Part 1 (1/2)

A Duty to the Dead.

by Charles Todd.

CHAPTER ONE

Tuesday, 21 November, 1916. 8:00 A.M A.M.

At sea...This morning the sun is lovely and warm. All the portholes below are open, to allow what breeze there is to blow through the lower decks and air them. With no wounded onboard to keep us occupied, we are weary of one another's company. Beds are made up, kits readied, duties done. Since Gibraltar I've written to everyone I know, read all the books I could borrow, and even sketched the seabirds. Uneventful is the pa.s.sword of the day.

I lifted my pen from the paper and stared out across the blue water. I'd posted letters during our coaling stopover in Naples, and there wasn't much I could add about the journey since then. I'd already mentioned the fact that Greece was somewhere over the horizon and likely to stay there. Someone had sighted dolphins off the bow just after first light, and I'd mentioned that too. What else? Oh, yes.

We discovered a bird's nest in one of the lifeboats, no idea how long it had been there or if the hatching was successful. Or what variety of bird it might have been. Margaret, one of the nursing sisters, claimed it must surely be the Ancient Mariner's albatross, and we spent the next half hour trying to think what we should name our unknown guest. Choices ranged from Coleridge to the Kaiser, but my personal favorite was Alice in Wonderland.

I always tried to keep my letters cheerful, even when the wards were filled with wounded, and we were working late into the night, fighting to save the worst cases. My worries weren't to be shared. At home and in the trenches, letters were a brief and welcome respite from war. It was better that way. And now we were in the Kea Channel, just off the Greek coast at Cape Sounion, and steaming toward our final destination at Lemnos. It was the collection point for wounded from Greek Macedonia, Palestine, and Mesopotamia. There, post could be sent on through the Army.

I'd grown rather superst.i.tious about writing to friends as often as I could. I'd learned too well just how precious time time was, and how easily someone slipped away, dying days or weeks before I heard the news. My only consolation was that a letter might have reached them and made them smile a little while they were still living, or comforted them in their last hours. G.o.d knew, the Battle of the Somme over the summer had been such a bloodbath no one could say with any certainty how many men we'd lost. I could put a face to far too many names on those casualty lists. was, and how easily someone slipped away, dying days or weeks before I heard the news. My only consolation was that a letter might have reached them and made them smile a little while they were still living, or comforted them in their last hours. G.o.d knew, the Battle of the Somme over the summer had been such a bloodbath no one could say with any certainty how many men we'd lost. I could put a face to far too many names on those casualty lists.

A gull flew up to land on the railing close by me, an eye fixed on me. Most were nearly tame, begging for handouts. In the distance, over the bird's shoulder, was a smudge that must be Kea. The sea here was a sparkling blue and calm, Britannic' Britannic's frothy wake the only disturbance as far as the eye could see in any direction. Sailing between the island and the mainland was a shortcut that saved miles and miles of travel.

Or as Captain Bartlett had told me on my first voyage out, ”Keep Cape Sounion on your left and Kea on your right, and you can't go wrong.” And so I looked for it every voyage thereafter, like a marker in the sea.

One of Britannic' Britannic's officers paused by my deck chair, and the gull took flight with an annoyed squawk. ”I see you're already enjoying the morning air, Miss Crawford. The last time we pa.s.sed through here, it was pouring rain. You could hardly see your hand before your face. Remember?”

Browning was sun browned, broad shouldered, and handsome in his uniform. We'd formed a friends.h.i.+p of sorts during the voyages out, flirting a little to pa.s.s the time. Neither of us took it seriously.

”Much pleasanter than France this time of year,” I replied, smiling up at him. ”No mud.”

He laughed. ”And no one firing at you. We should be safe as houses soon.”

”That's good to hear.” But I knew he was lying. It was a game all of us played, pretending that German U-boats weren't a constant threat. Even hospital s.h.i.+ps like Britannic Britannic were not safe from them, despite our white paint and great red crosses. They were said to believe that we hid fresh troops among the wounded or stowed munitions in the hold amongst the medical supplies. There was no truth to their suspicions, of course. And this channel was well traveled, always a temptation. For that matter, mines paid no heed to the nationality or purpose of the hull above them, when a vessel sailed too near. You couldn't dwell on it, or you'd live in fear. were not safe from them, despite our white paint and great red crosses. They were said to believe that we hid fresh troops among the wounded or stowed munitions in the hold amongst the medical supplies. There was no truth to their suspicions, of course. And this channel was well traveled, always a temptation. For that matter, mines paid no heed to the nationality or purpose of the hull above them, when a vessel sailed too near. You couldn't dwell on it, or you'd live in fear.

He moved on, overseeing the change of the watch, and I capped my pen.

There was something about his laugh that reminded me of Arthur Graham. When it caught me unawares, as it had done just now, the gates of memory opened and Arthur's face would come back to me.

During training, we'd been warned about letting ourselves care too much for our patients. ”They are yours to comfort, yours to heal, but not yours to dream about,” Matron had told us firmly. ”Only foolish girls let themselves be drawn into romantic imaginings. See that you are not one of them.”

Good advice. But Matron hadn't foreseen Arthur Graham. He'd been popular with the other wounded, the medical orderlies, and the nursing staff. It was impossible not to like him, and liking him, it was impossible not to feel something for him as he fought a gallant but losing battle with death. I wasn't foolish enough to believe it was love, but I was honest enough to admit I cared more than I should. I'd watched so many wounded die. Perhaps that was why I desperately wanted to see this one man s.n.a.t.c.h a victory out of defeat and restore my faith in the goodness of G.o.d. But it wasn't to be.

