Part 36 (1/2)

I open the refrigerator and bury my head inside. ”Morning,” I say from the crisper. All I can think is, Not yet. Not yet.

I fiddle with some artichokes, the cold spines p.r.i.c.kling my hand. Bent over like this, my head pounds even harder. ”I'm on fix you and Mister Johnny a roast and I'm on . . . fix some . . .” But the words go all high-pitched on me.

”Minny, what happened?” Miss Celia has made her way around the refrigerator door without me even realizing it. My face bunches up. The cut on my eyebrow breaks open again, the hot blood stinging like a razor. Usually my bruises don't show. what happened?” Miss Celia has made her way around the refrigerator door without me even realizing it. My face bunches up. The cut on my eyebrow breaks open again, the hot blood stinging like a razor. Usually my bruises don't show.

”Honey, set down. Did you take a spill?” She props her hand on the hip of her pink nightgown. ”Did you trip on the fan cord again?”

”I'm fine,” I say, trying to turn so she can't see me. But Miss Celia's moving with me, bug-eyeing the cut like she's never seen anything so awful. I had a white lady tell me once that blood looks redder on a colored person. I take a wad of cotton from my pocket, hold it to my face.

”It's nothing,” I say. ”I banged it in the bathtub.”

”Minny, that thing's bleeding. I think you need you some st.i.tches. Let me get Doctor Neal over here.” She grabs the phone from the wall, then bangs it back. ”Oh, he's up at the hunting camp with Johnny. I'll call Doctor Steele, then.”

”Miss Celia, I don't need no doctor.”

”You need medical attention, Minny,” she says, picking the phone back up.

Do I really have to say it? I grit my teeth to get it out. ”Them doctors ain't gone work on no colored person, Miss Celia.”

She hangs the phone up again.

I turn and face the sink. I keep thinking, This ain't n.o.body's business, just do your work, This ain't n.o.body's business, just do your work, but I haven't had a minute's sleep. Leroy screamed at me all night, threw the sugar bowl upside my head, threw my clothes out on the porch. I mean, when he's drinking the Thunderbird, it's one thing, but . . . but I haven't had a minute's sleep. Leroy screamed at me all night, threw the sugar bowl upside my head, threw my clothes out on the porch. I mean, when he's drinking the Thunderbird, it's one thing, but . . . oh. oh. The shame is so heavy I think it might pull me to the floor. Leroy, he wasn't on the Thunderbird this time. This time he beat me stone-cold sober. The shame is so heavy I think it might pull me to the floor. Leroy, he wasn't on the Thunderbird this time. This time he beat me stone-cold sober.

”Go on out a here, Miss Celia, let me get some work done,” I say because I just need some time alone. At first, I thought Leroy had found out about my working with Miss Skeeter. It was the only reason I could come up with while he was beating me with his hand. But he didn't say a thing about it. He was just beating me for the pure pleasure of it.

”Minny?” Miss Celia says, eyeing the cut again. ”Are you sure you did that in the bathtub?”

I run the water just to get some noise in the room. ”I told you I did and I did. Alright?”

She gives me a suspicious look and points her finger at me. ”Alright, but I'm fixing you a cup of coffee and I want you to just take the day off, okay?” Miss Celia goes to the coffee percolator, pours two cups, but then stops. Looks at me kind of surprised.

”I don't know how you take your coffee, Minny.”

I roll my eyes. ”Same as you.”

She drops two sugars into both mugs. She gives me my coffee and then she just stands, staring out the back window with her jaw set tight. I start was.h.i.+ng last night's dishes, wis.h.i.+ng she'd just leave me be.

”You know,” she says kind of low, ”You can talk to me about anything, Minny.”

I keep was.h.i.+ng, feel my nose start to flare.

”I've seen some things, back when I lived in Sugar Ditch. In fact . . .”

I look up, about to give it to her for getting in my business, but Miss Celia says in a funny voice, ”We've got to call the police, Minny.”

I put my coffee cup down so hard it splashes. ”Now look a here, I don't want no police getting involved--”

She points out the back window. ”There's a man, Minny! Out there!”

I turn to where's she's looking. A man--a naked naked man--is out by the azaleas. I blink to see if it's real. He's tall, mealy-looking and white. He's standing with his back to us, about fifteen feet away. His brown tangled hair is long like a hobo. Even from the back I can tell he's touching himself. man--is out by the azaleas. I blink to see if it's real. He's tall, mealy-looking and white. He's standing with his back to us, about fifteen feet away. His brown tangled hair is long like a hobo. Even from the back I can tell he's touching himself.

