Chapter 208 (1/2)

At this moment, An Zhe felt that if he didn't kill Chen Zaiyan, he would be a sinner.

At this moment, Chen Zaiyan felt like he was already dead.

But in the end, neither of them moved.

The terrible silence lasted so long that it was as if the little room were h.e.l.l.

After a long silence, An Zhan finally said, ””For yourself, or for the country?””

When he had finished, he regretted it again, for whatever it was, Chen was guilty.

Chen's silence was different from the silence of the struggle for peace.

There was killing intent in the peaceful silence, but Chen Zaiyan's silence seemed to be suffering from true torture from h.e.l.l.

And this h.e.l.l was actually his own heart.

””There are, and there are books for the old.””

An Xuan frowned. ””You killed him for him?””

Chen let out a long breath, ””That night, was probably the last time I wanted to remember.

No one knew that the old book looked all right, but he was very sick.

Every day, he coughed up blood. Even the Royal Physician Zhuge Liuyun could not do anything. He tried everything he could.

In the end, the old Minister also felt relieved. ””

””That night, in the study of the old book, he and I talked for a long time.

He asked me what it was like to die.

I don't know, so I can't answer.

The old man said he might have felt it, because he had already talked to Death.

What I said to you about death was not really what I thought it was. It was what I said to you that night in the old book. ””

If the world will begin to change from the dead, I will be the first.

But to die at the most critical moment would cause one to ponder deeply.

If the world will begin to change in thought, I will be the first.

I am willing to use my death to make the people change their minds and experience the fear of not knowing whether to resist or not.

There was silence.

Perhaps it was due to him revealing the biggest secret in his heart that Chen Zaiyan became more relaxed.

””The old Minister said that even the hands of the world cannot save my life, but I know that it is not the time to die yet.

The people of this country have not yet sought change out of fear and uneasiness, and my death will do no good.

””But since the Heavens have given me no more time, I can only rely on my own death in the hope of arousing some of the people's thoughts.””

””The old Minister said that if the Heavens gave him another three years, he would definitely be able to do more, and even topple the empress dowager.

However, without these three years, perhaps not even three months, he must consider his future matters. ””

””So you killed him.””

Chen Zaiyan nodded, ””Yes.””

An Zhan sneered, ””You really are his good a.s.sistant. You really are his successor.””

””All men are afraid of death,”” said Chen, ””and so is he, according to the old book.

Thus, he knew that he would not be able to pa.s.s that test in the end, so he needed someone to help him.

That night, the old Minister gave me a packet of poison, which was prepared by the Royal Physician Zhuge Liuyun himself.

Zhuge Liuyun said that people would not feel any pain after eating this poison, and would leave as easily as if they were asleep.

””But even so, the old book still has some fear.””

””He gave it to me, and I put it in the tea.””

After a moment of silence, Chen said, ””Then he made me sit beside him so that he would have the courage to drink.””

For a moment, An Zhe felt as if something was clogging his heart, and his stomach churned. He wanted to vomit, but was unable to do so.

He felt that Chen Zaiyan was so disgusting and pretentious, but there was also a demon hidden under that human skin.

Chen fell into a longer silence, ””If possible, I would like to invite you to kill me after a while.””

He looked at Anjou. ””If I die now, more people will die on the front line.””

As soon as I die, Her Majesty's men will take over the army.

””When the time comes, a group of soldiers who don't know how to lead and how to operate the army will be a disaster for the hundreds of thousands of Great Yan warriors who are still fighting on the frontline.””

Anjou turned away, not wanting to look at him again.

It is his character to pursue a state of exorcism.

Should Chen Zaiyan die?

d.a.m.n it!

For the sin of Chen is not only the death of Hao Ping, but the death of others in the army at that time.

Most of those people had been planted by the empress dowager, but there was still the possibility of accidentally killing them.

However, there was no way to eliminate this evil immediately.

As Chen said, if Chen were to die now, it would be a disaster for the soldiers who were still fighting on the frontlines.

Who could the Empress Mother use?

Most of them were trusted aides from Zhao.

These people didn't have any abilities, once they took over, they would be able to do whatever they wanted.

They didn't know how to operate the Ministry of Soldiers. No matter what, they couldn't hand over the lives of hundreds of thousands of soldiers to the empress dowager.

Moreover, the relations.h.i.+p between the State of Zhao and the State of Yan was not as close as it appeared on the surface. If they could weaken the State of Yan, the State of Zhao would be very happy.

This was a war between the Youlan and Youlan Kingdoms. Once both countries suffered serious injuries, this was the ending that other small countries would be willing to see.

””Do you think I'm a little disgusted?””

Chen Zaiyan smiled bitterly, ””Me too … I didn't dare look at myself in the mirror ever since the old Minister left.””