Part 14 (1/2)

'Yep,' says Marcus. 'I have. And I've spent it. So now...I think our rental agreement will have to be torn up. Unless it can be renegotiated, of course.'

Just as when you stub your toe and wait a moment, knowing that now...now the pain will come, Frank waits for the rage to surge up inside him. But it doesn't happen.

Calmly he asks, 'How much?'

'Don't know. Five?'

'And if I refuse? If I sit there without...paying rent?'

Marcus pretends to look shocked.

'But that would be trespa.s.sing! I would have no choice but to ring the police!'

Frank nods and says, 'Tomorrow.'

He has no cards to play against Marcus. His father probably wouldn't be very happy that his son has rented out their tree to a tabloid press photographer, but there's no proof.

'Tomorrow, fine by me,' says Marcus, getting to his feet. 'Off to bed. Good luck.'

The light is perfect when Frank returns to the tree. Afternoon sun and soft shadows. Not a cloud in the sky. Like a koala he scrambles up the trunk, makes his way out onto his branch and prepares to chew on the eucalyptus leaves of the minutes for a couple of hours.

The pool s.h.i.+mmers temptingly. The air is warm and caressing, and the deckchairs, the parasol form a stage that is not shouting, but only whispering to its actors.

Come along...come now...

Frank adjusts his position on the branch and takes another swig of his water, which is still cold. It goes down the wrong way as he sees Amanda emerge from the villa, and he presses the crook of his arm to his mouth so that he won't make a sound, a sound that could be heard down below.

He coughs into his arm and his eyes fill with tears as he watches Amanda stroll slowly along by the edge of the pool. She is wearing a red bikini with yellow polka dots. Frank has seen a bikini like that before, but he can't remember where. Panting, he picks up his binoculars and gazes at her.

The same studied, graceful movements as when she is accepting an Oscar for best female actress in a supporting role. For some reason Frank thinks she's unhappy. Trapped in a role from which she cannot escape.

The irritation in his throat subsides by the time Roberto comes out. He walks up to Amanda, strokes her long hair. Frank picks up the camera, focuses, presses the b.u.t.ton and captures Roberto's hand just as it pa.s.ses over Amanda's cheek.

Maybe that's enough.

There has been no photographic evidence of the romance. Now there is. A hand pa.s.sing over a cheek. But the hand continues down towards the waist and stops there. Frank clicks away, holding his breath.

Go on, go on...

And...yes. Roberto moves his face closer to the woman's, and all the hours Frank has spent hating him-this homemade Latin lover from Sundbyberg with his number-one hits and his English with a fake Spanish accent-are just blown away.

Good boy.

Their lips meet, the shutter flies up and down as Frank keeps his finger on the b.u.t.ton, taking picture after picture until the film runs out. He trembles with impatience as the film rewinds automatically, promising himself that he will get a digital camera after this. He rips out the exposed film and quickly inserts a new one. His fingers are sweaty, but he manages to get it in and they're still kissing; Roberto runs his hands over Amanda's body and Frank's chest fizzes with happiness as he clicks, clicks again. He lowers the camera for a few seconds and rubs his eyes.

The couple by the pool turn into two little dolls performing a pantomime. Frank sn.i.g.g.e.rs. They are moving so stiffly, so robotically; Amanda would never have won an Oscar if she had played out this love scene on film.

Frank looks through the viewfinder again. The couple's faces are oddly expressionless, as if they were playing a scene with no idea of how they ought to behave. And who is their audience?

I am.

Frank carries on snapping away, and what he hadn't even dared to hope for actually happens. Roberto gently removes Amanda's bikini and tosses it into the pool. Yellow polka dots on a red background. After a few seconds it begins to sink.

Amanda leans on the table and Roberto pushes into her from behind. The angle is perfect, so is the light. On top of everything else, the photos will be so good that no one will think they're paparazzi pictures. He'll be able to ask more than a million for them.

A million, that was for a kiss. But this...

By the time Frank has run out of film, the couple have changed position twice. Roberto on a deckchair with Amanda on top. Missionary on the tiles. Frank lowers the camera. A drop of sweat runs down from the viewfinder onto his damp palm. He is suddenly terrified. Of losing the films, the camera, whatever. Of something going wrong.

Yellow polka dots on a red background...

A pointless thought in this situation, but where has he seen that pattern before? He can't remember.

His hands are slippery with sweat, his skull a balloon because he has been holding his breath for what seems like several minutes. He feels dizzy. With slow, controlled movements he climbs down from the tree. The lovers have disappeared, gone back into the house. At the bottom of the tree are the four empty plastic containers he tossed aside as he took out new films. He leaves them where they are.

He doesn't need to bother about Marcus any longer. Doesn't need to bother about anyone.

The camera bag is lying on the seat next to him. He glances at it from time to time to rea.s.sure himself that it's still there. He is driving more slowly and carefully than he has done for years. He hasn't been all that particular about his life, but what's in the bag...

He pats it, strokes it.

He won't just be able to make the payments on the apartment, he'll be able to pay off the entire loan. Using the steering wheel as a drum he sings, 'If you don't want my kisses, then you can't have my money...'

He is so happy.

The smell of stale fixer hits his nostrils as he opens the apartment door. The low-lying sun is s.h.i.+ning on the kitchen window, showing up the dirty marks and inviting the dust motes to dance.

He takes the rolls of film out of his camera bag, lines them up on the kitchen table, takes a painkiller for his back, then sits down and simply looks at the five small metal containers.

Now it's a matter of being careful, meticulous. He daren't give these films in to be developed-what if something goes wrong? He intends to develop the negatives himself, at least.

After a quarter of an hour's dreaming, when the painkiller has started to take effect and his back is pleasantly numb, he sets to work. He starts by cleaning: rinsing out the plastic troughs for the various fluid baths, the negative spools and the developing tray. He wipes down the kitchen table and the enlarging apparatus.

The five containers stand there, waiting.

He takes his time. When he has finished he takes a shower, puts on clean clothes. It's that kind of occasion.

When he returns to the kitchen the sun has sunk below the treetops on the other side of Gardet, and the sky is red. The metal containers cast a lattice of faint shadows across the surface of the table.

Yellow polka dots on a red background...

He closes his eyes, tries to remember. The pattern flickers across the inside of his eyelids. Bikini. Pool.

Ah.

The swimming baths at b.a.l.l.sta. He was fourteen. She was fifteen. Or so she said. The first girl to show any kind of erotic interest in him. Ma...ria? Yes, Maria. They snogged behind the changing rooms. Nothing more. She was wearing a red bikini with yellow polka dots.

That was it. Why had it seemed so significant?

Maria. Frank smiles. The hard-on inside his trunks, going home and jerking off until he was exhausted. The picture of her pounding inside his head. Oh yes. Now he remembers. She occupied his every thought for a whole summer.