And truth be told, I had more than one reason for remembering Arthur Graham and his laugh. There was a promise I'd made. Freely.

If you gave your word so freely, my conscience argued, my conscience argued, then why have you never kept your promise? then why have you never kept your promise?

”There's been no opportunity!” I said the words aloud, then in embarra.s.sment turned to see if anyone had overheard me.

Liar. You never made the time.

It isn't true- You traveled through Kent on your last leave. You could have kept it then.

I resolutely uncapped my pen and tried to distract myself with my letter. The seagull returned to keep me company.

There's a cheeky seagull on the railing every morning. I've christened him Baba, for the man who sat outside our gate in Agra and examined the goods the merchants brought to the house. Afterward he'd come round to the back garden and talk Cook into giving him The gull flew up just as there was a deafening explosion, and the s.h.i.+p seemed to rock on her spine. The deck lurched where I was sitting, pen and paper flying from my lap. It was all so unexpected that I was thrown out of my chair as it too went over. I struck the bulkhead with such force that I rebounded hard against the stairs just behind me. My right arm took the brunt of that, and pain shot up to my shoulder.

I cried out in alarm, trying to scramble to my feet. The explosion had left me stunned. I could hear the shouts and screams all around me, but they seemed to come from a great distance. And then I was standing upright, holding on to the stairs with my left hand. My hearing gradually returned, and I forced myself to think clearly, to remember all those drills we'd attended again and again, and sometimes laughed about over tea.

My life belt. It was in my cabin. I had forgot to bring it on deck with me.

A rating ran by, stopping every few feet to look over the railing.

”What is it?” I called to the young seaman. ”What's happened?”

He didn't answer, his attention on the s.h.i.+p's waterline. But I really didn't need to hear it from him. A submarine had found us and torpedoed us somewhere near the bow. It was the only explanation. Was there a second torpedo already on its way?

There was no time to stand and speculate.

Still dazed, I stumbled through the nearest sea door and went toward my cabin for my life belt. The dark-haired Irish nurse, Eileen, came running toward me in the pa.s.sage, cras.h.i.+ng into me as if she hadn't seen me at all. It jarred my arm, and I smothered a cry. I tried to steady her, but she shook her head and ran on, disoriented and badly frightened.

I came to the next set of stairs, and it struck me suddenly that all this elegance surrounding us-elegance intended for happier voyages, for travelers dancing the night away without a care in the world-might wind up at the bottom of the sea.

Like t.i.tanic. t.i.tanic. Or for that matter, Or for that matter, Lusitania. Lusitania.

No, that mustn't happen here-this great ocean liner would survive.

As the General Alarm was being sounded, the orderlies were collecting under the Major's sharp eye while the rest of us were hurrying to take our stations. Since I was coming from the open deck, everyone asked me for news as they pa.s.sed, but I could only shake my head and tell them I knew as little as they did. Dr. Menzies stopped me and reached for my arm.

I hadn't noticed that my arm was cut, much less that it was bleeding rather badly. His fingers ran quickly, surely, over the skin closest to the gash. I winced at his touch.

”I rather think it's broken. Have you got something to stop the bleeding? I'll set it for you as soon as we know what's happening.” And he was gone.

I reached my cabin, found my life belt on its nail, and cursed Dr. Menzies as I struggled to put the vest on properly. I hadn't had time to notice how my arm was beginning to ache until he drew my attention to it. Now, it hurt like six devils, and I felt a first inkling of nausea from the intensity of the pain. He was right, it must must be broken. I wasn't about to touch it myself and find out. be broken. I wasn't about to touch it myself and find out.

And this wasn't the time to be a problem for others. Using my left hand and my teeth, I managed to wind a scarf around the gash to contain the bleeding.

My kit bag lay at the foot of my bunk. Holding my right arm close to my chest, I reached into it and pulled out the small oilskin packet in which I'd learned to keep my papers and money. Shoving that down the front of my s.h.i.+rt, I turned and hurried back into the pa.s.sage.

It was eerily quiet, as if no one was left onboard but me.

”Anyone need help?” I shouted to be sure no one was lying hurt somewhere. If I'd been thrown to the deck, it was possible that others had been tossed about as well. I listened and heard only the sounds of the s.h.i.+p herself. I opened the nearest doors, only to find the cabins empty. Their occupants were all on deck, then, trying to see what sort of damage we'd sustained, getting to their stations in some sort of order, waiting for instructions. Time that I joined them.

As I turned to the companionway, Captain Bartlett began speaking to the s.h.i.+p's company, and I tried to make out what he was saying. My ears were still full of cotton wool and I couldn't distinguish all the words. Something about a.s.sessing damage and no need to worry. The Abandon s.h.i.+p alarm hadn't sounded, and that was rea.s.suring. Britannic Britannic had watertight doors. Wounded she might be but certainly not doomed. Of course they'd said the same about had watertight doors. Wounded she might be but certainly not doomed. Of course they'd said the same about t.i.tanic t.i.tanic.... At least there hadn't been a second torpedo. Yet. I didn't want to think about what that might have done to us.

I reached the lifeboat station as someone just ahead of me remarked, ”I expect we hit a small craft. A fis.h.i.+ng boat, most likely.” There was a nervous edge to her voice. ”This is probably nothing more than a precaution.”

Marilyn Johnson answered, ”I wish the captain would tell us more. But then he probably doesn't know himself, yet.”

Most of the nurses were wearing their life belts, but several still clutched them in their hands.