Part 29 (1/2)
”What is your decision?” I said.
”What am I to say?” she murmured, in a voice choked by tears.
”Promise me some fixed date.”
”I can't--now--like this. I will tell you to-morrow.”
”No; to-day. You have deferred it from week to week. You must tell me now.”
Silence, broken only by the sound of tears.
I waited, determined not to lose my patience.
”Tell me,” I repeated after a pause.
”Victor, you must lend me your handkerchief,” she said, turning her streaming eyes towards me.
The tears rained down over her lips and chin, and fell on the silk collar round her neck. She could not take her own handkerchief from her pocket, sitting as she was with my arm round her. I drew out mine and dried the wet eyes, and then pressed the soft reluctant head against my shoulder. Once there, it remained, too weary to lift itself again.
”Tell me, dearest.”
”What, Victor?”
”The date.”
”What date?”
”The thirteenth of next month,” I said, decidedly.
I felt a startled quiver shoot through her.
”Oh, I could not really settle it without--without--thinking.”
”Yes, you can, and must.”
”But I don't know how long that is.”
”It is exactly three weeks from now.”
”But why the thirteenth?”
”We must appoint some date, and that is when my book appears in Paris, that's all; but choose another, if you like.”
”The thirteenth is unlucky.”
”What do you gain by all this trifling, Lucia?”
Some slight accent of all the angry surge of feelings within me crept, perhaps, into my tone. She did not answer, but began to cry again, not pa.s.sionately this time, but in a weak, enervated listlessness.
”You are most unkind, Victor!”