”Who is he?” Miss Celia whispers. ”What's he doing here?”

The man turns to face front, almost like he heard us. Both our jaws drop. He's holding it out like he's offering us a po'boy sandwich.

”Oh . . . G.o.d G.o.d,” Miss Celia says.

His eyes search the window. They land right on mine, staring a dark line across the lawn. I s.h.i.+ver. It's like he knows me, Minny Jackson. He's staring with his lip curled like I deserved every bad day I've ever lived, every night I haven't slept, every blow Leroy's ever given. Deserved it and more.

And his fist starts punching his palm with a slow rhythm. Punch. Punch. Punch. Like he knows exactly what he's going to do with me. I feel the throb in my eye start again.

”We've got to call the police!” whispers Miss Celia. Her wide eyes dart to the phone on the other side of the kitchen, but she doesn't move an inch.

”It'll take em forty-five minutes just to find the house,” I say. ”He could break the door down by then!”

I run to the back door, flip the lock on. I dart to the front door and lock it, ducking down when I pa.s.s the back window. I stand up on my tiptoes, peek through the little square window on the back door. Miss Celia peeks around the side of the big window.

The naked man's walking real slow up toward the house. He comes up the back steps. He tries the doork.n.o.b and I watch it jiggle, feeling my heart whapping against my ribs. I hear Miss Celia on the phone, saying, ”Police? We're getting intruded! There's a man! A naked man trying to get in the--”

I jump back from the little square window just in time for the rock to smash through, feel the sprinkle of shards. .h.i.t my face. Through the big window, I see the man backing up, like he's trying to see where to break in next. Lord, Lord, I'm praying, I'm praying, I don't want to do this, don't make me have to do this . . . I don't want to do this, don't make me have to do this . . .

Again, he stares at us through the window. And I know we can't just sit here like a duck dinner, waiting for him to get in. All he has to do is break a floor-to-ceiling window and step on in.

Lord, I know what I have to do. I have to go out there. I have to get him first. first.

”You stand back, Miss Celia,” I say and my voice is shaking. I go get Mister Johnny's hunting knife, still in the sheath, from the bear. But the blade's so short, he'll have to be awful close for me to cut him, so I get the broom too. I look out and he's in the middle of the yard, looking up at the house. Figuring things out.

I open the back door and slip out. Across the yard, the man smiles at me, showing a mouth with about two teeth. He stops punching and goes back to stroking himself, smoothly, evenly now.

”Lock the door,” I hiss behind me. ”Keep it locked.” I hear the click.

I tuck the knife in the belt of my uniform, make sure it's tight. And I grip the broom with both hands.

”You get on out a here, you fool!” I yell. But the man doesn't move. I take a few steps closer. And then so does he and I hear myself praying, Lord protect me from this naked white man . . . Lord protect me from this naked white man . . .

”I got me a knife!” I holler. I take some more steps and he does too. When I get seven or eight feet from him, I'm panting. We both stare.

”Why, you're a fat n.i.g.g.e.r,” he calls in a strange, high voice and gives himself a long stroke.

I take a deep breath. And then I rush forward and swing with the broom. Whoos.h.!.+ Whoos.h.!.+ I've missed him by inches and he dances away. I lunge again and the man runs toward the house. He heads straight for the back door, where Miss Celia's face is in the window. I've missed him by inches and he dances away. I lunge again and the man runs toward the house. He heads straight for the back door, where Miss Celia's face is in the window.

”n.i.g.g.e.r can't catch me! n.i.g.g.e.r too fat to run!”

He makes it to the steps and I panic that he's going to try and bust down the door, but then he flips around and runs along the sideyard, holding that gigantic flopping po'boy in his hand.

”You get out a here!” I scream after him, feeling a sharp pain, knowing my cut's ripping wider.

I rush him hard from the bushes to the pool, heaving and panting. He slows at the edge of the water and I get close and land a good swing on his rear, thwak! thwak! The stick snaps and the brush-end flies off. The stick snaps and the brush-end flies off.

”Didn't hurt!” He jiggles his hand between his legs, hitching up his knees. ”Have a little p.e.c.k.e.r pie, n.i.g.g.e.r? Come on, get you some p.e.c.k.e.r pie!”