105 Run away (1/2)

I drive all the way back to my house in the city with Dorra. Coming here again, I carry her upstairs and into the door as I did last time. But the difference is that this time I am so angry that I throw her heavily on the sofa, then turn to the kitchen and pour a glass of cold water back, all of a sudden spill on her face.

She hum, her head and face all wet with cold water, and the water is droping slowly down from her neck. She just lean on the sofa, shivering. Her eyes are still in a trance.

I'm so angry that I run back to the kitchen and put cold water in a basin and pour it on her head.

”Ah!” She's finally responding, screaming, jumping up, and then falling down. She's choking by the water and coughing hard. Her wet hairs hang on her forehead in pinches, and the water trickling down from her head.

The weather is cold, and her clothes are soaked through, and she can't help shaking her arms.

”Are you sober?” I take the basin and look at her coldly.

Her face was originally made up. At the moment, the foundation and Eyeshadow are all washed up by the water, and the whole person looks poor.

”I'm asking you! Are you sober?” I grab her and throw her away again.

”Ah ~” she screams and hit her head on the arm of the sofa. But I don't pity her, so I'm just standing and looking at the girl coldly.

My heart is very hurt, for her absurdity, for her lack of self-love!

She finally sobers up a little, raising her eyelids and looks at me for a moment, then beginning to cry.

”Cry! Do you just know cry?!” I yell angrily, ”If I hadn't come in time today! You're finished!” I take out the camera I have taken back, throw it on the sofa and say angrily, ”Look what this is! Do you want to be raped and photographed? It's funny? Is it fucking brilliant?!”

I raise my finger, point to her and question her, ”What have you promised me? What have you promised me?!”

She's still crying. I lift her chin forcefully: ”Speak! Are you silly? Have the courage to go to that place, why don't you dare to talk now?! Now all you can do is cry?!”

She looks up at me with a pitiful, frightened look in her eyes, like a frightened rabbit.

I take a deep breath. Then I sit down at the tea table in front of her, take out a cigarette and light it. I take a deep breath and ask, ”OK, don't cry! I have a few questions to ask you now. It's very important!”

She is still sobbing, which upset me. I can't help shouting, ”Stop crying!”

She's startled and looking at me foolishly. But finally she dare not cry out.

I think about it and take out a cigarette and light it for her. I try to say in a calm voice, ”Now I want to ask you a few questions. You answer it carefully, you know, tonight. I'm afraid we're in trouble. Do you understand?”

”Under… Understand…” As she's speaking, she's choking and her voice is trembling.

”Well, take a sip of your cigarette...” I understand that I can't just get angry. I try to calm down a little. ”Let me ask you first, why did you go there today? Do you remember what you promised me?”

”... Remember.” There are some panics in her eyes.

”So there must be a reason you were in that place, right?”

”I... I don't want to...” She answers with trepidation, ”Yesterday afternoon... In the afternoon, my classmates said that they would go out to play in the evening. I couldn't say that... Chen Yang... I really didn't mean to. They went out and ask me to go with them these two days. I didn't go to... I promised you to be good, I know...”

I sigh as I see the panicked expression on the girl's face. She also suffered a lot of grievances and frightens tonight, and I can not bear to be too rude to her, and the tone of voice softened a bit: ”And then?”

”And then... She said that this evening was not going outside, but a friend she had recently met was going to take us to a party at home. I hesitated. But they said it should be funny. I thought about it for a while and felt that... Anyway, it's not going to those messy outdoor places, just go to a family party. It shouldn't be a big deal. So I just went with them.”

”And?”

”...” She glances at me, still shivering. ”Then... When I got there, I felt quite normal at the beginning. Those people were rich, but at first they didn't play crazily, they were just drinking, dancing and so on. I… I didn't feel anything. Later, my classmate said that a man who wanted to know me would come and talk to me. Then a man came and said he is the owner of the place...”

I think and ask, ”How many of you went there?”

”Three. Three girls went together.” She's grieving as if she is about to shed tears.

I sigh, ”You know, you're only sixteen years old now... Girls of this age should not drink! And you shouldn't go to such a party at night...” Looking at her trying to talk, I ignore her and continue, ”OK, even if you don't know what the essence of the party is... But don't you know when you go to such a party, It must be drinking, carnival, and dancing? Is it interesting to get drunk and dancing with a bunch of people?”

I look at her, eyes full of disappointment: ”Dorra, I can believe you, you are not a drug addict, do not take hallucinogens, if you had known that the party is like this, I believe you would not go. You haven't fallen to that level. But I'm still disappointed... I'm disappointed of... Are you so fond of play? How do you like going to these occasions?”

She's wiping her tears: ”I said no... But they dragged me to... They also said that I've become too honest lately and that I'm very rustic...”

I'm so angry that I laughing instead. ”Then you went? How old are you? Who are they? A bunch of bullies! A bunch of ignorant fools! When they said they want you to go, you just go? Your legs grow on your own body! If you didn't want to go yourself, can they still knock you out and take you forcibly? To put it bluntly, it was you who couldn't bear to go out and play!”

”But they said…” She still wants to argue.

”You have no opinion on your own?” I ask her lightly, ”Do you have to listen to what they say? If they want you to die, will you follow them?”

I continue coldly saying, ”You know when I was saving you tonight, what did I see outside? I tell you, I saw your two classmates! The first one was in the garage. If I hadn't been there, she would have been gang raped by two men! Another girl, in the lobby, has taken psychedelic drugs. When I came out, I saw two men tearing her clothes.”