Part 64 (1/2)

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who ought to have a minimal knowledge of professional ethics and proper behavior ...”

Lunzie*s anger finally caught up with her surprise. She yanked her arm free.

”Which does not include grabbing my arm and scolding me in public as if you were my father. Which you're not. May I remind you that I am considerably older than you, and if I choose to . .

To what? She hadn't done what Bias thought she had done. In some respect, she agreed with him. If she had been having a torrid affair with the head of External Security, it would have been unprofessional and stupid. In Bias's place, in charge of a younger (older?) woman doing something like that, she'd have been irritated, too. She'd been irritated enough when she thought Varian was attracted to the young Ire tan, Aygar. Her anger left as quickly as it had come, replaced by her sense of humor. She struggled for a moment with these contradictory feelings, and then laughed. Bias was white-faced, his mouth pinched tight.

”Bias, I am not sleeping with Zebara. He's an old friend.”

”Everyone knows what happens at that opera!”

”I didn't.” That much was true. ”And how did you know?”

This time it was Bias who reddened, in unattractive blotches. ”The last time I came I ... ah. Um. I've always liked music. I try to learn about the native music anywhere I go. A performance was advertised. I bought a ticket, I went. And they didn't want to let me in. No one admitted without a partner, they said.”

Lunzie hadn't known that. After a moment's shock, she realized that it made sense. Bias, it seemed, had argued that he had already paid for the ticket. He had been given his money back, with the contemptuous suggestion that he put his ticket where it would do him more good than the performance would. He finally found a heavyworlder doctor, at the medical center, willing to explain what the opera was about, and why no one wanted him there.

”So you see I know that no matter what you say ...”

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Lunzie stopped that with a laugh. They entered the lift with a crowd of first-s.h.i.+ft medical personnel and Bias kept silence until they reached their floor. He opened his mouth but she waved him to silence.

”Bias, it came as a surprise to me, too. But they don't . . . mmm. Check on it. Besides which,” and she c.o.c.ked her head at him, ”there's the problem of a pressure suit.”

Bias turned beet-red from scalp to neck. His mouth opened and closed as if he were gasping for air, but formed no words.

”It's all right, Bias,” she said, patting his head as if he were a nervous boy about to go onstage. ”I'm over a hundred years old and I didn't live this long by risking an unexpected pregnancy.”

Then, before she lost control of her wayward humor, she strode quickly down the corridor to her own first ch.o.r.e.

But Bias was not the only one to broach the subject.

”I've heard that heavyworlder opera is really something, hmm? Different ...” said Conigan. She did not quite smirk.

Lunzie managed placidity. ”Different is hardly the word, but you may have heard more than I saw.”

”Or felt?”

”Please. I may be ancient and shriveled by coldsleep but I know I don't want to have a half-heavyworlder child. The opera re-enacts a time of great tragedy. I'm an outsider, an observer, and I have the sense to know it.”

”That's something, at least. But is it really that good?”

”The music is. Unbelievable; I'm ashamed to admit I was so surprised by the quality.”

Conigan appeared satisfied. If not, she had the sense to let Lunzie alone. More troubling were the odd looks she now got from the other team members, and from one of the heavyworlder doctors they'd been working with. She could not say she had no feeling for Zebara. Even had it been true, their tentative cooperation required that she appear friendly. She wondered if she should have feigned a more emotional response to the opera.

And on the edge of her mind, kept firmly away from

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its center during the working day, was the question of coldsleep. Not again! she wanted to scream at Zebara and anyone else who thought she should use it. I'd rather die. But that was not true. More particularly, she did not want to die on Diplo, in the hands of their Security or in their prisons. In feet, with the renewed strength and health of her refresher course in Discipline, she did not want to die anywhere, any time soon. She had a century of healthy life ahead of her, if she stayed off high-G worlds. She wanted to enjoy it.

The Venerable Master Adept had said she might need to use coldsleep again. She had trained for that possibility. She knew she could do it. But 1 don't want to, wailed one part of her mind to another. She squashed that thought down and hoped it would not be necessary. Surely she and Zebara could find some other way. That night she had no message, and slept gratefully, catching up on much-needed rest.

The next step in Zebara's campaign came two days later, when he invited her to spend her next rest day with him.

”The team's supposed to get together for a progress evaluation.” Lunzie wrinkled her nose; she expected it to be a waste of time. ”If I go off with you, I'll get in trouble with them.”

She was already in trouble with them, but saw no reason to tell Zebara. And that kind of trouble would make it seem his employers' plot was working well. Surely a lightweight alienated from her own kind would be easier to manipulate. She s.h.i.+vered, wondering who was manipulating whom.

Zebara's image grimaced. ”We have so little time, Lunzie. Your research tour is almost half over. We both know it's unlikely you'll come back and even if you did, I would not be here.”

”Bias has told me, very firmly, that the purpose of this medical mission was not to reunite old lovers.”

”His purpose, no. And I respect your professional work, Lunzie. I always did. We know it could not be a real relations.h.i.+p. You must go and I will not live long.

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But I want to see you again, for more than a few minutes in public.”

Lunzie flinched, thinking of the agents who would, no doubt, snicker when they got to that point in the tapes being made of this conversation. If they weren't listening now, in real-time surveillance. She glanced at the schedule on her wall. Only one rest day after this one. Time had fled away from them, and even if she had not had the additional problem of Zebara and her undercover a.s.signment, she would have been surprised at how short a 30 day a.s.signment could be.

”Please,” Zebara said, interrupting her thoughts. Was he really that eager? Did he know of some additional reason she must meet him now, and not later. ”I can t wait.”

”Bias will have a flaming fit,” Lunzie said. His face relaxed, as if he'd heard more in her voice than she intended. ”I'll have to talk to Tailler. I don't see why you couldn't wait until the next rest-day. Only eight days.”

”Thank you, Lunzie. I'll send someone for you right after breakfast.”

”But what about?” That was to an empty screen. He had cut the connection. d.a.m.n the man. Lunzie glowered at the screen and let herself consider ignoring his messenger in the morning. But that would be too dangerous. Whatever was going on, in his mind, or that of his employers, she had to play along.

When she told him, Tailler heaved a great sigh and braced his arms against his workbench.

”Are you trying to give Bias a stroke, or what? I thought you understood. Granted he's not entirely rational, but that makes it our responsibility to keep from knocking him loopsided.”

Lunzie spread her hands. If the whole team turned against her, she could lose any chance of a good position after the mission. And after the mission you could be one frozen lump of dead meat, she reminded herself.