Part 29 (1/2)

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'The children ...' he couldn't say any more. King Rat nodded sharply. 'The little f.u.c.kers whose parents clapped us out of town,' he spat.

Saul's face twisted. He could not speak, could not look at King Rat. He shook with anger and disgust, clenched his fists. He could still hear the pathetic cries echoing up from the dark.

'Fabian,' he whispered. 'Can you hear me, man?'

Fabian moved gently but did not respond. It's better, thought Saul suddenly. / can't talk to him now, here, I can't explain all this. He needs to be out of this. He mustn't see this. Saul could not bear the loneliness. He wanted his friend so much, but he knew that he must wait.

Time enough soon, he thought and tried to be brave.

He stood, limped his way to King Rat. The two looked warily at each other, then fell forward, catching each other's forearms, gripping each other. It was a long way from an embrace or a reconciliation, but it was a moment of connection. Like exhausted boxers leaning on each other, still enemies, but each granting the other a moment's respite, and each grateful.

Saul breathed deep, stepped back.

'Did you kill him?' he said.

King Rat was silent. He turned away.

'Did you?'

'I don't know ...' The words lingered in the silence 405.

of the hall. 'I think so ... the flute was deep inside him, his throat was crushed ... I don't know ...'

Saul ran his hands through his hair, looked down at his heavy torso, smeared with the muck of combat. He felt winded by anticlimax and uncertainty. But, then, he thought suddenly, it doesn't matter to me. He can't touch me. He's dead, or dying, or f.u.c.ked and wounded, and if he ever comes back, I'll be whatever I am now, only infinitely more so. He can't touch me.

'He can't touch you,' said King Rat and licked his lips.

Anansi's body had gone. King Rat was unsurprised. He looked from side to side at the carpet of crushed spiders on the stage and the dancefloor.

'You'll never find him,' he mused.

Saul looked at him and stared around the room. He was trembling violently. The stench of rat-blood was heavy in the air, and with every step Saul walked on the bodies of Anansi's dead. Some of the dancers were beginning to stir.

Blood decorated the walls like abstract art.

'I have to get out of here,' Saul whispered.

Without words Saul and King Rat climbed to the attic. King Rat went before him. Saul untied his prison s.h.i.+rt and draped it across his back before jumping and grasping the edges of the hatchway, hauling himself up and out.

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He looked back once, stuck his head into the huge, silent room.

Red and green and blue lights spun on intricate axes, flas.h.i.+ng at random now that the beats had gone. The floor was littered with bodies, a few twitching gently. Saul looked at the stage where he had arranged Fabian and Natasha. They looked as if they were sleeping peacefully side by side. Natasha moved her arm dreamily and it fell across Fabian's chest.

Saul's breath caught. He could not look on any more.

He followed King Rat, emerged blinking from the skylight, sucked at the cold fresh air. It seemed days ago that he had entered by this route, but the sky was still dark and the streets as deserted as they ever were.

It was the small hours, the small hours of the same night. London slept, fat and dangerous and blithely unaware of what had happened in the Elephant and Castle. The crisp ignorance of the city refreshed him. It carried on whatever, he thought. There was a great comfort in that.

King Rat and he were eager to leave these bricks behind. They moved as fast as they could, hauling themselves across the roofs, trailing their bruised limbs and wincing with pain, but high and exhilarated. When they had put some houses between them and the warehouse, Saul stopped.

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He was going to call for help for those left behind in the club. G.o.d knew how many broken bones and punctured lungs and so on were lying in that hall, and he was very afraid of what they might contract from his troops. He could not contemplate that any would die. Not after that night. To live through that, crazed, possessed and dancing, only to die of ratbite in bed ... he could not bear to think of that.

He stood a little way off from King Rat, on the flat roof of a bookie's shop. Nondescript low-rise housing surrounded them. Saul revelled in the ba.n.a.lity of the view, the slate grey, the lackl.u.s.tre billboard ads, peeling and out of date, the obscure graffiti. He could hear a train pa.s.s by somewhere not far away.

King Rat faced him.

'You off, then?' he said.

Saul burst out laughing at the absurd understatement of the parting.

'Yeah.' He nodded.

King Rat nodded back. He seemed very distracted.

'/ killed him, you know,' he said suddenly. '/ took him out. Not you, you froze up. You'd have let him do a bunk, but not me! I sprung up with my sharp Hampsteads and took the ruffian out!' Saul said nothing. King Rat stared at him, his excitement ebbing. 'But nary a rat was there to get a shufti,' he said slowly. 'None of my boys and girls. They saw nowt, all dancing, out of it, dead and dying.'

There was a long silence.

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King Rat pointed briefly at Saul.

'They'll think you done it.'

Saul nodded.

King Rat began to quiver. He fought to control himself, shoved his hands into his mouth, beat his sides, but he could not contain the anguish and excitement.

He grabbed Saul's arms, his hands shaking.

'Tell them,' he begged. 'They'll believe you. Tell them what I did.'

Saul stared at that dark, dirty figure. From where he stood, nothing of London was visible behind King Rat. That wiry, ill-defined face was all he could see, surrounded by nothing but the sky, the faint stars and oily clouds. King Rat was an island in his field of vision, operating under his own rules. The dark s.p.a.ces in which those eyes hid were fervent, would not release him. The clouds behind King Rat's head were tinged with red, stained by the city.

King Rat begged for absolution. He wanted his kingdom back.

Saul did not want it. He did not want to be Crown Prince of rats. He was not a rat any more than he was a man.

But as he stared at King Rat's face he saw a sordid brutality in an alley. He saw a fat old man who loved him falling out of the sky in a deadly rain of gla.s.s.

Saul closed his eyes and remembered his father. He wanted him. He wanted to talk to him so much.

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