Chapter 124: Overwhelmed (1/2)

Chapter 124: Overwhelmed

“Grandma! That’s enough!” Suyang yelled.

I never knew the cause of Suyang’s parents’ death. I went as far as making Suyang join me in Japan…

Suddenly, my heart was throbbing. Suyang….

“After that incident, Xiao Su and I cut all ties with the child. We returned to China and began a new life. In case history repeats itself, I always try my best to separate myself from Xiao Su. That is why we don’t live together. Even if accidents were to occur, at least he wouldn’t be affected…..”

“Grandma. Enough. What’s the point of telling her this? Yixin isn’t that child. She wouldn’t…”

“That’s why it’s even more dangerous! Lin Yixin has the abilities but she doesn’t know how to control it! The evil spirits can take advantage of her!”

Suddenly, I felt very useless…. Why was I here? I really wanted to disappear. It didn’t matter where; as long as I could disappear.

Now, I understood why Suyang was so afraid of ghosts. His parents died because of them. That incident must be a very traumatic moment he’ll never get over. I couldn’t help but imagine how he felt when he found out I could see ghosts.

Did it remind him of the past? If so, what was he thinking? Why did he choose not to tell me about that part of his life?

“Lin Yixin, I know you’re a good child. I hope you’ll reconsider and make the correct decision.” Then, Grandmother Meng left very confidently. She was positive that I would do as she wanted.

No! I can’t handle this. I wanted to run away. I wanted to leave.

Suyang seemed to have read my mind and snatched my hand. His voice was hoarse, “You’re leaving?”

I pushed Suyang’s hand off me and held onto my buzzing head, “I’m going to get some fresh air. My mind is a mess right now. Please give me some time to process everything.”

“No need to think about it. Stay by my side. You are you. Nothing will happen…”

“How can you be so sure that nothing will happen? I can’t even guarantee….deep down, I’ve always known that my ability will cause you problems one day. Just like Grandmother Meng said, I cannot control it. I don’t know how to get out of dangerous situations either. But I try to avoid thinking about it because I’m afraid I’ll regress into what I used to be. I’m just selfish for wanting you to stay with me a bit longer…”

“Why can’t it work out? There’s no issues between us right now!”

“Ever since you found out that I could see ghosts, you’ve never thought back about the accident? I’m like a reminder, right? Being with me will always remind you of your parents’ death since their death was caused by a person who could see ghosts. The ghosts killed them.”

“That’s my problem. Not yours. I can deal with it myself.” Suyang’s determined pupils were trying to sway me. The moment I made eye contact with him, I felt hesitant.

“No, it is my problem. As long as I appear in front of you, you’ll be constantly reminded of your past. I’ve never told you but I had almost been possessed once. Likewise, you’ve never told me about your past. It is because we’re both afraid to lose each other….”

“Since we’re both afraid to lose each other, we should be together and face it together.” Suyang grabbed onto my shoulders to emphasize his true heart.

“Suyang….give me some time to think about it. I-I.. can’t face you right now. I feel so ashamed and sorry. Please let me get some fresh air.”

This time, Suyang didn’t stop me. He gradually released my shoulders and said, “You will make the correct decision, right?”

Correct decision? Grandmother Meng wanted me to make the correct decision. Suyang also wanted me to make the correct decision. But what is the correct decision? Should I do what Grandmother Meng wanted? Or Suyang? Or what I want?

Honestly, I didn’t even know what I wanted. A part of me didn’t want to separate from Suyang at all. But another part of me was willing to leave him in order to keep him safe.

My mind was having a battle with each other. It was like tug-a-war. Both sides wouldn’t budge.

Ultimately, I was torn in half as I fell onto the ground.

Half of me stared at each other, “Are you the correct decision?”

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Everything happened too fast. I wandered on the streets alone. The argument I had with Suyang over food seemed like it happened a century ago. Now, it was only a distant memory.