Chapter 145: Grandmother Meng’s letter (1/2)

Chapter 145: Grandmother Meng’s letter

There was a long silence between us. Suddenly, Suyang sighed and released me.

“So it turns out you’re not as heartless as I thought you were. After three years, I’m still the person you love, right? You can be honest. Regardless of what you say, I’ll believe you.”

How the heck does he expect me to answer this question right now? The word love hasn’t came out of my mouth in so long.

Suyang fished out a photo. It was the picture I took of him while we were at the beach. It was his back view. I wanted to snatch it, but he took it away from my grasp. Suyang stood next to the last lit candle. “I thought you burnt all the photos. Surprisingly, you kept one.”

“It was an accident. But I like the feeling this photo gives off. It would be a pity to burn it.”

The whole time, I had kept Suyang’s photo in my wallet. Although he wasn’t physically by my side, it was comforting to know that a part of him was always with me.

“So you’re saying you would rather keep a still photograph than to get back with me?” Suyang lifted the photo and slowly brought it closer to the candle. “What’s the point. Let me help you end it now.”

Suyang was about to burn the photograph. I screamed and ran forward to rescue the picture, “Nooooo!”

The last candle was extinguished by me. My nose tingled. I wasn’t sure if I was crying due to the burning sensation on my hand or for other complicated reasons, but tears began to fill my eyes. The darkness became very blurry.

“Are you crazy?” Suyang rushed to hold onto my hand. He was carefully rubbing it with his palm. “Aren’t you going too far for a photo?”

“I can’t let you….” I took a deep breath. “Without it, I won’t feel at ease. How about we just pretend we’re strangers at work. I won’t meddle in your affairs and you won’t meddle with mine. From now on….”

Before I could finish talking, Suyang pulled my hand upwards and made me touch his eyebrow.

“This is my eyebrow. This is my eye. This is my nose. This is my mouth.” In the darkness, Suyang continued to lead me downwards. As my fingers touched his smooth skin, my fingertips were overcoming a challenge I never had to deal with before.

“This is me. I am Suyang; a real person. I am still in love with you.” He whispered.

Suyang’s soft and sincere confession smashed apart my defensive line. I wasn’t sure where I got the courage from, but I held onto him like no tomorrow. My heart was aching and I didn’t care anymore.

“Me too! During the past three years, I never once stopped loving you. I tried lying to myself, but it was useless. You’re so stupid. Do you know how difficult it was for me to finally decide to let you go? Yet, you deliberately keep provoking me…I’m trouble, you know.”

“I don’t care what trouble you are. I can decide for myself.”

I stood on tiptoes to kiss him. Just as my lips were about to meet with with his, Suyang suddenly moved back. He raised his brows. “So are you getting back with me now?”

“I….” I was pouting because our lips almost touched. Now, we were standing in an awkward position.

I wasn’t sure. Initially, I had no plans of getting back together. This outcome was not what I had expected. Suyang was probably not used to my behaviour either. I was hot and cold. Even I was confusing myself because I didn’t know why I was acting like this.

“Let me go first.” Suyang was fidgeting.

“Why? Don’t you still love me?” I gave him an innocent face.

“Just let go first…..” Suyang lightly tried to push me off.

“I’m not letting go!” I roared, “I’m only letting go if you trust me! Also, I’m really mad at the fact you changed my room because you mean too much to me!”

“Ok, okay!” Suyang gently patted my hand. “You can continue being lovey dovey later. I’m going to the study to give you something. How am I going to walk if you keep hugging me like this?”

“Huh?” Since Suyang said he was getting something for me, I immediately let go and stood around stiffly. I thought he just didn’t want me to stick on him…

In my mind, I had a drama all planned out. I thought he was trying to get revenge so he wanted to get back with me. Then after I had my guard down, he would leave me...

Soon, Suyang came out from the study and turned on the lights in the living room. He had a letter in his hand. “This is the letter granny wrote for you before she died. She said to give it to you when I see you.”

“Grandmother Meng wrote a letter for me?” I took the letter from his hand and opened the envelope.

To Yixin,

I just knew that one day you and Xiao Su would reunite again. I want to thank you for keeping your promise and not seeing my grandson while I was alive. Although Xiao Su and I appeared to be living the same lives as before, I could tell Xiao Su is very unhappy without you. Every time I see him hiding in his study, I would always reflect. What have I taken away from him? Now, I regret the words I said to you that led to your departure.

I know I have used up my lifespan. I won’t be wandering the Earth like those lonely ghosts. I will reincarnate right away, so you probably won’t have an opportunity to see me again. Aside from Suyang, there is nothing else that makes me reluctant to leave. The moment I know that I won’t see him again, my heart hurts. By the way, I contacted my Master and he said that you’ve already graduated and left. So now, I assume you’re quite good at controlling your spiritual abilities?