Chapter 20: Sheyu doesn’t remember me (2/2)

Suyang dragged me to the bed in a sitting position as he bent over in front of me and clapped his hands. “Goldfish! Wake up! Come back!”

His loud voice brought me back from my inner world.

“I…..I. am. going. to. see. Sheyu. I. think. she. is. awake.” For some reason, I sounded very robotic. My arms and legs were stiff as I headed towards the exit. Surprisingly, they obeyed my orders.

As I left the room, I was quite disappointed with myself. At critical moments like these, I should be calm and collected. Yet, I acted like a fool and was a complete mess.

The feeling could be described as someone scolding me, but I wasn’t able to come up with an argument until after I had returned home. I regretted not speaking up to alleviate my situation when I could.

After I escaped from Suyang’s side, I took small quick steps towards Sheyu’s ward.

From a distance, I could hear a lot of noise coming from her ward. When I got close to the entrance, I could hear tears of joy from Sheyu’s parents.

I was quite confident that Sheyu was awake.

I lightly knocked on the door as I poked my head in. Surprisingly, there were a lot of people inside. There were police officers, the doctor, and Sheyu’s parents.

Most importantly, Sheyu was awake and sitting on the bed.

“Sheyu! You’re awake! I am so glad!” I happily skipped over because I wanted to hold her hand. But Sheyu appeared bewildered.

“You are…?” Sheyu had confusion written all over her face.

My hand hovered in midair. Facing her blank expression, I lowered my head and wasn’t sure where I should place my two hands.

“Who are you….?” Sheyu weakly asked. The three words were softly spoken but they penetrated through my heart. Suddenly, everywhere seemed very dark, and I was standing at a corner with everyone’s attention on me.

Out of the bunch, Sheyu’s gaze was the most intense. I felt as if their eyes were the light source. It was the equivalent of light rays as they shined on me.

I felt like I was a convict being interrogated. It felt awkward, but I had nowhere to hide.

“Sheyu, she is the girl you rescued last time. It’s because of her that we finally caught the homicidal maniac.” I heard someone introducing me to Sheyu.

“I….uh, I want to thank you for saving me last time...also, I’m sorry you ended up getting harmed because of me.” I took a step back to give myself a way out of this embarrassing situation.

She honestly doesn’t remember me?

“You managed to catch the murderer who committed all sorts of crime. We, the police department, should be ashamed of ourselves!” Sheyu smiled as she joked. But I couldn’t smile at all.

“You really don’t remember me?” I was too stubborn. My heart truly wanted to know, and subconsciously it rolled off my tongue.

“What did you say?” Most likely, my voice was too low, Sheyu didn’t hear me, and asked.

I immediately shook my head, “Nothing. Nothing! I said, I hope you get well soon. You’re a good police officer.”

Then, I bowed to everyone and rushed out of the suffocating room.

Perhaps humans were selfish, I missed the spirit Sheyu. We used to be inseparable.

She was the first person I considered a friend. She saved me, and I saved her. Yet, she had forgotten about me; whereas I still remember her. After all the things we’ve been through, I felt like it was unfair to me.

Originally, I left in high spirits, but I returned dispirited and downcast. I went in my cold and empty ward. Both my mind and body were exhausted. I climbed in bed and laid on my stomach as I supported my chin with my elbows and stared out the window. I watched the wavering branch as I began to ponder life.

The leaves were randomly swishing around with a lack of tempo. It was just like how I felt on the inside -confused and irritated.

I walked towards the window and opened it. The cold night air ruthlessly entered and I began to tremble from the cold. Yet, I had no intentions of closing it. Once in a while, getting blown by the wind was probably good for my opinionated brain.

“You’ll catch a cold like this.” An arm suddenly appeared in front of me and pulled the window shut. The transparent window reflected Suyang’s face.

“You’re still here?” I gazed at the reflection as I softly said. “It’s getting late. You should return home.”

“What happened? Earlier you were like a lively tiger. Why are you like a frosted eggplant now?”

“If you want to mock me, just stop. I’m not in the mood to hear this stuff right now. Leave.”

“Alright, I know. I’m not here to be sarcastic. I know this is not a good time, but I still have to say….” Suyang stammered. He was acting all shy and awkward. I couldn’t help but wonder. Was he going to confess to me?