Part 13 (1/2)
”I could sleep with you, and pay half, you know; and we should be together in the evenings; and her as was home first would watch for the other, and” (dropping her voice) ”we could talk of him at nights, you know.”
She was going on, but Mrs. Hall interrupted her.
”Oh, Libbie Mars.h.!.+ and can you really think of coming to live wi' me. I should like it above--but no! it must not be; you've no notion on what a creature I am, at times; more like a mad one when I'm in a rage, and I cannot keep it down. I seem to get out of bed wrong side in the morning, and I must have my pa.s.sion out with the first person I meet. Why, Libbie,”
said she, with a doleful look of agony on her face, ”I even used to fly out on him, poor sick lad as he was, and you may judge how little you can keep it down frae that. No, you must not come. I must live alone now,” sinking her voice into the low tones of despair.
But Libbie's resolution was brave and strong. ”I'm not afraid,” said she, smiling. ”I know you better than you know yourself, Mrs. Hall. I've seen you try of late to keep it down, when you've been boiling over, and I think you'll go on a-doing so. And at any rate, when you've had your fit out, you're very kind, and I can forget if you've been a bit put out. But I'll try not to put you out. Do let me come: I think _he_ would like us to keep together. I'll do my very best to make you comfortable.”
”It's me! it's me as will be making your life miserable with my temper; or else, G.o.d knows, how my heart clings to you. You and me is folk alone in the world, for we both loved one who is dead, and who had none else to love him. If you will live with me, Libbie, I'll try as I never did afore to be gentle and quiet-tempered. Oh! will you try me, Libbie Marsh?” So out of the little grave there sprang a hope and a resolution, which made life an object to each of the two.
When Elizabeth Marsh returned home the next evening from her day's labours, Anne (Dixon no longer) crossed over, all in her bridal finery, to endeavour to induce her to join the dance going on in her father's house.
”Dear Anne, this is good of you, a-thinking of me to-night,” said Libbie, kissing her, ”and though I cannot come,--I've promised Mrs. Hall to be with her,--I shall think on you, and I trust you'll be happy. I have got a little needle-case I have looked out for you; stay, here it is,--I wish it were more--only----”
”Only, I know what. You've been a-spending all your money in nice things for poor Franky. Thou'rt a real good un, Libbie, and I'll keep your needle-book to my dying day, that I will.” Seeing Anne in such a friendly mood, emboldened Libbie to tell her of her change of place; of her intention of lodging henceforward with Margaret Hall.
”Thou never will! Why father and mother are as fond of thee as can be; they'll lower thy rent if that's what it is--and thou knowst they never grudge thee bit or drop. And Margaret Hall, of all folk, to lodge wi'!
She's such a Tartar! Sooner than not have a quarrel, she'd fight right hand against left. Thou'lt have no peace of thy life. What on earth can make you think of such a thing, Libbie Marsh?”
”She'll be so lonely without me,” pleaded Libbie. ”I'm sure I could make her happier, even if she did scold me a bit now and then, than she'd be a living alone, and I'm not afraid of her; and I mean to do my best not to vex her: and it will ease her heart, maybe, to talk to me at times about Franky. I shall often see your father and mother, and I shall always thank them for their kindness to me. But they have you and little Mary, and poor Mrs. Hall has no one.”
Anne could only repeat, ”Well, I never!” and hurry off to tell the news at home.
But Libbie was right. Margaret Hall is a different woman to the scold of the neighbourhood she once was; touched and softened by the two purifying angels, Sorrow and Love. And it is beautiful to see her affection, her reverence, for Libbie Marsh. Her dead mother could hardly have cared for her more tenderly than does the hard-hearted washerwoman, not long ago so fierce and unwomanly. Libbie, herself, has such peace s.h.i.+ning on her countenance, as almost makes it beautiful, as she tenders the services of a daughter to Franky's mother, no longer the desolate lonely orphan, a stranger on the earth.
