Part 3 (1/2)

”No,” he whispered in a vexed voice.

”I am only listening!” she whispered back, and then after a second of hesitation added, ”My lord.”

He silently pushed her forward and kept his fingers on her elbow. The echoes slowly faded away. So did Linden's desire to follow them, to go where the stone had gone. She matched the lord's pace, a part of her feeling irritated because of his abrupt manner, while the rest was glad of his closeness in the dark tunnel. The darkness, which started slightly away from the tiny fire, had the color and density of ink. It might have the same smudged and sticky feel, too, if she but extended her hand and touched it. It smelled of must and old age.

Another stone clattered away, but this time it was lord Rianor who had kicked it. It was his fingers, too, that stiffened with tension. Linden almost knocked the light out as she grabbed his other hand, holding him like a moment ago he had held her, so that he would not go where she herself might have gone.

His fingers relaxed, then he turned to her with a wry smile.

”It seems that we are even now, Linde.”

Linden released his hand and stared at the fire again, so that she would not have to face him. He had used her pet name, and for some reason it almost made her cry. It sounded almost like a normal ”Lind,” but not entirely. In the lord's voice, the name had a more polished feel. It was strange and new, and in a way it was more disturbing than even this place of shadows and treacherous stones was.

They had walked in almost-darkness for an hour. She had kept control. Until now. Now, even the mobile light could not distract her any more, although she had never seen a mobile candle before this night. She had not even known that a thing of such possibly great implications existed. Dad had hinted that the mobile might even be different from Ber fire, even though it was not wildfirea”but what other fire could there be? Yet, now she could not focus on this. She, who would otherwise tinker even with a stove to see how it worked ...

”We are not even,” she said softly. You did not leave your family tonight, ignorant of whether they would be safe. You know where we are going and what we will find there. I did not kill to save your life.

The lord let go of her elbow and held her chin, forcing her to look away from the fire and at his face. She blinked, trying to adjust her eyes to the sudden lack of brightness.

”I do not like being contradicted, my apprentice.”

My apprentice. His voice was soft, but there was a glint in his gaze that made her think about steel, as in both color and hardness, and he was holding her chin a little too firmly. She was alarmed, for a moment, then she stared back at him.

”And I don't like being manhandled, my master.”

She swiftly raised her hand and grabbed his, her thumb pressing at his wrist. He had done this to her before, so she should be able to do it to him herself. The result was that he squeezed her chin even harder, his other hand shooting up to her face together with the candle. She flinched in expectation of the blow, and trembled in surprise when he did not hit her but seized her fingers and fixed them to his wrist.

”Then let me teach you how to not be manhandled,” he said in the same soft voice and moved her fingers so that she was now holding his wrist at a different angle. ”It only works if you put pressure right here.” He adjusted her thumb to a spot between his bones. ”You are observant, Linde, I like that. Now free yourself.”

Linden carefully moved her thumb away and then back, making sure that she could find the pressure point by herself. She pushed at it and felt the lord's hand tense a little, so she stopped. He tightened his grip on her slightly in response. ”Do it again. This is not enough for me to release you.”

Now that the light was in front of his face, Linden looked at him closely. The steely edge was still in his eyes, but there were shadows beneath them, too, and the bandages had dislocated, revealing a part of a whip cut. The purplish tint of dry blood and iodine contrasted sharply with the lightness of his skin, and despite the cold air there were drops of sweat on his temples. Any anger left in her faded.

”Your bandages. I ... I can try to fix them if you wanta”” She reached out to him, but his hand was on her mouth before she could finish the words. He flattened himself to the tunnel's wall, pulling her with him.

”Someone is coming,” he whispered in her ear, as she fought to breathe, her heart suddenly racing. ”Don't move, Linde.”

Linden bit her lower lip, trying to not tremble. Darkness enveloped them. It was not like the darkness of night, when shadows danced both in the streets and in weak minds, and people tried to stay behind bolted doors. Night's darkness had street lights, sleep candles, and moons. Night's darkness, though feared and condemned by Mierberians and those who supposedly watched over their quintessences, still had light in it.

