Part 63 (1/2)
”I heard his last words about you and--her,” she said in a low voice.
”Where is Byng?” he asked anxiously.
”In the kloof near by. He will be back presently.”
”Thank G.o.d!”
Al'mah's face was anxious. ”I don't know what you are going to say to him, or why you have come,” she said, ”but--”
”I have come to congratulate him on his recovery.”
”I understand. I want to say some things to you. You should know them before you see him. There is the matter of Adrian Fellowes.”
”What about Adrian Fellowes?” Stafford asked evenly, yet he felt his heart give a bound and his brain throb.
”Does it matter to you now? At the inquest you were--concerned.”
”I am more concerned now,” he rejoined huskily.
He suddenly held out a hand to her with a smile of rare friendliness.
There came over him again the feeling he had at the hospital when they talked together last, that whatever might come of all the tragedy and sorrow around them they two must face irretrievable loss.
She hesitated a moment, and then as she took his outstretched hand she said, ”Yes, I will take it while I can.”
Her eyes went slowly round the room as though looking for something--some point where they might rest and gather courage maybe, then they steadied to his firmly.
”You knew Adrian Fellowes did not die a natural death--I saw that at the inquest.”
”Yes, I knew.”
”It was a poisoned needle.”
”I know. I found the needle.”
”Ah! I threw it down afterwards. I forgot about it.”
Slowly the colour left Stafford's face, as the light of revelation broke in upon his brain. Why had he never suspected her? His brain was buzzing with sounds which came from inner voices--voices of old thoughts and imaginings, like little beings in a dark forest hovering on the march of the discoverer. She was speaking, but her voice seemed to come through a clouded medium from a great distance to him.
”He had hurt me more than any other--than my husband or her. I did it.
I would do it again.... I had been good to him.... I had suffered, I wanted something for all I had lost, and he was ...”
Her voice trailed away into nothing, then rose again presently. ”I am not sorry. Perhaps you wonder at that. But no, I do not hate myself for it--only for all that went before it. I will pay, if I have to pay, in my own way.... Thousands of women die who are killed by hands that carry no weapon. They die of misery and shame and regret.... This one man died because ...”
He did not hear, or if he heard he did not realize what she was saying now. One thought was ringing through his mind like bells pealing. The gulf of horrible suspicion between Rudyard and Jasmine was closed. So long as it yawned, so long as there was between them the accounting for Adrian Fellowes' death, they might have come together, but there would always have been a black shadow between--the shadow that hangs over the scaffold.
”They should know the truth,” he said almost peremptorily.
”They both know,” she rejoined calmly. ”I told him this evening. On the day I saw you at the hospital, I told her.”
There was silence for a moment, and then he said: ”She must come here before he joins his regiment.”