Chapter 190 - Guilt (2/2)

Lucas laid her on a gurney and explained what happened to the doctor in some weird medical terms.

A couple of nurses pushed Ying Sheng to the emergency room as Liam and Lucas were asked to stay outside.

Lucas stared at his brother and his heart broke at his pained eyes.

”Liam...it's not your fault. Don't blame yourself”

Liam felt the walls of the emergency room closing on him.  He grunted as a headache began to assault him.

'You….. weren't there for her

How could you? You broke your promise

It's your fault…..your fault she is battling for her life.

Why give her false hopes and when you knew reality is harsh.'

”Shut up!” Liam screamed as he battled with his mind's allegations.

People gave him weird looks but he was drowning in his guilt to even notice them.

He shut his eyes and rubbed his temples.

”Liam!” He heard his name being called snapping him from his thoughts.

He opened his eyes and met Lucas's worried eyes.

”I killed her…..I was supposed to be around…... I—I Oh my. She really….”

”Hey, shsshs…..it's okay. It's not your fault. You did your best. The decision was hers to make. Don't beat yourself I'm sure she wouldn't want you to blame yourself.”

Tears flowed down Liam's cheeks. His guilt was consuming him.

”Yes...but….you don't understand!'

Liam snapped as he ran his fingers through his hair.

Lucas heaved a sigh

”Liam. Don't blame yourself.”

Liam nodded absentmindedly and watched the emergency room door.

For what seems like an forever the door opened and the doctor came out.

”How is she?” Such a simple words, Liam wanted to ask but he was afraid so Lucas finally spoke.

The doctor heaved a sigh and shook his head.

Liam's heart sank when he saw the doctor shook his head.

Did she….

God he didn't want to but he couldn't….

Please let her be okay.

A/N :

Sorry for the late chapter guys hehehe. I was dozing so if you see any mistake please don't be shy help me point it out. Also I will travel tomorrow so I'm not sure about an update yet hehe let see what happens. In case I  post a dummy I'm sorry. I know it's annoying but please just bear with me.

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