Part 6 (2/2)

I shall never get well, and I do not wish to, though life is not a gift to be thrown away easily, and on some accounts mine has been a happy one, but the life beyond is better, and I feel sure I am going to it.”

”Oh, Tom, Tom, don't talk so. You must not leave me now,” Daisy cried, all her composure giving way as she fell on her knees beside him, and taking both his hands in hers wet them with her tears. ”Tom,” she began, when she could speak, ”I have been bad to you so often, and worried and wounded you so much; but I am sorry, so sorry,-and I've thought it all over real earnestly and seriously, and made up my mind, and I want you to get well and ask me that,-that-question again,-you have asked so many times,-and-and-Tom,-I will say-yes-to it now, and try so hard to make you happy.”

Her face was crimson as if with shame, and she dared not look at Tom until his silence startled her. Then she stole a glance at him, and met an expression which prompted her to go on recklessly:

”Don't look so incredulous, Tom. I am in earnest. I mean what I say, though it may be unmaidenly to say it. Try me, Tom. I will make you happy, and though at first I cannot love you as I did Guy when I sent him that letter, the love will come, born of your great goodness and kindness of heart. Try me, Tom, won't you?”

She kissed his thin white hands where the freckles showed more plainly than ever, and which Tom tried to free from her; she held them fast and looked steadily into the face, which shone for a moment with a joy so great that it was almost handsome, and when she said again: ”Will you, Tom?” the pale lips parted with an effort to speak, but no sound was audible, only the chin quivered and the tears stood in Tom's eyes as he battled with the temptation. Should he accept the sacrifice? It would be worth trying to live for, if Daisy could be his wife, but ought he to join her life with his? Could she ever learn to love him? No, she could not, and he must put her from him, even though she came asking him to take her. Thus Tom decided, and turning his face to the wall, he said with a choking sob:

”No, Daisy. It cannot be. Such happiness is not for me now. I must not think of it, for I am going to die. Thank you, darling, just the same.

It was kind in you and well meant, but it cannot be. I could not make you happy. I am not like Guy; never could be like him, and you would hate me after a while, and the chain would hurt you cruelly. No, Daisy, I love you too well,-and yet, Daisy,-Daisy,-why do you tempt me so,-if it could be, I might perhaps get well, I should try so hard.”

He turned suddenly toward her, and winding both his arms around her, drew her to him in a quick, pa.s.sionate embrace, crying piteously over her, and saying:

”My darling, my darling, if it could have been, but it's too late now,-G.o.d is good and will take me to Himself. I thought a great deal before I was sick, and believe I am a better man, and that Jesus is my friend, and I am going to him. I'm glad you told me what you have. It will make my last days happier, and when I am gone, you will find that I did well with you.”

He put her from him then, for faintness and exhaustion were stealing over him, and that was the last that ever pa.s.sed between him and Daisy on the subject which all his life had occupied so much of his thoughts.

The fever had left him, it is true, but he seemed to have no vital force or rallying power, and, after a few days, it was clear even to Daisy that Tom's life was drawing to a close. ”The man in the corner,” who had troubled him so much, was there again, and Tom was very happy. He had thought much of death and what lay beyond during those days when Daisy's life hung in the balance, and the result of the much thinking had been a full surrender of himself to G.o.d, who did not forsake him when the dark, cold river was closing over him.

Calm and peaceful as the setting of the summer sun was the close of his life, and up to the last he retained his consciousness, with the exception of a few hours, when his mind wandered a little, and he talked to ”that other one,” whom no one could see, but whose presence all felt so vividly.

”It would have been pleasant, and for a minute I was tempted to take her at her word,” he said; ”but when I remembered my hair, and face, and hands, and how she liked nothing which was not comely, I would not run the chance of being hated for my repulsive looks. Poor little Daisy! she meant it all right, and I bless her for it, and am glad she said it, but she must not look at me when I'm dead. The frecks she dislikes so much will show plainer then. Don't let her come near, or, if she must, cover me up,-cover me up,-cover me from her sight.”

Thus he talked, and Daisy, who knew what he meant, wept silently by his side, and kept the sheet closely drawn over the hands he was so anxious to conceal. He knew her at the last, and bade her farewell, and told her she had been to him the dearest thing in life; and Daisy's arm was round him, supporting him upon the pillow, and Daisy's hand wiped the death moisture from his brow, and Daisy's lips were pressed to his dying face, and her ear caught his faint whisper:

”G.o.d bless you, darling! I am going home! Good-bye.”

”The man in the corner,-that other one,”-had claimed him, and Daisy put gently from her the lifeless form which had once been Tom.

They buried him there in France, on a sunny slope, where the gra.s.s was green and the flowers blossomed in the early spring; and, when Mr.

McDonald examined his papers, he found to his surprise that, with the exception of an annuity to himself, and several legacies to different charitable inst.i.tutions, Tom had left to Daisy his entire fortune, stipulating only that one-tenth of all her income should be yearly given back to G.o.d, who had a right to it.

CHAPTER X.-MISS MCDONALD.

She took the name again, and with it, also, Margaret, feeling that Daisy was far too girlish an appellation for one who clad herself in the deepest mourning, and felt, when she stood at poor Tom's grave, more wretched and desolate than many a wife has felt when her husband was buried from sight.

Tom had meant to make her parents independent of her so that she need not have them with her unless she chose to do so, for knowing Mr.

McDonald as he did, he thought she would be happier without him; but G.o.d so ordered it that within three months after poor Tom's death, they made another grave beside his, and Daisy and her mother were alone.

It was spring time, and the two desolate women bade adieu to their dead, and made their way to England, and from there to Scotland, where among the heather hills they pa.s.sed the summer in the utmost seclusion.

Here Daisy had ample time for thought, which dwelt mostly upon the past and the happiness she cast away when she consented to the sundering of the tie which had bound her to Guy Thornton.

”Oh, how could I have been so foolish and so weak,” she said, as with intense contempt for herself, she read over the journal she had kept at Elmwood during the first weeks of her married life.

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