Part 24 (2/2)

I asked if Mrs. Weston gave any definite idea how this liveliness was to be secured.

”Not very clearly,” was the answer. ”She said something about hoping soon to have a larger house so she could entertain properly. Her dress was dreadfully showy, according to my old-fas.h.i.+oned notions. I am afraid we are too slow for her, my dear. She will have to make a more modern society for herself.”

And so the social doom of George's wife is written, as far as I can see.

I can if I choose ask people to meet her, but that will do her little good when they have looked her over and given her up. They will come to my house to meet anybody I select, but they will not invite her in their turn. It is a pity social distinctions should count for so much; but in Tuskamuck they certainly do.

June 12. Mr. Saychase called again this afternoon. He is so thin and so pale that it is always my inclination to have Hannah bring him something to eat at once. To-day he had an especially nervous air, and I tried in vain to set him at his ease. I fear he may have taken it into his head to try to bring me into the church. He did not, it is true, say anything directly about religion, but he had an air of having something very important in reserve which he was not yet ready to speak of. He talked about the church work as if he expected me to be interested. He would not have come so soon again if he did not have some particular object.

It is a pity anything so n.o.ble as religion should so often have weak men to represent it. What is good in religion they do not fairly stand for, and what is undesirable they somehow make more evident. If superst.i.tion is to be a help, it must appeal to the best feelings, and a weak priest touches only the weaker side of character. One is not able to receive him on his merits as a man, but has to excuse him in the name of his devotion to religion.

Still, Mr. Saychase is a good man, and he means well with whatever strength of mind nature endowed him.

June 13. Tom came to-day to see baby,--not that he paid much attention to her when he saw her. It amuses me to find how jealous I am getting for Tomine, and anxious she shall be treated with deference. I see myself rapidly growing into a hen-with-one-chicken att.i.tude of mind, but I do not know how it is to be helped. I exhibited baby this afternoon with as much pride and as much desire that she should be admired as if she had been my veriest own, so it was no wonder that Tom laughed at me.

He was very grave when he came, but little by little the fun-loving sparkle came into his eyes and a smile grew on his face.

”You'd make a first rate saleswoman, Ruth,” he said, ”if you could show off goods as well as you do babies.”

I suppose I can never meet Tom again with the easy freedom we used to feel, especially with baby to remind us; but we have been good friends so long that it is a great comfort to feel something of the old comrades.h.i.+p to be still possible.

Tom was so awkward about baby, so unwilling to touch her, that I offered to put her into his arms. Then he suddenly grew brave.

”Don't, Ruth,” he said. ”It hurts you that I can't care for the baby, but I can't. Perhaps I shall sometime.”

I took Thomasine away without a word, and gave her to Rosa in the nursery. When I came back to the parlor Tom was in his favorite position before the window. He wheeled round suddenly when he heard me.

”You are not angry, Ruth?” he asked.

”No, Tom,” I answered; ”only sorry.”

I sat down and took up my sewing, while he walked about the room. He stopped in front of me after a moment.

”I wanted to tell you, Ruth,” he said, ”that I am not going back to New York.”

I looked at him questioningly, and waited.

”I had really a good opening there,” he went on; ”but I thought I ought not to take it.”

I asked him why.

”I'll be hanged if I quite know,” he responded explosively. ”I suppose it's part obstinacy that makes me too stubborn to run away from disgrace, and partly it's father. This thing has broken him terribly.

I'm going to stay and help him out.”

I know how Tom hates farming, and I held out my hand to him and said so.

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