Part 18 (1/2)
”Very well--we will see about that,” he answered, with forced sternness, and leaving the room he went down stairs, feeling much worse than when he went up. Again he seated himself in his large chair and again leaned back his weary head, and closed his heavy eyelids. Sadder was his face than before. As he sat thus, his oldest daughter, in her sixteenth year, came and stood by him. She held a paper in her hand--
”Father,--” he opened his eyes.
”Here's my quarter bill. It's twenty dollars. Can't I have the money to take to school with me in the morning?”
”I'm afraid not,” answered Mr. Walcott, half sadly.
”Nearly all the girls will bring in their money tomorrow; and it mortifies me to be behind the others.” The daughter spoke fretfully.
Mr. Walcott waved her aside with his hand, and she went off muttering and pouting.
”It is mortifying,” spoke up Mrs. Walcott, a little sharply; ”and I don't wonder that Helen feels unpleasantly about it. The bill has to be paid, and I don't see why it may not be done as well first as last.”
To this Mr. Walcott made no answer. The words but added another pressure to this heavy burden under which he was already staggering.
After a silence of some moments, Mrs. Walcott said,
”The coal is all gone.”
”Impossible!” Mr. Walcott raised his head, and looked incredulous.
”I laid in sixteen tons.”
”I can't help it, if there were sixty tons instead of sixteen; it's all gone. The girls had a time of it to-day, to sc.r.a.pe up enough to keep the fire going.”
”There's been a shameful waste somewhere,” said Mr. Walcott with strong emphasis, starting up, and moving about the room with a very disturbed manner.
”So you always say, when anything is out,” answered Mrs. Walcott rather tartly. ”The barrel of flour is gone also; but I suppose you have done your part, with the rest, in using it up.”
Mr. Walcott returned to his chair, and again seating himself, leaned back his head and closed his eyes, as at first. How sad, and weary, and hopeless he felt! The burdens of the day had seemed almost too heavy for him; but he had borne up bravely. To gather strength for a renewed struggle with adverse circ.u.mstances, he had come home. Alas!
that the process of exhaustion should still go on. That where only strength could be looked for, no strength was given.
When the tea bell rung, Mr. Walcott made no movement to obey the summons.
”Come to supper,” said his wife, coldly.
But he did not stir.
”Ain't you coming to supper?” she called to him, as she was leaving the room.
”I don't wish anything this evening. My head aches badly,” he answered.
”In the dumps again,” muttered Mrs. Walcott to herself. ”It's as much as one's life is worth to ask for money, or to say that anything is wanted.” And she kept on her way to the dining-room.
When she returned, her husband was still sitting where she had left him.
”Shall I bring you a cup of tea?” she asked.
”No; I don't wish anything.”
”What's the matter, Mr. Walcott? What do you look so troubled about, as if you hadn't a friend in the world? What have I done to you?”
There was no answer, for there was not a shade of real sympathy in the voice that made the queries--but rather a querulous dissatisfaction. A few moments Mrs. Walcott stood near her husband; but as he did Not seem inclined to answer her questions, she turned off from him, and resumed the employment which had been interrupted by the ringing of the tea bell.