Part 3 (1/2)

”She sort of drew back when I came toward her,” Claire said. ”Like a cat that don't know you. So I just says, 'Looks like it's going to be a pretty day.' She didn't look like she knew how to answer me. She says, 'I'm looking for work.' Just like that. Real fast.”

Claire had immediately supposed that Dora was the sort of woman who'd always been supported. And yet, she did not appear so much sheltered as deserted, so that Claire had suddenly entertained the idea that Dora had been recently abandoned, perhaps widowed. In any event, abruptly left to fend for herself.

”So I told her, well, you could just go around town introducing yourself. But I could see that idea didn't appeal to her. So I told her she should just go over to the Sentinel and put in a notice. That was the last thing I said to her.”

”The times you talked to her, did she ever mention anybody else? A friend or acquaintance?”

Claire shook her head. ”Not that I recall. She wasn't much of a talker.” She smiled. ”Like you.” She plucked the cigarette from her lips, drained the last of the coffee. ”I wish she'd just kept on going.” She crushed the cigarette in the bottom of the cup. ”Of course, I wish that for everybody that ever come to this town. G.o.d knows Port Alma's fit for nothing.”

She gazed into the cup a few seconds, rolling it between her rough factory-worker's hands. Then she looked up, stared at me quite blatantly. ”You got a nice face,” she said.

I glimpsed my ravaged features in the window gla.s.s, how well they mirrored my wolfish core.

”Nice eyes too.”

The better to see you with, I thought.

Chapter Four.

On the drive back into town, I thought of my brother, of how different we'd always been, two answers to the same riddle, as my father had once said, I the heir to all my father's ways, Billy the golden scion of our mother.

And so it hadn't in the least surprised me when it was decided that I would be sent to Columbia Law, while Billy would inherit the Sentinel.

”Your mother believes that William is best suited to run the paper,” my father told me the night I was informed of their decision. ”As you know, he's always enjoyed being around the office. The printing machines. And your mother tells me that recently he's taken to composing little essays.”

We were in my father's study, a room hung with faded engravings of cla.s.sic scenes, Cincinnatus behind the plow and Cicero in the Senate. It was the room in which we'd read the ancients together while Billy tumbled playfully in the snow beyond the window or went flying past with a baseball bat or a fis.h.i.+ng pole. My father sat in a high-back leather chair, his gray hair s.h.i.+mmering in the firelight, my mother a few feet away, tucked into a floral window seat, a book in her lap.

”As for your own future, Cal,” he added, ”I've often thought that you might be quite well suited for the law.”

”The law?” I asked.

”Everything is cut-and-dried in a legal practice,” he explained. ”There's no need for ...” He searched for the word. ”Sentiment.”

”Unless there's something else, Cal,” my mother said abruptly, her eyes upon me searchingly. ”Some other direction you'd prefer. Or something you have a particular feeling for.” She waited for me to point out such a direction, then suggested it herself when I remained silent. ”Your drawing, for example.”

She meant the sketches I'd made over the years, mostly local scenes, stone walls, wooden fences.

”There are schools where you could study drawing,” she added.

I'd never considered such a thing, but its disadvantage was obvious. ”I couldn't make a living drawing.”

”Exactly,” my father said. He seemed impatient that such a course had even been broached. ”I was thinking of Columbia Law. It's a fine school. What would you think of studying there?”

”Fine,” I said. ”I need a profession. The law is a good profession.”

”Yes, it is,” my father agreed. ”It requires a fine mind. And you certainly have a fine mind, Cal.” He glanced toward my mother. ”And Billy has the right requirement for running a newspaper,” he added.

”What requirement is that?” I asked.

My mother's answer came softly. ”A heart,” she said.

The kind of heart Billy had already demonstrated,fierce and impulsive, disinclined to calculate the odds before diving into turbulent water, swimming out to a drowning child.

”So we're all in agreement, then?” my father asked, getting to his feet now, visibly relieved that so much had been decided without argument.

”Yes,” I said. ”All in agreement.”

I left for Columbia Law the following year, leaving Billy behind in Port Alma, writing to him often but seeing him rarely, save for the all-too-brief summers when I returned to Maine.

Over the next few years, while I continued my studies in New York, his interest in the Sentinel steadily deepened. He went there almost every day after school, staying as long as my father would let him, writing imaginary columns, covering imaginary stories. It didn't surprise me that after graduating from high school he chose not to go to college, but went to work at the paper instead.