Do you ever read the moral, concluding sentence of a story? I never do, but I once (in the year 1811, I think) heard of a deaf old lady, living by herself, who did; and as she may have left some descendants with the same amiable peculiarity, I will put in, for their benefit, what I believe to be the secret of Libbie's peace of mind, the real reason why she no longer feels oppressed at her own loneliness in the world,--
She has a purpose in life; and that purpose is a holy one.
CHRISTMAS STORMS AND SUNs.h.i.+NE.
In the town of ---- (no matter where) there circulated two local newspapers (no matter when). Now the _Flying Post_ was long established and respectable--alias bigoted and Tory; the _Examiner_ was spirited and intelligent--alias new-fangled and democratic. Every week these newspapers contained articles abusing each other; as cross and peppery as articles could be, and evidently the production of irritated minds, although they seemed to have one stereotyped commencement,--”Though the article appearing in last week's _Post_ (or _Examiner_) is below contempt, yet we have been induced,” &c., &c., and every Sat.u.r.day the Radical shopkeepers shook hands together, and agreed that the _Post_ was done for, by the slas.h.i.+ng, clever _Examiner_; while the more dignified Tories began by regretting that Johnson should think that low paper, only read by a few of the vulgar, worth wasting his wit upon; however the _Examiner_ was at its last gasp.
It was not though. It lived and flourished; at least it paid its way, as one of the heroes of my story could tell. He was chief compositor, or whatever t.i.tle may be given to the head-man of the mechanical part of a newspaper. He hardly confined himself to that department. Once or twice, unknown to the editor, when the ma.n.u.script had fallen short, he had filled up the vacant s.p.a.ce by compositions of his own; announcements of a forthcoming crop of green peas in December; a grey thrush having been seen, or a white hare, or such interesting phenomena; invented for the occasion, I must confess; but what of that? His wife always knew when to expect a little specimen of her husband's literary talent by a peculiar cough, which served as prelude; and, judging from this encouraging sign, and the high-pitched and emphatic voice in which he read them, she was inclined to think, that an ”Ode to an early Rose-bud,” in the corner devoted to original poetry, and a letter in the correspondence department, signed ”Pro Bono Publico,” were her husband's writing, and to hold up her head accordingly.
I never could find out what it was that occasioned the Hodgsons to lodge in the same house as the Jenkinses. Jenkins held the same office in the Tory paper as Hodgson did in the _Examiner_, and, as I said before, I leave you to give it a name. But Jenkins had a proper sense of his position, and a proper reverence for all in authority, from the king down to the editor and sub-editor. He would as soon have thought of borrowing the king's crown for a nightcap, or the king's sceptre for a walking-stick, as he would have thought of filling up any spare corner with any production of his own; and I think it would have even added to his contempt of Hodgson (if that were possible), had he known of the ”productions of his brain,” as the latter fondly alluded to the paragraphs he inserted, when speaking to his wife.
Jenkins had his wife too. Wives were wanting to finish the completeness of the quarrel, which existed one memorable Christmas week, some dozen years ago, between the two neighbours, the two compositors. And with wives, it was a very pretty, a very complete quarrel. To make the opposing parties still more equal, still more well-matched, if the Hodgsons had a baby (”such a baby!--a poor, puny little thing”), Mrs.
Jenkins had a cat (”such a cat! a great, nasty, miowling tom-cat, that was always stealing the milk put by for little Angel's supper”). And now, having matched Greek with Greek, I must proceed to the tug of war.
It was the day before Christmas; such a cold east wind! such an inky sky! such a blue-black look in people's faces, as they were driven out more than usual, to complete their purchases for the next day's festival.
Before leaving home that morning, Jenkins had given some money to his wife to buy the next day's dinner.
”My dear, I wish for turkey and sausages. It may be a weakness, but I own I am partial to sausages. My deceased mother was. Such tastes are hereditary. As to the sweets--whether plum-pudding or mince-pies--I leave such considerations to you; I only beg you not to mind expense.
Christmas comes but once a year.”
And again he had called out from the bottom of the first flight of stairs, just close to the Hodgsons' door (”such ostentatiousness,” as Mrs. Hodgson observed), ”You will not forget the sausages, my dear?”