This darkness did not. What had resembled ink before, now looked and felt like a wall made of nothing. It seemed to be shrinking; it brought the tons of stone, dirt, and the whole city above closer to her, way too close. Linden's hands clutched the lord's arm of their own accord, while she struggled to regain control of her thinking. At least the Pa.s.sage was silent now; at least neither she nor the lord presently felt the urge to chase the stones to whatever doom lay in the Pa.s.sage's deeps. At least nothing was tinkering with their minds, luring them astray. Perhaps it was not the darkness itself that they had to fear, but only what lived in it. Perhaps the darkness itself was no more perilous than the Master was real, for Linden only knew about both from Mentors, teachers, and books.

Darkness might even be good, in a way. If fairytales held any truth, she who dwelt in the deeps had no love for darknessa”and she was evil. Darkness might keep her away.

”There is someone who lives down there,” Linden's dad had said, ”and you should not disturb her. You must believe me, though there is no time to explain. She is a samodiva, one of the Bessove, and she can heal people when no one else can. She can kill, too.”

At those words, Linden had sensed fear in Dad's voice, and the lord had looked at him in a certain way that had made Dad look away.

”She is what gives Commanders our power,” Dad softly said then. ”We need her. She should not touch you if you stay on the path, heed no songs, and do not follow rolling stones.”

Now, in the Pa.s.sage, Linden was trembling from fears that she had so far held at baya”and yet, irrationally, she feared the darkness more. But she and the lord still had the fire, albeit concealed, so was it really dark when you knew that there was light but could not see it?

She realized she had said the last sentence aloud when the lord whispered, ”Depends on whether it is light or darkness that you truly want.”

Linden did not have time to dwell on his words, for just then someone else's light floated in from a side tunnel. Yet another mobile candle, carried by a woman who walked bent and slowly, tripping at stones and careless of the clatter she was causing. Her cloak was drawn tightly around her, a low hood concealing her features. A stench of sweat and cheap alcohol drifted towards Linden and lord Rianor as she pa.s.sed them by. Something else reached them, too, a hint of a sound on the edge of perception, a whiff of a melody and inexplicable grief. Linden trembled again and felt the lord's arms tighten around her shoulders, his own body rigid and still.

The woman halted beside one of the doors that concealed stairs winding up to the higher level of the Pa.s.sage, which was tangent to but never actually crossed the city sewers. She reached forward with her left hand.

”In the name of Him who watches this abject world, open!” she screamed in a voice much younger than her walking manner had implied, and soon the door withdrew inside the wall. A clock-like ticking sound overwhelmed the pa.s.sage. The woman jerked her hand back and stood motionless before the threshold, as if she hesitated whether to cross it. Then, slowly, she turned back as the last faint echoes of ticking ebbed and the distant woeful melody heightened. Pale candlelight glowed on red, tear-brimmed eyes that only this spring had been blue and s.h.i.+ny. Greasy locks of once l.u.s.trous raven hair fell over a pallid and swollen face.

Oh, Katrina. Linden would have run to her, had Katrina not suddenly grabbed a stone and blindly hurled it forward, reaching for a second one as the first bounced from a wall before her. ”Singing, Dimna?” The voice was shrill and unstable, nothing like the gentle and sweet voice of the friend who had once been like an older sister to Linden.

”I will find a way to destroy you, Dimna. You can't hide from me always, you wretched, perfidious monster! Give my baby back!”

Katrina stumbled through the portal just before the door clicked into its original position, and for a few moments of darkness and quiet Linden thought it had all been a nightmare. Then the monster's heartwrenching song was back, as was lord Rianor's candle. For a second he and Linden regarded each other in silence, before she had to look away, her vision suspiciously blurred.

”I knew her. She was my best friend. She left Mierber to recover after she lost her newborn baby.”

