Chapter 34: Make me feel something (2/2)

Who can understand the pain of those in the lowest rung?

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I stared at the fake Xu Weishan the entire class. I couldn’t imagined how thick of a skin she must have in order to murder her sister and replace her in such a carefree manner.

“Bai Silu! Bai Silu!” The person next to me nudged my arm and brought my wandering mind back to reality.

Since I was so focused, I was a bit agitated that she had ruined my train of thought. So, I gave her a big sister attitude and snapped, “What?”

“The professor just called your name…” The girl’s expression appeared a bit cowardly due to my reaction. She looked wronged.

I was still very unfamiliar with the name “Bai Silu”. I often failed to react to it.

“If you’re not going to pay attention in my class, then I’d rather you leave. I am talking to the student sitting at the very end; Bai Silu classmate. Please take note.” Suyang coldly stated.

Then, Suyang continued his lessons. But there were a few times that his eyes had swept by me. I could tell he was angry…

From what I could remember, I didn’t choose a course called “history of literature”. However, when I received my timetable, the three words “history of literature” had blatantly appeared on my schedule for every Wednesday afternoon.

This was the shadow of my life.

“Bai Silu, answer my question.” Suyang called my name again.

“What…..?” I shook my head. The whole class had their attention on me. What did Suyang say? I zoned out again?

Were University professors supposed to ask the students so many questions? The way Suyang was acting reminded me of my High School home-form teacher. Each time I was caught for not paying attention, he would punish me by making me run around the track.

I wasn’t used to having so many eyes on me. Why did he have to purposely make me look bad in front of so many people? Deep down, I resented Suyang.

The fake Xu Weishan also turned around to look at me. She had a “I know the answer” expression on her face. It really annoyed me.

“Uh…..” Before I could say another word, the bell rung.

Yes! Saved by the bell! I secretly rejoiced. But I accidentally made eye contact with Suyang. I quickly lowered my head and mumbled to myself, “I’m invisible. Invisible. He cannot see me. He cannot see me.”

Sadly, he didn’t have the intentions of letting me go. He spoke in a stern tone, “Bai Silu, follow me.”

Since Suyang was a guest professor, the University had given him an office. I guess it was somewhat believable if he was actually a famous author. I entered the office sulkily. I purposely left the door open so that his lecturing words would be less cruel; since many students or professors may happen to overhear.

Suyang icily stated, “Close the door.” All my hopes were shattered. I respectfully shut the door and placed my hands politely on top of each other. “Boss… I can call you that now, right?”

Suyang slammed a textbook on the table as he hollered, “You didn’t reach my requirements!”

“What?”

“Don’t forget the reason why I sent you here. I didn’t send you here for you to daydream in class. We need to get into our roles. I’m the teacher and you’re the student. But. You. Totally. Failed.”

Each of Suyang’s words jabbed my brain. I was truly speechless.

“Then, please be more clear, boss? Be more specific?! You didn’t have specific requirements, so I acted the way I would’ve. This was how I behaved during my University years.”

Suyang shook his head, “I told you. I want to gain some insight in regards to a teacher and student relationship. Can you make me feel something?”

Forcing a person from society to return back to school was already ridiculous enough. What? Now I have to make you feel something?

“Then tell me what type of girls make you ‘feel something’? I will work hard towards that direction.” On the surface, I spoke in an amicable manner. I gave off the tone that I knew I was wrong.

Suyang seized my hand and locked me in between him and his office table.