrong, especially on a thing which, like religion, cannot be proved; but there is a good deal of genuine love in the attempt of a man like Deacon Daniel to convert an unbeliever. He is really grieved for me, and I would do anything short of actual dishonesty to make him suppose that I believed as he would have me. I should so like him to be happy about my eternal welfare. When the future does not in the least trouble me, it seems such a pity that he should be disturbed.

I told him to-night I should not give baby what he would call religious instruction, but I should never interfere if others should teach her, if they made what is good attractive.

”But you would tell her that religion isn't true,” he objected.

”Oh, no;” I answered. ”I should have to be honest, and tell her if she asked that I don't believe we know anything about another life; but of course as far as living in this one goes I shouldn't disagree with religion.”

He tried to argue with me, but I entirely refused to be led on.

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