”I am sorry.” He retrieved a handkerchief from his coat's pocket and handed it to her. There were words embroidered on it, as well as a crest, but they blurred before she dabbed her eyes with it. Lord Rianor looked at the now sealed portal, then took Linden's hand and led her in the opposite direction. His words seemed to blend with the song, which sounded clearer as they neared a side pa.s.sage.

”So the Commanders did not save someone she loved.”

Linden met his eyes again and glimpsed a hint of an emotion, but it disappeared immediately. She wished her own feelings were hidden equally well.

”She did not, herself. She was the best healer, even better than Dad, but she could not do anything. Or so I knew.” She trembled again, and he squeezed her hand almost imperceptibly. She squeezed back, wondering if it was normal for his touch to make her feel so much better. She also wondered if the steadily growing desire to close her eyes, cover her ears, and not think of anything any more was a sign of immaturity or of going mad.

”Believe it or not,” she said after some time, ”until tonight all I knew about Commanders was that they could heal people when no one else could. I thought ”Commander” to be just a fancy t.i.tle for those with more intelligence and skill than others. Indeed, I only knew the information you can find in books. And I thought that a samodiva was an invented forest creature from fairytales, not someone confined in a pa.s.sage below Mierber, who somehow does the healers' job for them. Somehow!” Linden stifled a sudden urge to laugh. ”What a convenient word! Don't people just love their convenient words! Do you know how exactly she does that? I want to know. I am so tired of being either cajoled or threatened into ignorance, be it for the sake of my safety or for someone's convenience, or for the supposed cleanliness of my quintessence! I want to know how the wretched healinga”and everything elsea”works!”

”Besides, I want to know if she kills babies,” she whispered at the same moment when the lord said, ”So we both want the same things.”

This was the last reply Linden had expected. Speechless, she stared at the young man. They had now halted at the crossing with the side tunnel, but this time no stones were falling, and the song seemed to be pus.h.i.+ng away rather than luring. Young men usually laughed at her or ignored her in the rare cases she presented them with unorthodox opinions. Not such dangerous opinions, at that. He smiled and reached to remove a lock of hair from her cheek.

”You are an intriguing apprentice, Linde. Well, we are at a crossinga”but you do realize that this might be a dangerous and foolhardy venture, don't you? We were warned to stay on the path if we were to stay safe. Any sensible person in my place would take you straight to Qynnsent.”

”We were warned to stay on the path if all we wanted was to pa.s.s through here safea”and ignorant. Safe, even if ignorant, is what Dad wants, I am sure. The question is what we want.” She smiled back at him. ”I am sure you will take me to Qynnsent later, my lord.”

He held her hand again, stepping into the side pa.s.sage. ”All right then. Continue to be careful with the stones and speak quietly. We do not want to announce our presence earlier than necessary, and we might decide to stay un.o.bserved after all.” He pointed at a pile of gravel at her feet, the candle in his hand sp.a.w.ning weird shadows. ”And you may just call me Rianor if you want.”

Linden hesitated, then leaned closer to him so that she would pa.s.s the pile safely. ”I will do thata”Rianor. t.i.tles like 'my lord' do not necessarily make me comfortable.”

He smiled again, teasingly. ”Is that soa”my lady?”

She opened her mouth to reply just when the scream came, and for a long strange moment her mind thought that it was her who had cried out. Her body knew better. The mind immersed itself in the shrill desperate sound that came from their right, but the body sensed the danger and tried to leap away from it.

Rianor jumped just when she did. Later, she did not remember who of them landed first on the loose stones, or even if the stones had been loose before that. What she remembered was the ground giving away under her feet, and the realization that they had been walking on a raised level of ground. There was still a slight chance for Rianor to not fall with her, so she tried to push him back, but he locked her hands with his own. Then something hit her shoulders, forcing the air out of her lungs. In a moment her head was under the young lord's arm, and his body was entwined with hers, s.h.i.+elding her from most of the subsequent hits, as they rolled down the dark slope with the stones.