Chapter 69 - Monster (R-18) (2/2)

Pursing his lips together, he stood up from the bed.

”Make sure you hide your stuffs well from your mother.”

And he was gone, giving her a smile and closing the door behind him.

Ying Sheng felt her a pang in her chest.

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Ying Sheng felt so empty inside and she hated the feeling.

”You're a mess Ying Sheng.” She grunted to herself and chugged down the beer in the bottle she was holding. She sighed deeply as she felt a tear dropped from her eyes.

”No, No I can't cry. Bad girls don't cry. Monsters aren't allowed to show weakness.” She yelled in the quiet alley.

She was tired from putting on a strong façade. She chuckled humorlessly.

How nice it would be if she just dropped dead. Then she wouldn't have to harbor the secrets that were sinking her.

With that thoughts in her mind, she walked aimlessly and went to stand in the middle of the road.

A horn beeped loudly, a car light illuminated on her face but all she did was closed her eyes with a smile on her lips and waited for all of it to be over.

The car, however halted a foot away from Ying Sheng. She knitted her brows in a frown and opened her eyes when the pain never came.

The light was blinding so she couldn't see the man who got down from the car. She was hit suddenly by a sharp pain in her head making her dizzy. It was the beer finally catching up to her.

The man took a few steps forward towards her, she tilted her head to the side confused.

The last thing she remember before blacking out was the man had a look of relief on his face. 'He was relief she was alive?'

Author's note.

Please there is no way I'm saying self-harm is good or promoting it.

If you've suicide thoughts or the urge to harm yourself see a doctor.

Mental illness is nothing to be ashamed of.

If you want someone to vent to I'm always here to listen. @Chichii#4496 on discord.

Loves and hugs.