Part 10 (1/2)

”You are a pretty girl, Leah,” he says, ”it's a pity to hide yourself.”

A dreadful crying fit seizes hold of me, and I run away.

The next evening I stayed at home, and the one after. On the third, Friday night, my heart was so heavy, I _had_ to go out--I felt I should suffocate indoors. He was apparently waiting for me in the shadow round a corner of the house, for hardly had I sat down in my accustomed place when he stood before me as though he had grown out of the ground.

”Don't run away from me, Leah,” he begged gently. ”Believe me, I will do you no harm.”

His gentle, earnest voice touched me. Then he began to sing a low, sad song, and again the tears came into my eyes. I could not keep them back, and began to cry quietly.

”Why are you crying, Leah,” he broke off, and took my hand.

”You sing so sadly,” I answered, and withdrew my hand from his.

”I am an orphan,” he said, ”unhappy--among strangers.”

Someone appeared in the street and we fled in different directions.

I learned the song and used to hum it softly over to myself in bed; I went to sleep with it, and I rose with it next morning. And yet I frequently had remorse, and cried because I had made acquaintance with a Rofeh-boy who dressed German fas.h.i.+on and shaved his chin. Had he dressed like the old Rofeh, had he at least been pious! I knew that if my father heard of it, the grief would kill him; my mother would do herself a mischief, and the secret lay on my heart like a stone.

I go up to my father's bed to hand him something, and my mother comes in from the street, and my sin overwhelms me, so that hands and feet shake, and all the color goes from my face. And yet every night I consented to come out again the next, and I felt no desire to run away from him now.

He never took my hand again and told me I was a pretty girl. He only talked with me, taught me songs; but one day he brought me a bit of St.

John's Bread.

”Eat it, Leah.”

I wouldn't take it.

”Why not?” he asked sadly. ”Why will you not take anything from me?”

I blurted out that I would rather have a piece of bread.

How long our sitting together and singing lasted, I don't know.

But one day he came sadder than usual; I saw it in his face and asked him what was the matter.

”I have to go.”

”Where to?” I asked faintly.

”To the recruiting station.”

I caught hold of his hand.

”You are going into the army?”

”No,” he replied, and pressed my fingers, ”I am not strong. I suffer from the heart. I shall not be taken for a soldier, but I must present myself.”