Several years later, my father retired, and Billy took over. By then he'd become ”William” to everyone but me, no longer a boy, but a man poised to take his place as a pillar of the community.

We celebrated his ascension with a dinner in Royston. It was the last time we ate together as a family. My mother moved into a cottage on Fox Creek a month later, leaving my father alone in the big house outside of town. She'd planned the move for a long time, Billy told me later. She'd waited only for her sons to grow up, to establish lives of their own.

We'd done just that by the time she left our father. Billy was fully in charge of the Sentinel by then. He'd moved into a small house not far from the newspaper's office, filled it with his usual array of books, magazines, and the bric-a-brac he'd gathered over the years. I got a job in the district attorney's office, routinely prosecuting whatever cases Hap Ferguson tossed onto my desk, and finally took a somewhat larger house only a few blocks down the same street as my brother.

And so our lives went forward. When the water mill burned down, we walked its charred remains together, Billy in order to describe the destruction, I to make sure it had happened by accident rather than design. Still later, when the county's one remaining covered bridge collapsed, we surveyed the ruins side by side. I made sure no harm had been intended, while Billy searched for some small symbol of the vanished humanity the old bridge had served, the wagons and buggies that had rattled through its dark tunnel, as he later wrote, ”carrying wood chips, coffins, brides.”

Over the years, I read scores of his articles and news stories, never in the least imagining that his fate might be coiled invisibly within the folds of a few plain lines: Single woman seeks employment. Any offer will be considered. Inquiries should be forwarded to the Port Alma Hotel. Attention: Dora March.

She'd been in Port Alma over a month before I saw her. Then, on one of those December days when chill winds whip cruelly around corners and snap at cloth awnings, I spotted her coming out of Madison's General Store. She was wearing the long cloth coat I would see so often in the coming months, and carried a bag of groceries and supplies. She didn't so much as glance in the window of Ollie's Barber Shop as she swept by.

”That's Ed Dillard's new girl,” Ollie said when he saw that she'd caught my eye. ”Took over from Ruth Potter. Does whatever needs doing around the house.” His eyes followed Dora as she strode beneath the fluttering awning of Bolton's Drug Store, head bent against the wind. ”She's a pretty thing, that's for sure. Can't blame Ed for hiring her.”

Ed Dillard was a retired businessman who'd once been the town's mayor. He'd been a widower for as long as anyone could remember, and there'd never been any children, a fact that had generated a certain level of speculation as to whom his considerable fortune would go to when he died. He'd suffered a heart attack some six years before, and since then a series of local women, mostly widows from surrounding farms, had come and gone from the great house he'd built on Ocean Street three decades earlier. Some of the women had been fired, but most had quit, the common complaint being Ed's irascible and demanding nature, along with the sheer amount of work necessary to see after such a large house, clean its many rooms, dust the scores of porcelain figurines Ed had collected over the years.

”You could never satisfy him, or even get all the work done,” Ruth Potter told me when I came by her house, the Canadian storm bearing down upon us with its weight of snow, so that I'd had to stomp my shoes outside the door. ”That's why I was so glad to see Dora show up that day. I didn't know a thing about her, of course. Didn't much care either. She was willing to take the job. That was enough for me.”

We were in the front parlor of Ruth's house when she spoke of these things, a room crowded with overstuffed chairs and a lace-covered table cluttered with framed pictures of her son, Toby, a lanky, somewhat lazy boy who'd been blown to bits in the Great War. I remembered him as dull and slow-witted, with little to recommend him but a toothy grin. Glancing at the little mausoleum Ruth had created to his memory, it struck me how ordinary and inconsequential a person might be and yet inspire a deep and deathless love, the joy of Barabas's mother that Christ would die instead.

”Mr. Chase?”

I tried to focus once again on the reason I'd come. ”Yes, go on.”

”Well, I'd seen that little notice she put in the paper,” Ruth continued. She was wearing a brown dress with large lemoncolored flowers and a tattered wool sweater, frayed at the cuffs. A musty smell came from her, sweet and pungent, like overripe fruit. Outside, I could hear her husband chopping firewood, grunting slightly with each blow.

”So you contacted Dora?” I asked.

”Left a note at the hotel, saying that I'd seen her notice in the paper and might have employment for her.” She glanced toward the window. ”Say it's gonna be a bad one. The storm. Hope we don't get snowed in too long.”

”Did you mention what the employment was?”

”No, I didn't say anything about it. I was afraid that if she knew it had to do with Old Man Dillard, she might not give it a chance. He had a reputation, you know. For being hard to deal with.”