Chapter 115 - Its Only a Matter of Time 3 (2/2)

”Chen Mu, I know it's hard for you right now, but she also needs your strength. Like I've already said to you that you need to be able to face reality and accept it or else however the amount of time that you two have left with each other would only make you suffocate.”

Chen Mu looked at the reports that he left scattered on the floor and let out a scoff. ”I'll get my shit together. I'll definitely continue making medicine for her cancer. If one cup of herb tea isn't enough to get rid of a stupid cold, then I'll make a pot of herb soup for her. If that doesn't work then, I will figure ways out. I won't give up hope.”

”As a doctor, you should already know that from a medical point of view...”

Chen Mu gathered the reports from the floor, stood up and shoved the papers to Lin Que. He wiped away his tears and slapped his sorrow away, ”don't mention anything from a medical point of view. What are doctors for if they give up before even trying. Even if those papers tell me negative results, I wont give up on her. I'll fight with her till the very end. Papers are dead, but living is hope.”

”But she..” Lin Que tried to say something, but Chen Mu didn't give him a chance to say it.

”She's still breathing, isn't she? Being alive is already a miracle. I've been at the lowest point, and being helpless is not my solution. How did you think I came up with all these pills for Susu? Did you think that it was an overnight thing? No. I failed, slapped myself awake from disappointment and tried again. No matter how unsightly the situation is, I will still try with the smallest glimpse of hope that I have.”

”She's human and a fighter. I'm done with these tears and spitting out how wrecked I am because I know that my girl needs me right now. Even if it's only a matter of time before some infection gets to her, as long as she's here, I'll get my shit together. She needs me to be there for her and only the energetic me could give her courage to fight whatever there is that is coming for her. Thanks for your advice and I understood the things that you've said to me, but let me ask you something.”

Lin Que stuffed his hands in his lab coat, ”Go on.”

”God forbid, but if the same thing that happened today with Susu occurred on Lily, would you give up on her so easily without even trying?” Chen Mu pointed at the stack of reports that Lin Que had placed on the desk.

”Never.” He answered without any hesitation.

”And that is exactly how I'm feeling right now. I finished venting out my anger and sadness, so it is time to do more research. Also, even if that situation were to ever happen, and you end up in your lowest point, I would give you a beating and lecture like what Lily did to me when I found out about Susu's cancer.” Chen Mu reached for the knob.

”Chen Mu, let me know if you need anything. I'll provide everything you need as long as you name it. I believe that she will get better under our strict watch. I'll stand by your side and so will everyone else. You're not alone. If you ever need to release your negative emotions or just talk it out, I'll be here.”

Lin Que gently fistbumped his chest, and Chen Mu did the same from a distance. This time, he remembered to enter the passcode to exit the lab. Lin Que quickly followed from behind, ”two mouths is better than one sometimes. Let's tell them together.”