Part 57 (1/2)

”Oh very well,” she said placidly. ”Let's talk of what I've been doing.”

”What _you've_ been doing?”

”Precisely. I've taken a little apartment downtown, over by the river.

The rent is twenty-eight dollars a month. It's on the top floor and has plenty of air, and there's a nice roof for hot summer evenings. You're to carry two wicker chairs up there each night after supper.”

”I'll do nothing of the kind,” I rejoined indignantly. ”You're going to pack up at once and go to the mountains! And when you come back you're coming right here!”

”Oh no I'm not,” she answered.

”Don't be an idiot, Eleanore! Think of moving out of here now! In your condition!”

”It's better than moving out of your work. Dad has kept right on with his, even when they stopped his pay. Well, now they've stopped your pay, that's all, and we've got to do the best we can. We've simply got to live for a while on modest honorariums. Now don't talk, wait till I get through. You've got to work harder than ever before but for much less money. But with less money than before we're going to be happier than we've ever been in all our lives. And you can't do a thing to stop it.

If you do take that office work and bring a lot of money home, do you know what I'll do? I'll move to that little flat just the same, and all the extra money you bring will go to Mrs. Bealey.”

”Who in G.o.d's name is Mrs. Bealey?”

”One of my oldest charity cases. She was here this afternoon. The trouble with you is, my dear,” my wife continued smoothly, ”that you've been so wrapped up in your own little changes you haven't given a thought to mine. Well, I've done some changing, too. Every time that Sue or you have taken up a new idea I've taken up a Mrs. Bealey. I did the same thing in the strike. I went with Nora Ganey into the very poorest of all the tenements down by the docks. I saw the very worst of it all--and I tried to do what I could to help. But I felt like a drop in the ocean. And that's how I've changed. Things are so wrong in the tenements that big reforms are needed. I don't know what they are and I'm not sure anyone else does. But I'm sure that if any reforms worth while are to be made, we've got to see just where we are. And that means that quite a number of people--you for instance--have got to tell the truth exactly as they see it. So I'd rather put our money in that and let old Mrs. Bealey forget our address. That's another reason for moving.

”There's nothing n.o.ble about it at all,” she said as she threaded her needle. ”I mean to be perfectly comfortable. I saw this coming long ago, and since the strike was over I've spent weeks picking out a nice place where we can get the most for our money. About thirty thousand babies, I'm told, are to be born in the city this summer--and their mothers aren't going first to the mountains or even for a walk in the Park. I don't see why I shouldn't be one. As a matter of fact I won't be one, my baby won't be born until Fall, and I'll have a clean, comfortable flat with one maid instead of a dirty tenement with all the cooking and was.h.i.+ng to do. You'll probably find magazines who'll pay enough honorariums to make a hundred dollars a month, which is just about three times as much as Mrs. Bealey lives on. So that's settled and we move this week.”

We moved that week.

CHAPTER V

One night about a month later, when we had ensconced ourselves for the evening out on the roof of our new home, where the summer's night was cooled by a slight breeze from the river, our maid came up and told me there was a strange gentleman below. I went down and brought him up, I was deeply pleased and excited. For he was the English novelist whom I most admired these days. He had come to me during the strike and had been deeply interested in the great crowd spirit I had found. He was going back to England now.

”I'm curious,” he told me, ”to see how much your striker friends have kept of what they got in the strike--what new ideas and points of view.

How much are they really changed? That, I should think, is by far the most valuable part of it all.”

”It's just what I've been trying to find out for myself,” I replied.

”Really? Will you tell me?”

I told him how on docks, on tugs and barges, in barrooms and in tenements, I was having talks with various types of men who had been strikers, how I was finding some dull and hopeless, others bitter, but more who simply felt that they had bungled this first attempt and were already looking forward to more and greater struggles. The socialists among them were already hard at work, urging them to carry their strike on into the political field, vote together in one solid ma.s.s and build up a government all their own. Through this ceaseless ferment I had gone in search of significant characters, incidents, new points of view. I was writing brief sketches of it all.

”How did you feel about all this,” the Englishman asked, ”before you were drawn into the strike?” And turning from me to Eleanore, ”And you?”

he added.

Gradually he got the stories of our lives. I told how all my life I had been raising up G.o.ds to wors.h.i.+p, and how the harbor had flowed silently in beneath, undermining each one and bringing it down.

”It seems to have such a habit of changing,” I ended, ”that it won't let a fellow stop.”

”Lucky people,” he answered, smiling, ”to have found that out so soon--to have had all this modern life condensed so cozily into your harbor before your eyes--and to have discovered, while you are still young, that life is growth and growth is change. I believe the age we live in is changing so much faster than any age before it, that a man if he's to be vital at all must give up the idea of any fixed creed--in his office, his church or his home--that if he does not, he will only wear himself out b.u.t.ting his indignant head against what is stronger and probably better than he. But if he does, if he holds himself open to change and knows that change is his very life, then he can get a serenity which is as much better than that of the monk as living is better than dying.”