125 To break (1/2)

I've always known how fast I can hit. After years of practice, my reaction and movements are much faster than the average person. Although I just wake up in my sleep and rushing to hit, I'm pinched by Jim's wrist. And his fingers are like pincers. I can hardly move and half of my body is numb.

But then I hear Jim's voice, and finally I'm relieved and do not try to struggle: ”It's you?”

He let go of my wrist, still standing in the dark, looking down at me. I get up and say, ”When did you come?”

”It's been a while.” His voice is still so cold: ”Watch you sleep, didn't wake you up.”

Don't know why, I just feel a little chilly. It's late, but there is no light in the room, so he just stands there in the dark and speaks to me, let me feel a little uncomfortable.

After thinking, I say, ”Where's Juan? Does he come too?”

He does not speak. I say, ”Dorra's in the inside room.”

”Dorra, I've taken her away.” Jim's voice hasn't any emotion. It sounds so cold.

My heart is sinking: ”You've taken her away?”

”Yes, when you're sleeping.” He answers lightly.

This answer makes my heart just like has sank to the bottom of the sea!

How complex the meaning in his words is, I can't understand it clearly for a moment!

Dorra was picked up while I was asleep? Joke, who am I? Even I'm asleep, and I can wake up immediately if there's any movement around me! But I didn't realize that there was a person taken away in and out of the room.

What does this mean?

Jim seems to sigh in a slightly unnatural tone: ”I've used a little trick on you to keep you asleep until now. Dorra should have met her father by now.”

”Well…”

The uneasiness in my heart is growing stronger and stronger. Looking at Jim's outline in the darkness, I keep silent.

”Cha!” A fire flashing, it's Jim's lighter. In the dim light, his face, which seemed to never have expression, looked at me now with a complicated look.

He lights a cigarette, but he doesn't smoke it himself, just hands to me. I hesitate to take it.

”Little 5, you've worked hard.” Suddenly his tone changes, ”I know you've suffered these days.”

I smoke and say nothing.

”This thing was nothing to do with you.” Jim's tone is strangely calm, as if he is talking to himself, and as if he is stating a very simple fact: ”From beginning to end, it's Dorra, the child's own ignorance that has caused you trouble and got you in. If we hadn't entrusted you with the care of the girl at the beginning, you would not have been as miserable as you are today.”

He speaks slowly and his voice is as cold as a stone.

”Dorra, she...” Suddenly, I understand something, I take a deep breath and ask slowly, ”How's she?”

”Juan will arrange her to go abroad immediately, and she won't be back for the rest of her life.” Jim says lightly, ”We found a girl who looks just alike her. After arrangment, it should be indistinguishable, and then take the body back directly. This thing should almost be over.”

”Um... But they will continue to chase me. If I do not die for a day, and it's still not going to end.” I feel bitter in my mouth.

Jim is silent for a moment and does not speak.

I'm suddenly laughing.

Really, I'm really laughing!

I feel It's just a joke from beginning to end! A huge joke!

I'm laughing so hard that I can hardly breathe.

Jim speaks nothing and just looks at me so quietly in the dark.

After laughing for a long time, I just feel that my heart is full of grief and indignation, with madness, I say: ”So... I have to die, don't I?”

Jim still doesn't speak. He sits down slowly beside me. Then he takes out another cigarette slowly and lights it for himself.