Seven Unfortunate Lifetimes Chapter 32 (1/2)

Chapter 32

When we arrived at the camp it’s midnight. Jingyang which is occupied by Wei country’s army is only twenty miles away. The moment Chu Kong arrived at the camp, he began preparing for the war. I lay in the general’s camp, clutching my and rested with a peaceful heart.

Outside the tent everyone was busy. I didn’t need to move a finger. I feel happy by itself. This is really what I want to pursue in life, ah.

With the state my body is in right now, I’m not suitable to live with the other soldiers. I have been sleeping in the general’s tent. At night, I sleep with the general. At day Chu Kong is so busy that even his shadow can’t be seen. Then I also sleep in the tent. Not long after there’s a rumor about the general liking man and can’t even be apart from him when going to a war. In my heart, I feel wronged for the deceased general Chu Qinghui. This is really called not protecting someone’s name.

Every day, I was too relaxed. Chu Kong sat all day by the candle thinking about tactics. He forgot about escaping and I also accidentally forgot it……

Just because he is wearing an armor now, his expression turned more serious. He looks a lot like Lu Hai Kong from the first lifetime. That lifetime Lu Hai Kong was saddled with a blood feud. Not even a half smile can be seen on his face. He pretended to be mature at such a young age. He alienated himself and was difficult to get close to. Everytime, I thought about him trying to walk with a straight back, I couldn’t help but sigh. Even now it’s the same.

Then I didn’t know how to be hurt for other people. I didn’t give Lu Hai Kong comfort. Not even once. Now I’m afraid that it’s still the same.

At day, Chu Kong will arrange the military affairs in the barracks. I’ll sit quietly outside the tent and watch him. At night, he will frown while staying up all night. I’ll lie on the bed and stare blankly at him. It’s such a strange fate. They are the same person and not the same person. When I thought that that person has disappeared from this world completely, he’ll occasionally appear in this form before me, making me almost unable to tell who is Chu Kong and who is Lu Hai Kong.

What also made me confused and I couldn’t tell apart is the feelings I have for Chu Kong right now. Are they left by silly Xiang or is it that my heart has moved inadvertently? Either way, there’s one thing I have no way of……denying.

Silly Xiang from the previous lifetime was dependent of s.h.i.+fu like how she was dependent of air. Such feelings of dependency went got into the bones and went into the veins. They couldn’t get out anymore. Hiding behind him, pulling his sleeves will let me feel a sense of security. Am I myself or am I silly Xiang? I couldn’t tell anymore. Maybe this is something that isn’t clear. I am me; that fool is also me.

A “pu” sound came from where Chu Kong was sitting at his desk. He put down his brush, turned his head, stared at me and said: “From the day before yesterday I wanted to ask did I steal your meat or did I not give you a bed to sleep at night? Why are you staring at me gloomily all day and all night?”

I looked at him blankly. My soul hasn’t returned to my body yet, but my mouth asked: “You say, how can you fall in love with someone?”

Chu Kong was surprised by my question and stayed quiet for a while. Suddenly he said ferociously: “How the f.u.c.k would I know?!”

He seemed like he really hated my question.

I wondered: “Don’t you like me? Come say it. What do you like about me? How did you fall in love with me?”

Chu Kong crushed the brush in his hand with a “pu”sound. He gritted his teeth and said: “Don’t push your luck.”

“So you also don’t know.”

I have a sense of loss. In the end why would you fall in love with someone……

Somehow, in my mind flashed that day in the dark cave. Chu Kong’s ambiguous and hoa.r.s.e voice blowing in my ear, making it all hot and itchy. My ears inexplicably got hot. I was silent for a while. The whole tent went silent. Suddenly I heard Chu Kong coughed lightly. I looked up and saw him picking up the brush again. He dipped in the ink again.

“Don’t you know,” he asked. “Once……once you’ve fallen in love with Lu Hai Kong. Why did you fall in love?”

Why did I fall in love with Lu Hai Kong? This question of him is really difficult for me. I wondered for a long time before I replied: “Probably because…….he was easy to bully.”