Part 34 (1/2)
”But what?” asked Anna angrily. She longed to shake her.
”Why, that about marrying you. I told him it was rot, and I was sure you wouldn't, but as he didn't know what rot was, it wasn't much good. He hunted it out in the dictionary, and still he didn't know.”
Anna stood looking at her with indignant eyes. ”You don't know what you have done,” she said, ”evidently you don't. It is a dreadful thing that the moment Miss Leech leaves you you should begin to talk of such things--such horrid things--with a stranger. A little girl of your age----”
”I didn't begin,” whimpered Letty, overcome by the wrath in Anna's voice.
”But all this time you have been going on with it, instead of at once telling Miss Leech or me.”
”I never met a--a lover before--I thought it--great fun.”
”Then all those flowers were from him?”
”Ye--es.” Letty was in tears.
”He thought I knew they were from him?”
No answer.
”Did he?” insisted Anna.
”Ye--es.”
”You are a very wicked little girl,” said Anna, with awful sternness.
”You have been acting untruths every day for ages, which is just as bad as telling them. I don't believe you have an idea of the horridness of what you have done--I hope you have not. Of course your lessons at Lohm have come to an end. You will not go there again. Probably I shall send you home to your mother. I am nearly sure that I shall. Go away.” And she pointed to the door.
That night neither Letty nor Miss Leech appeared at supper; both were shut up in their rooms in tears. Miss Leech was quite unable to forgive herself. It was all her fault, she felt. She had been appalled when Anna showed her the heart and told her what had been going on while she was learning to cook in Frau Manske's kitchen. ”Such a quiet, respectable-looking young man!” she exclaimed, horror-stricken. ”And about to take holy orders!”
”Well, you see he isn't quiet and respectable at all,” said Anna. ”He is unusually enterprising, and quite without morals. Only a demoralised person would take advantage of a poor little pupil in that way.”
She lit a candle, and burnt the heart. ”There,” she said, when it was in ashes, ”that's the end of that. Heaven knows what Letty has been led into saying, or what ideas he has put into her head. I can't bear to think of it. I hadn't the courage to cross-question her much--I was afraid I should hear something that would make me too angry, and I'd have to tell the parson. Anyhow, dear Miss Leech, we will not leave her alone again, ever, will we? I don't suppose a thing like this will happen twice, but we won't let it have a chance, will we? Now don't be too unhappy. Tell me about Mr. Jessup.”
It was Miss Leech's fault, Anna knew; but she so evidently knew it herself, and was so deeply distressed, that rebukes were out of the question. She spent the evening and most of the night in useless laments, while, in the room adjoining, Letty lay face downwards on her bed, bathed in tears. For Letty's conscience was in a grievous state of tumult. She had meant well, and she had done badly. She had not thought her aunt would be angry--was she not in full possession of the facts concerning Mr. Jessup's courts.h.i.+p? And had not Miss Leech said that no higher honour could be paid to a woman than to fall in love with her and make her an offer of marriage? Herr Klutz, it is true, was not the sort of person her aunt could marry, for her aunt was stricken in years, and he looked about the same age as her brother Peter; besides, he was clearly, thought Letty, of the guttersnipe cla.s.s, a cla.s.s that bit its nails and never married people's aunts. But, after all, her aunt could always say No when the supreme moment arrived, and n.o.body ought to be offended because they had been fallen in love with, and he was frightfully in love, and talked the most awful rot. Nor had she encouraged him. On the contrary, she had discouraged him; but it was precisely this discouragement, so virtuously administered, that lay so heavily on her conscience as she lay so heavily on her bed. She had been proud of it till this interview with her aunt; since then it had taken on a different complexion, and she was sure, dreadfully sure, that if her aunt knew of it she would be very angry indeed--much, much angrier than she was before. Letty rolled on her bed in torments; for the discouragement administered to Klutz had been in the form of poetry, and poetry written on her aunt's notepaper, and purporting to come from her.
She had meant so well, and what had she done? When no answer came by return to his poem hidden in the wallflowers, he had refused to believe that the bouquet had reached its destination. ”There has been treachery,” he cried; ”you have played me false.” And he seemed to fold up with affliction.
”I gave it to her all right. She hasn't found the letter yet,” said Letty, trying to comfort, and astonished by the loudness of his grief.
”It's all right--you wait a bit. She liked the flowers awfully, and kissed them.”
”Poor young lover,” she thought romantically, ”his heart must not bleed too much. Aunt Anna, if she ever does find the letter, will only send him a rude answer. I will answer it for her, and gently discourage him.”
For if the words that proceeded from Letty's mouth were inelegant, her thoughts, whenever they dwelt on either Mr. Jessup or Herr Klutz, were invariably clothed in the tender language of sentiment.
And she had sat up till very late, composing a poem whose mission was both to discourage and console. It cost her infinite pains, but when it was finished she felt that it had been worth them all. She copied it out in capital letters on Anna's notepaper, folded it up carefully, and tied it with one of her own hair-ribbons to a little bunch of lilies-of-the-valley she had gathered for the purpose in the forest.
This was the poem:--
It is a matter of regret That circ.u.mstances won't Allow me to call thee my pet, But as it is they don't.