Part 2 (1/2)
”You'll be singin' for me, mum, will you not?” I whispered.
”And what shall I sing, lad?” said she.
”You knows, mum.”
”I'm not so sure,” said she. ”Come, tell me!”
What should she sing? I knew well, at that moment, the a.s.surance my heart wanted: we are a G.o.d-fearing people, and I was a child of that coast; and I had then first come in from a stormy sea. There is a song----
”'Tis, 'Jesus Saviour Pilot Me,'” I answered.
”I knew it all the time,” said she; and,
”'Jesus, Saviour, pilot me, Over life's tempestuous sea,'”
she sang, very softly--and for me alone--like a sweet whisper in my ear.
”'Unknown waves before me roll, Hiding rock and treacherous shoal; Chart and compa.s.s came from Thee: Jesus, Saviour, pilot me!'”
”I was thinkin' o' that, mum, when we come through the Gate,” said I.
”Sure, I thought Skipper Tommy might miss the Way, an' get t'other side o' the Tooth, an' get in the Trap, an' go t' wreck on the Murderers, an'----”
”Hush, dear!” she whispered. ”Sure, you've no cause to fear when the pilot knows the way.”
The feeling of harbour--of escape and of shelter and brooding peace--was strong upon me while we sat rocking in the failing light. I have never since made harbour--never since come of a sudden from the toil and the frothy rage of the sea by night or day, but my heart has felt again the peace of that quiet hour--never once but blessed memory has given me once again the vision of myself, a little child, lying on my mother's dear breast, gathered close in her arms, while she rocked and softly sang of the tempestuous sea and a Pilot for the sons of men, still rocking, rocking, in the broad window of my father's house. I protest that I love my land, and have from that hour, barren as it is and as bitter the sea that breaks upon it; for I then learned--and still know--that it is as though the dear G.o.d Himself made harbours with wise, kind hands for such as have business in the wild waters of that coast.
And I love my life--and go glad to the day's work--for I have learned, in the course of it and by the life of the man who came to us, that whatever the stress and fear of the work to be done there is yet for us all a refuge, which, by way of the heart, they find who seek.
And I fell asleep in my mother's arms, and by and by my big father came in and laughed tenderly to find me lying there; and then, as I have been told, laughing softly still they carried me up and flung me on my bed, flushed and wet and limp with sound slumber, where I lay like a small sack of flour, while together they pulled off my shoes and stockings and jacket and trousers and little s.h.i.+rt, and bundled me into my night-dress, and rolled me under the blanket, and tucked me in, and kissed me good-night.
When my mother's lips touched my cheek I awoke. ”Is it you, mama?” I asked.
”Ay,” said she; ”'tis your mother, lad.”
Her hand went swiftly to my brow, and smoothed back the tousled, wet hair.
”Is you kissed me yet?”
”Oh, ay!” said she.
”Kiss me again, please, mum,” said I, ”for I wants--t' make sure--you done it.”
She kissed me again, very tenderly; and I sighed and fell asleep, content.
IV
THE SHADOW