Part 12 (2/2)
Aibileen's eyes move quickly back to her tea. ”No thank you, ma'am.”
”Please take it, you've earned it.”
I hear chairs sc.r.a.ping on wood in the dining room, Elizabeth's voice.
”Please, Miss Skeeter. Miss Leefolt have a fit if she find you giving me cash,” Aibileen whispers.
”She doesn't have to know.”
Aibileen looks up at me. The whites of her eyes are yellowed, tired. I know what she's thinking.
”I already told you, I'm sorry, I can't help you with that book, Miss Skeeter.”
I set the envelope on the counter, knowing I've made a terrible mistake.
”Please. Find you another colored maid. A young'un. Somebody... else.”
”But I don't know any others well enough.” I am tempted to bring up the word friends, friends, but I'm not that naive. I know we're not friends. but I'm not that naive. I know we're not friends.
Hilly's head pops through the door. ”Come on, Skeeter, I'm fixing to deal,” and she disappears.
”I'm begging you,” Aibileen says, ”put that money away so Miss Leefolt don't see it.”
I nod, embarra.s.sed. I tuck the envelope in my bag, knowing we're worse off than ever. It's a bribe, she thinks, to get her to let me interview her. A bribe disguised as goodwill and thanks. I'd been waiting to give her the money anyway, once it added up to something, but it's true, my timing today had been deliberately planned. And now I've scared her off for good.
”Darling, just try it on your head. It cost eleven dollars. It must be good.”
Mother has me cornered in the kitchen. I glance at the door to the hall, the door to the side porch. Mother comes closer, the thing in hand, and I'm distracted by how thin her wrists look, how frail her arms are carrying the heavy gray machine. She pushes me down into a chair, not so frail after all, and squeezes a noisy, farty tube of goo on my head. Mother's been chasing me with the Magic Soft & Silky s.h.i.+nalator for two days now.
She rubs the cream in my hair with both hands. I can practically feel the hope in her fingers. A cream will not straighten my nose or take a foot off my height. It won't add distinction to my almost translucent eyebrows, nor add weight to my bony frame. And my teeth are already perfectly straight. So this is all she has left to fix, my hair.
Mother covers my dripping head with a plastic cap. She fastens a hose from the cap into a square machine.
”How long does this take, Mother?”
She picks up the booklet with a sticky finger. ”It says here, 'Cover with the Miracle Straightening Cap, then turn on the machine and wait for the miraculous--' ”
”Ten minutes? Fifteen?”
I hear a click, a rising rumble, then feel a slow, intense warmth on my head. But suddenly there's a pop! pop! The tube is loose from the machine and jerking around like a mad firehose. Mother shrieks, grabs at it and misses. Finally, she s.n.a.t.c.hes it and reattaches it. The tube is loose from the machine and jerking around like a mad firehose. Mother shrieks, grabs at it and misses. Finally, she s.n.a.t.c.hes it and reattaches it.
She takes a deep breath and picks up the booklet again. ”The Miracle Cap must remain on the head for two hours without removal or results--”
”Two hours hours?”
”I'll have Pascagoula fix you a gla.s.s of tea, dear.” Mother pats me on the shoulder and swishes out through the kitchen door.
For two hours, I smoke cigarettes and read Life Life magazine. I finish magazine. I finish To Kill a Mockingbird. To Kill a Mockingbird. Finally, I pick up the Finally, I pick up the Jackson Journal Jackson Journal, pick through it. It's Friday, so there won't be a Miss Myrna column. On page four, I read: Boy blinded over segregated bathroom, suspects questioned. Boy blinded over segregated bathroom, suspects questioned. It sounds . . . familiar. I remember then. This must be Aibileen's neighbor. It sounds . . . familiar. I remember then. This must be Aibileen's neighbor.
Twice this week, I've gone by Elizabeth's house hoping she wouldn't be home, so I could talk to Aibileen, try to find some way to convince her to help me. Elizabeth was hunched over her sewing machine, intent on getting a new dress ready for the Christmas season, and it is yet another green gown, cheap and frail. She must've gotten a steal at the bargain bin on green material. I wish I could go down to Kennington's and charge her something new but just the offer would embarra.s.s her to death.
”So, do you know what you're wearing for the date?” Hilly'd asked the second time I came by. ”Next Sat.u.r.day?”
I'd shrugged. ”I guess I have to go shopping.”
Just then Aibileen brought a tray of coffee out and set it on the table.
”Thank you.” Elizabeth nodded to her.
”Why, thank you, Aibileen,” Hilly said, sugaring her cup. ”I tell you, you make the best colored coffee in town.”
”Thank you, ma'am.”
”Aibileen,” Hilly continued, ”how do you like your new bathroom out there? It's nice to have a place of your own, now isn't it?”
Aibileen stared at the crack in the dining table. ”Yes ma'am.”
”You know, Mister Holbrook arranged for that bathroom, Aibileen. Sent the boys over and the equipment, too.” Hilly smiled.
Aibileen just stood there and I wished I wasn't in the room. Please, Please, I thought, I thought, please don't say thank you. please don't say thank you.
”Yes ma'am.” Aibileen opened a drawer and reached inside, but Hilly kept looking at her. It was so obvious what she wanted.
Another second pa.s.sed with no one moving. Hilly cleared her throat and finally Aibileen lowered her head. ”Thank you, ma'am,” she whispered. She walked back into the kitchen. It's no wonder she doesn't want to talk to me.
At noon, Mother removes the vibrating cap from my head, washes the goo from my hair while I lean back in the kitchen sink. She quickly rolls up a dozen curlers, puts me under her hair dryer hood in her bathroom.
An hour later, I emerge pink and soreheaded and thirsty. Mother stands me in front of the mirror, pulling out curlers. She brushes out the giant circular mounds on my head.
We stare, dumbfounded.
”Ho-ly s.h.i.+t,” I say. All I'm thinking is, The date. The blind date is next weekend. The date. The blind date is next weekend.
Mother smiles, shocked. She doesn't even scold me for cursing. My hair looks great. The s.h.i.+nalator actually worked.
chapter 9.
ON SAt.u.r.dAY, the day of my date with Stuart Whitworth, I sit for two hours under the s.h.i.+nalator (results, it seems, only last until the next wash). When I'm dry, I go to Kennington's and buy the flattest shoes I can find and a slim black crepe dress. I hate shopping, but I'm glad for the distraction, to not have to worry about Missus Stein or Aibileen for an afternoon. I charge the eighty-five dollars to Mother's account since she's always begging me to go buy new clothes. (”Something flattering for your size. size.”) I know Mother would profoundly disapprove of the cleavage the dress enables me to have. I've never owned a dress like this.
In the Kennington's parking lot I start the car, but cannot drive for the sudden pains in my stomach. I grip the white padded steering wheel, telling myself for the tenth time that it's ridiculous to wish for something I'll never have. To think I know the color blue his eyes are from a black-and-white photograph. To consider something a chance that is nothing but paper and filament and postponed dinners. But the dress, with my new hair, it actually looks pretty good on me. And I can't help but hope.
IT WAS FOUR MONTHS AGO when Hilly showed me the picture, out back by her swimming pool. Hilly was tanning in the sun, I was fanning in the murky shade. My heat rash had flared in July and hadn't subsided.
”I'm busy,” I said. Hilly sat on the edge of the pool, saggy and post-pregnant fat, inexplicably confident in her black swimsuit. Her stomach was paunchy, but her legs, as always, were thin and pretty.
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