Part 5 (1/2)
”Where's my phone?”
”... Seth. Can we just talk for a minute, please?”
”No! Give me my phone.”
”Seth, please...” but Seth cuts her off.
”Look! You stole my phone; you left that stupid note on my locker. Well, here I am. Give me my phone!”
”I know it was wrong to take your phone, but I couldn't think of another way to get you to talk to me. Can't you at least give me a chance?”
”A chance for what?”
”I just...” she squirms where she sits, and the pinkness around her pales. ”I want us to get to know each other better.”
”I know you well enough,” Seth charges up to her and holds out his hand. ”Give me my phone. Now!”
She stands up slowly and, clutching the phone behind her, takes a step backward. Her eyes are calculating.
Seth makes a grab for her arm, but she scoots back three steps. She is just two steps away from the slippery edge, and the mist from the falls is coating her bare feet. Get away from the edge, you idiot! I shout at her even though she can't hear me. If Rei were here, he would be having a heart attack.
”Why don't you like me?” Taylor demands to know.
”Because I don't.” Seth is eyeing the distance between them, and I cross my ethereal fingers he's not stupid enough to do what I think he's going to do.
”Are you...” A nasty little smile narrows her eyes. ”Do you like any girls?”
It takes Seth a few seconds to process this question. I'm expecting a big, bad, four-letter reaction from him, but he surprises me with a short, bitter laugh. ”You think because I'm not interested in a s.l.u.t like you I must be gay ... why doesn't that surprise me?”
Her expression morphs into something sinister and underneath her murky pink aura, a layer of olive green rises up from her skin like a fog. Now I expect her to provide the four-letter reaction, but she's so furious that nothing but, ”Fffffffffffff,” fizzles from her mouth. She winds up to hurl Seth's phone into oblivion, but time slips into slow motion.
She swings around too quickly and loses her footing on the slick stone. Her eyes and mouth pop open, arms pinwheel. As her feet slide off the ledge and gravity begins to suck her into the falls, Seth grabs the first part of Taylor he can reach. His right foot steps back hard to balance himself, and I can tell by the tightening of his mouth that he's got her weight secured. The gauzy s.h.i.+rt he's grabbed is not up to task, though, and silver b.u.t.tons snap off in quick succession. As the last b.u.t.ton pops free and her s.h.i.+rt splays wide open, she drops even farther toward the rocks and screams b.l.o.o.d.y murder. All of her weight dangles from this one wet clump of fraying cloth in Seth's fist. She swings like a pendulum, clawing frantically at Seth's slippery arm. Her acrylic nails leave deep b.l.o.o.d.y gouges down his arm to his wrist.
”Give me your other hand!”
It looks like she's trying, but her arm seems paralyzed. ”I can't!” she whimpers.
Seth goes down on one knee, leaning back to give himself some leverage. He has no problem handling her weight; it's the spray from the mist and the blood that he's fighting against.
”You wanna die? Give me your hand!” he yells harshly.
Her bare feet backpedal against the side of the slippery rock, doing nothing more than loosening her grip on Seth's wrist and his grip on her s.h.i.+rt.
”Stop kicking! Give me your other hand!”
But she can't stop kicking. Some feral instinct has taken over and her feet are fighting for her life. Seth reaches out farther with his other hand, careful not to get pulled in himself, but the slippery mist mixed with his blood makes their hands slip-slide against each other, inch by inch.
I wish there was something I could do, but without my body, I've only ever managed to lift very small things. I try to grab her other hand, just in case I can lift it up high enough for Seth to grab, but she just thrashes right through me.
When their grip breaks, she screams and her eyes bulge wide as gravity sucks her down toward the rus.h.i.+ng water. There is a terrible silence when her head hits the first rock. The bright colors of her skirt tumble merrily over flailing arms and legs as her body is flung erratically over the boulders by the rus.h.i.+ng water. And then she's gone, swallowed up by the river below.
Time stops. Except for a sudden chilling breeze rustling through Seth's hair, the omnipresent roar of the falls, and the ragged rattle of Seth's breath, everything is static. The only witnesses to Taylor's accident are the birds and the trees.
And me.
