Part 7 (2/2)
”Yes, Blantyre could talk--once,” Byng intervened, gently.
”We were married secretly.”
Byng made a gesture of amazement, and his face became shocked and grave. ”Married! Married! You were married to Blantyre?”
”At a registry office in Chelsea. One month, only one month it was, and then he went away to Madeira to paint--'a big commission,' he said; and he would send for me as soon as he could get money in hand--certainly in a couple of months. He had taken most of my half-year's income--I had been left four hundred a year by my mother.”
Byng muttered a malediction under his breath and leaned towards her sympathetically.
With an effort she continued. ”From Madeira he wrote to tell me he was going on to South Africa, and would not be home for a year. From South Africa he wrote saying he was not coming back; that I could divorce him if I liked. The proof, he said, would be easy; or I needn't divorce him unless I liked, since no one knew we were married.”
For an instant there was absolute silence, and she sat with her fingers pressed tight to her eyes. At last she went on, her face turned away from the great kindly blue eyes bent upon her, from the face flushed with honourable human sympathy.
”I went into the country, where I stayed for nearly three years, till--till I could bear it no longer; and then I began to study and sing again.”
”What were you doing in the country?” he asked in a low voice.
”There was my baby,” she replied, her hands clasping and unclasping in pain. ”There was my little Nydia.”
”A child--she is living?” he asked gently.
”No, she died two years ago,” was the answer in a voice which tried to be firm.
”Does Blantyre know?”
”He knew she was born, nothing more.”
”We were married secretly.”
”And after all he has done, and left undone, you want to try and save him now?”
He was thinking that she still loved the man. ”That offscouring!” he said to himself. ”Well, women beat all! He treats her like a Patagonian; leaves her to drift with his child not yet born; rakes the hutches of the towns and the kraals of the veld for women--always women, black or white, it didn't matter; and yet, by gad, she wants him back!”
She seemed to understand what was pa.s.sing in his mind. Rising, with a bitter laugh which he long remembered, she looked at him for a moment in silence, then she spoke, her voice shaking with scorn:
”You think it is love for him that prompts me now?” Her eyes blazed, but there was a contemptuous laugh at her lips, and she nervously pulled at the tails of her sable m.u.f.f. ”You are wrong--absolutely. I would rather bury myself in the mud of the Thames than let him touch me. Oh, I know what his life must have been--the life of him that you know! With him it would either be the sewer or the sycamore-tree of Zaccheus; either the little upper chamber among the saints or eating husks with the swine. I realize him now. He was easily susceptible to good and evil, to the clean and the unclean; and he might have been kept in order by some one who would give a life to building up his character; but his nature was rickety, and he has gone down and not up.”
”Then why try to save him? Let Oom Paul have him. He'll do no more harm, if--”
”Wait a minute,” she urged. ”You are a great man”--she came close to him--”and you ought to understand what I mean, without my saying it. I want to save him for his own sake, not for mine--to give him a chance.
While there's life there's hope. To go as he is, with the mud up to his lips--ah, can't you see! He is the father of my dead child. I like to feel that he may make some thing of his life and of himself yet. That's why I haven't tried to divorce him, and--”
”If you ever want to do so--” he interrupted, meaningly.
”Yes, I know. I have always been sure that nothing could be quite so easy; but I waited, on the chance of something getting hold of him which would lift him out of himself, give him something to think of so much greater than himself, some cause, perhaps--”
”He had you and your unborn child,” he intervened.
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