Part 48 (2/2)
”I will promise not to let the fact come out so long as I am in your service, my lady.”
”After all that has pa.s.sed, I think you might promise me a little more! But I will not press it.”
”May I ask what it is, my lady?”
”I am not going to press it, for I do not choose to make a favour of it. Still, I do not see that it would be such a mighty favour to ask--of one who owes respect at least to the house of Lossie.
But I will not ask. I will only suggest; Malcolm, that you should leave this part of the country--say this country altogether, and go to America, or New South Wales, or the Cape of Good Hope. If you will take the hint, and promise never to speak a word of this unfortunate--yes, I must be honest, and allow there is a sort of relations.h.i.+p between us; but if you will keep it secret, I will take care that something is done for you--something, I mean, more than you could have any right to expect. And mind, I am not asking you to conceal anything that could reflect honour upon you or dishonour upon us.”
”I cannot, my lady.”
”I scarcely thought you would. Only you hold such grand ideas about self denial, that I thought it might be agreeable to you to have an opportunity of exercising the virtue at a small expense and a great advantage.”
Malcolm was miserable. Who could have dreamed to find in her such a woman of the world! He must break off the hopeless interview.
”Then, my lady,” he said, ”I suppose I am to give my chief attention to Kelpie, and things are to be as they have been.”
”For the present. And as to this last piece of presumption, I will so far forgive you as to take the proceeding on myself--mainly because it would have been my very choice had you submitted it to me. There is nothing I should have preferred to a sea voyage and returning to Lossie at this time of the year.
”But you also must be silent on your insufferable share in the business. And for the other matter, the least arrogance or a.s.sumption I shall consider to absolve me at once from all obligation towards you of any sort. Such relations.h.i.+ps are never acknowledged.”
”Thank you--sister,” said Malcolm--a last forlorn experiment; and as he said the word he looked lovingly in her eyes.
She drew herself up like the princess Lucifera, ”with loftie eyes, halfe loth to looke so lowe,” and said, cold as ice,
”If once I hear that word on your lips again, as between you and me, Malcolm, I shall that very moment discharge you from my service, as for a misdemeanour. You have no claim upon me, and the world will not blame me.”
”Certainly not, my lady. I beg your pardon. But there is one who perhaps will blame you a little.”
”I know what you mean; but I don't pretend to any of your religious motives. When I do, then you may bring them to bear upon me.”
”I was not so foolish as you think me, my lady. I merely imagined you might be as far on as a Chinaman,” said Malcolm, with a poor attempt at a smile.
”What insolence do you intend now?”
”The Chinese, my lady, pay the highest respect to their departed parents. When I said there was one who would blame you a little, I meant your father.”
He touched his cap, and withdrew.
”Send Rose to me,” Florimel called after him, and presently with her went down to the cabin.
And still the Psyche soul-like flew. Her earthly birth held her to the earth, but the ocean upbore her, and the breath of G.o.d drove her on. Little thought Florimel to what she hurried her! A queen in her own self sufficiency and condescension, she could not suspect how little of real queendom, n.o.ble and self sustaining, there was in her being; for not a soul of man or woman whose every atom leans not upon its father fact in G.o.d, can sustain itself when the outer wall of things begins to tumble towards the centre, crus.h.i.+ng it in on every side.
During the voyage no further allusion was made by either to what had pa.s.sed. By the next morning Florimel had yet again recovered her temper, and, nothing fresh occurring to irritate her, kept it and was kind.
Malcolm was only too glad to accept whatever parings of heart she might offer. By the time their flight was over, Florimel almost felt as if it had indeed been undertaken at her own desire and motion, and was quite prepared to a.s.sert that such was the fact.
CHAPTER LVII: THE Sh.o.r.e
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