I wish I could remember what the symptoms of shock were. Seth's skin has faded to the color of tapioca pudding; his pupils are huge; and his sweat suddenly smells like raw onions. All that boiled red surrounding him is gone, replaced by a shadowy gray. Is that shock?
I wish Rei was here. I'm mentally kicking myself now for talking him out of coming, because I know with all certainty that if Rei had come, none of this would have happened. Rei would have figured out a way to defuse this. He would never have allowed Taylor to stand so close to the edge. He would have picked her up and carried her to a safe place if he had to. Yes, if I hadn't talked Rei out of coming, Taylor would be alive right now and Seth would have his phone tucked safely in his pocket.
Seth stands up shakily and looks downstream. The river elbows off to the right, and the view is obscured by newly sprouted leaves. I feel the familiar tug at my stomach, telling me it's time to get back. The alarm clock must have gone off, but thankfully, the volume is low, so I buy a few extra seconds to look downstream for Taylor's body. About a quarter mile past the bend, I find her body bobbing in a calm, shallow spot by the sh.o.r.e, her skirt caught fast on the branch of a fallen birch tree. I feel that tug again, more insistent this time, but I can't stop staring. Her b.u.t.tonless s.h.i.+rt undulates to the rhythm of the current, exposing her badly sc.r.a.ped torso. Her hair drifts on the surface like undrained spaghetti, framing a deep purple gouge just above her ear that has been washed clean by the moving water, revealing splinters of crushed skull and what can only be brain matter.
Surprisingly, the rest of her face is unmarked. Her arms and legs are bent at unnatural angles, covered in deep slashes. Three of the acrylic fingernails on her right hand are bent backward, no doubt from clawing onto Seth's arm. All traces of makeup have been washed off her face, and she looks younger, more innocent than the Taylor I had known. I feel an overwhelming sadness for her. n.o.body deserves such a brutal ending.
I feel another, more insistent tug, but I just want to check on Seth before I go back.
I wonder how many of her girlfriends knew she was meeting Seth here today. Probably all of them. I zip back to the ledge and find Seth flinging Taylor's sandals into the falls, followed by a long string of swear words that end in one raw sob.
Poor Seth. I've seen him rage, but I've never seen him cry before, not when he was a little kid or even when his mother left. I'm not sure if he's crying because he's genuinely sad that Taylor Gleason is dead or because he can read the graffiti on the rocks and it says, You are screwed, boy.
One of the silver b.u.t.tons from Taylor's s.h.i.+rt catches the sunlight and winks up at me from a crack in the rock. Evidence. I summon up enough energy to flick it into the water. I hate to leave Seth like this, but I really have to get back. The tugging sensation seems to have given up on me, but my mom will be home soon; plus, I need to talk to Rei. I am the only human eyewitness. If Taylor's girlfriends talk to the police, I am the only one who can vouch for Seth's innocence. He tried to save her. He really did.
Seth is no longer crying. He's just sitting there surrounded by a despondent shade of gray. ”Go home, Seth,” I tell him, even though he can't hear me.
And then I head home to collect myself so I can break this bad news to Rei.
CHAPTER 8.
Every religion has its own spin on life after death. The ancient Greeks had the elysian fields. Christians have heaven. Rei says the Buddhists believe souls are reincarnated until they reach a place of enlightenment called nirvana. Some people waste a lot of time worrying whether there's something to look forward to when their bodies die besides eternal sleep.
One thing I know for certain is that each of us possesses a sentient energy that can exist outside our physical bodies. I am living proof, but why should anyone take my word for it ... even textbook physics says that energy cannot be destroyed.
And the light that's rumored to appear when someone dies? A few years ago, I saw a cylinder of light beaming down from the ceiling in a room I walked past at my great-grandmother's nursing home. Twenty minutes later, the patient was on her way out in a body bag. It's real. But where does the light go? Is there some amazing place for people who are really, really good? Do the nine circles of h.e.l.l actually exist? Is that light your ride to the greatest party ever or does it just suck up your soul like a vacuum?
Well, that I don't know.
I careen into my room and stop short.
Something's wrong.
Something's missing!
It takes me a few seconds of stunned confusion to realize that my bed is empty. The something missing is me. I'm not there! I look on the floor, no. I look under the bed, no, no, NO!