Part 15 (1/2)
She was with him; she had put him into an ecstasy of satisfaction and antic.i.p.ation. One evening alone with her in his own beautiful flat!
What a frame for her and for love! And now she said that she would not stay. It was incredible; it could not be permitted.
”But why not? We are happy together. I have just refused a dinner because of--this. Didn't you hear me on the 'phone?”
”Thou wast wrong,” she smiled. ”I am not worth a dinner. It is essential that I should return home. I am tired--tired. It is Sunday night, and I have sworn to myself that I will pa.s.s this evening at home--alone.”
Exasperating, maddening creature! He thought: ”I fancied I knew her, and I don't know her. I'm only just beginning to know her.” He stared steadily at her soft, serious, worried, enchanting face, and tried to see through it into the arcana of her queer little brain. He could not. The sweet face foiled him.
”Then why come?”
”Because I wished to be nice to thee, to prove to thee how nice I am.”
She seized her gloves. He saw that she meant to go. His demeanour changed. He was aware of his power over her, and he would use it.
She was being subtle; but he could be subtle too, far subtler than Christine. True, he had not penetrated her face. Nevertheless his instinct, and his male gift of ratiocination, informed him that beneath her gentle politeness she was vexed, hurt, because he had got rid of Mrs. Braiding before receiving her. She had her feelings, and despite her softness she could resent. Still, her feelings must not be over-indulged; they must not be permitted to make a fool of her. He said, rather teasingly, but firmly:
”I know why she refuses to stay.”
She cried, plaintive:
”It is not that I have another rendezvous. No! But naturally thou thinkest it is that.”
He shook his head.
”Not at all. The little silly wants to go back home because she finds there is no servant here. She is insulted in her pride. I noticed it in her first words when she came in. And yet she ought to know--”
Christine gave a loud laugh that really disconcerted him.
”Au revoir, my old one. Embrace me.” She dropped the veil.
”No!”
He could play a game of pretence longer than she could. She moved with dignity towards the door, but never would she depart like that.
He knew that when it came to the point she was at the mercy of her pa.s.sion for him. She had confessed the tyranny of her pa.s.sion, as such victims foolishly will. Moreover he had perceived it for himself.
He followed her to the door. At the door she would relent. And, sure enough, at the door she leapt at him and clasped his neck with fierceness and fiercely kissed him through her veil, and exclaimed bitterly:
”Ah! Thou dost not love me, but I love thee!”
But the next instant she had managed to open the door and she was gone.
He sprang out to the landing. She was running down the stone stairs.
”Christine!”
She did not stop. G.J. might be marvellously subtle; but he could not be subtle enough to divine that on that night Christine happened to be the devotee of the most clement Virgin, and that her demeanour throughout the visit had been contrived, half unconsciously, to enable her to perform a deed of superb self-denial and renunciation in the service of the dread G.o.ddess. He ate most miserably alone, facing an empty chair; the desolate solitude of the evening was terrible; he lacked the force to go seeking succour in clubs.
Chapter 20
MASCOT