Your Highness Yh Chapter 46 (2/2)

This thought flashed through Lin Shan’s mind and she suddenly forgot about the Palace, her ident.i.ty, Lian Feng’s past, and everything else. She wanted to do something very impulsive.

“Lian Feng.” Her voice was light and soft, very different from her usual voice.

“What is it?” He asked.

“If… I’m saying if…” She paused. “If we don’t return to the Palace…what do you think?”

Her voice was light, but it was enough to make Lian Feng freeze.

The night was dark, and the moon was hanging from the sky. The mountainous wind blew across the black forest and the sound of rustling leaves could be heard.

The stillness of the night was very evident, but Lin Shan’s heart couldn’t remain still. It was pounding very loudly. She longed to hear a particular answer from Lian Feng.

But she didn’t get a reply.

At that moment, Lin Shan didn’t know what to feel. She was kind of angry and disappointed at the same time. Her fingers were holding onto Lian Feng so tightly that her joints were turning white. Still, no words were spoken.

The silence dragged on. Lian Feng finally spoke up after a very long time: “You’re not Song Luo,  am I correct?”

This abrupt question caught Lin Shan off guard. She could have denied it, but she didn’t.

“What’s your real name?” Lian Feng asked.

“Lin Shan….” She murmured in a low tone.

“Lin Shan….” Lian Feng repeated her name. Then he said to himself: “Sounds better than Song Luo…”

Lin Shan felt powerless for the first time. Initially, she was upset at Lian Feng for not giving her a straight answer. But now, she realized that he didn’t give her a reply because he knew she was lying to him. He didn’t know her past, he didn’t know her life, he didn’t even know her real name.

Shouldn’t a relations.h.i.+p be based on trust? Yet, she hid so much from him.

“Actually, I….” She suddenly wanted to explain everything.

“The Palace has sent out many secret agents to look for you.” Lian Feng cuts her off.

What? Lin Shan was stunned. The words that she wanted to say were stuck in her throat.

“Have you ever thought about what would happen if they found you, and found out that you are actually not Song Luo? In fact, not even a man? Have you ever thought about the consequences?”

“I….” Lin Shan didn’t know what to say. Of course she had thought about it before, “I thought as long as I leave, it would be…”

“…it would be okay? You’re too naive. You honestly think the Emperor is a fool? It is not easy for him to get to his position today. Plus, the secret agents went through ma.s.sive amounts of training. If they want to find a person, they will be able to find the person.”

Lin Shan was stupefied.

They could find me no matter what? Does this mean I can never leave the Palace? Does this mean I have to hide my true ident.i.ty forever? Does this mean I have to pretend to be someone else for the rest of my life?

“No….” Lin Shan shook her head as she whimpered, “It shouldn’t be like this. I don’t want this to continue… I want to be myself.. I….”

“Of course you want to be yourself!” Lian Feng suddenly puts her down, as he quickly turned around to steady Lin Shan.

Lin Shan’s eyes were unfocused and she looked lost.

“The only way Lin Shan can live, is if Song Luo dies.” said Lian Feng.

*For the “Sunflower Treasury”, apparently it’s a fictional martial arts instructional book that can made a person stronger. However, the user must first castrate himself beforehand, or he could turn crazy!? (something like that). In the dramas I have watched previously, the men all becomes very feminine. Sorry for the confusing description. I’m not too knowledgeable about this.