Part 10 (1/2)
”DEAR CORNELIA:
”No, I meant 'as little' as you need to be loved. I have no adequate explanation to make. I have no adequate apology to offer. I don't think anything. I don't hope anything. All I know is that I suddenly believe positively that our engagement is a mistake. Certainly I am neither giving you all that I am capable of giving you, nor yet receiving from you all that I am capable of receiving. Just this fact should decide the matter I think.
”CARL.”
Cornelia did not wait to write an answer to this. She telegraphed instead. The message even in the telegraph operator's handwriting looked a little nervous.
”Do you mean that you are tired of it?” she asked quite boldly.
With miserable perplexity Stanton wired back. ”No, I couldn't exactly say that I was tired of it.”
Cornelia's answer to that was fluttering in his hands within twelve hours.
”Do you mean that there is someone else?” The words fairly ticked themselves off the yellow page.
It was twenty-four hours before Stanton made up his mind just what to reply. Then, ”No, I couldn't exactly say there is anybody else,” he confessed wretchedly.
Cornelia's mother answered this time. The telegram fairly rustled with sarcasm. ”You don't seem to be very sure about anything,” said Cornelia's mother.
Somehow these words brought the first cheerful smile to his lips.
”No, you're quite right. I'm not at all sure about anything,” he wired almost gleefully in return, wiping his pen with delicious joy on the edge of the clean white bed-spread.
Then because it is really very dangerous for over-wrought people to try to make any noise like laughter, a great choking, bitter sob caught him up suddenly, and sent his face burrowing down like a night-scared child into the safe, soft, feathery depths of his pillow--where, with his knuckles ground so hard into his eyes that all his tears were turned to stars, there came to him very, very slowly, so slowly in fact that it did not alarm him at all, the strange, electrifying vision of the one fact on earth that he _was_ sure of: a little keen, luminous, brown-eyed face with a look in it, and a look for him only--so help him G.o.d!--such as he had never seen on the face of any other woman since the world was made. Was it possible?--was it really possible? Suddenly his whole heart seemed to irradiate light and color and music and sweet smelling things.
[Ill.u.s.tration: Cornelia's mother answered this time]
”Oh, Molly, Molly, Molly!” he shouted. ”I want _you_! I want _you_!”
In the strange, lonesome days that followed, neither burly flesh-and-blood Doctor nor slim paper sweetheart tramped noisily over the threshold or slid thuddingly through the letter-slide.
No one apparently was ever coming to see Stanton again unless actually compelled to do so. Even the laundryman seemed to have skipped his usual day; and twice in succession the morning paper had most annoyingly failed to appear. Certainly neither the boldest private inquiry nor the most delicately worded public advertis.e.m.e.nt had proved able to discover the whereabouts of ”Molly Make-Believe,” much less succeeded in bringing her back. But the Doctor, at least, could be summoned by ordinary telephone, and Cornelia and her mother would surely be moving North eventually, whether Stanton's last message hastened their movements or not.
In subsequent experience it seemed to take two telephone messages to produce the Doctor. A trifle coolly, a trifle distantly, more than a trifle disapprovingly, he appeared at last and stared dully at Stanton's astonis.h.i.+ng booted-and-coated progress towards health.
”Always glad to serve you--professionally,” murmured the Doctor with an undeniably definite accent on the word 'professionally'.
”Oh, cut it out!” quoted Stanton emphatically. ”What in creation are you so stuffy about?”
”Well, really,” growled the Doctor, ”considering the deception you practised on me--”
”Considering nothing!” shouted Stanton. ”On my word of honor, I tell you I never consciously, in all my life before, ever--ever--set eyes upon that wonderful little girl, until that evening! I never knew that she even existed! I never knew! I tell you I never knew--_anything_!”
As limply as any stout man could sink into a chair, the Doctor sank into the seat nearest him.
”Tell me instantly all about it,” he gasped.
”There are only two things to tell,” said Stanton quite blithely. ”And the first thing is what I've already stated, on my honor, that the evening we speak of was actually and positively the first time I ever saw the girl; and the second thing is, that equally upon my honor, I do not intend to let it remain--the last time!”