Part 37 (1/2)

H lne was on the point of going out. She told Lewis to come and see her at ten the next morning. He went, and as he was standing just off the hall, waiting to be announced, the knocker on the great front door was raised, and fell with a resounding clang. Before the doorman could open, it fell again.

Lewis, startled, looked around. The door opened. A large man in evening dress staggered in. His clothes were in disorder. His high hat had been rubbed the wrong way in spots. But Lewis hardly noticed the clothes. His eyes were fastened on the man's face. It was bloated, pouched, and mottled with purple spots and veins. Fear filled it. Not a sudden fear, but fear that was ingrown, that proclaimed that face its habitual habitation. The man's eyes bulged and stared, yet saw nothing that was.

He blundered past the doorman.

Lewis caught a glimpse of a tawdry woman peering out from a hansom at the disappearing man. ”Thank Gawd!” he heard her say as the cab drove off.

With one hand on the wall the man guided himself toward the stairs at the end of the hall. On the first step he stumbled and would have fallen had it not been for a quick footman. The man recovered his balance and struck viciously at the servant. Then he clutched the bal.u.s.ter, and stumbled his way up the stairs.

Lewis was frightened. He turned and hurried through the great, silent drawing-rooms, through the somber library, to the little pa.s.sage to H lne's room. He met the footman who had gone to announce him. He did not stop to hear what he said. He pushed by him and knocked at H lne's door.

”Come in,” she cried.

Lewis stood before her. He was excited.

”H lne,” he said, ”there's a man come in--a horrible man. He pushed by the servants. He's gone upstairs. I think--well, I think he's not himself. Do you want me to do anything?”

H lne was standing. At Lewis's first words she had flushed; then she turned pale, deathly pale, and steadied herself with one hand on the back of a chair. She put the other hand to the side of her head and pressed it there.

”That's it,” she said; ”he's--he's not himself.” Then she faced Lewis.

”Lew, that's my--that's Lord Derl that you saw.”

”H lne!” cried Lew, putting out quick hands toward her. ”Oh, I'm sorry--I'm sorry I said that!”

His contrition was so deep, so true, that H lne smiled, to put him at his ease.

”It's all right, Lew; it's all right that you saw,” she said evenly.

”Come here. Sit down here. Now, what have you got to tell me?”

Lewis was still frowning.

”It seemed,” he said, ”such a big thing. Now, somehow, it doesn't seem so big. I just wanted to tell you that Folly has come around at last.

We're going to be married.”

For a long moment there was silence, then H lne said: ”You love her, Lew? You're sure you love her?”

Lewis nodded his head vehemently.

”And you're sure she loves you?” asked H lne.

”Yes,” said Lewis, not so positively. ”In her way she does. She says she's wanted me from the first day she saw me.”

H lne sat down. She held one knee in her locked hands. Her face was half turned from Lewis. She was staring out through the narrow, Gothic panes of the broad window. Her face was still pale and set. Lewis's eyes swept over her. Her beauty struck him as never before. Something had been added to it. H lne seemed to him a girl, a frail girl. How could he ever have thought this Woman worldly! Her fragrance reached him. It was a fragrance that had no weight, but it bound him--bound him hand and foot in its gossamer web. He felt that he ought to struggle, but that he did not wish to. He waited for H lne to speak.

”Love,” she said at last, ”is a terrible thing. Young people don't know what a terrible thing it is. We talk about the word 'love' being so abused. We think we abuse it, but it's love that abuses itself. There are so many kinds of love, and every big family is bound to include a certain number of rotters. Love isn't terrible through the things we do to it; it's terrible for the things it does to us.”

H lne paused.

”I'm glad you saw what you did to-day because it will make it easier for you to understand. Tour father loves me, and I love him. It's not the love of youth. It's the love of sanity. The love of sanity is a fine, stalwart love, but it hasn't the unnamable sweetness or the ineffaceable bitterness of the love of youth. Years ago your father wanted to take me away from--from what you saw. There did not seem to be any reason why we should not go. He and I--we're not wedded to any place or to any time.