Part 89 (1/2)
”I cannot say that I have any.”
”Get one, get one. The Jew must be diligent. You will call yourself a Jew and profess the faith of your fathers?” said Kalonymos, putting his hand on Deronda's shoulder and looking sharply in his face.
”I shall call myself a Jew,” said Deronda, deliberately, becoming slightly paler under the piercing eyes of his questioner. ”But I will not say that I shall profess to believe exactly as my fathers have believed. Our fathers themselves changed the horizon of their belief and learned of other races. But I think I can maintain my grandfather's notion of separateness with communication. I hold that my first duty is to my own people, and if there is anything to be done toward restoring or perfecting their common life, I shall make that my vocation.”
It happened to Deronda at that moment, as it has often happened to others, that the need for speech made an epoch in resolve. His respect for the questioner would not let him decline to answer, and by the necessity to answer he found out the truth for himself.
”Ah, you argue and you look forward--you are Daniel Charisi's grandson,” said Kalonymos, adding a benediction in Hebrew.
With that they parted; and almost as soon as Deronda was in London, the aged man was again on s.h.i.+pboard, greeting the friendly stars without any eager curiosity.
CHAPTER LXI.
”Within the gentle heart Love shelters him, As birds within the green shade of the grove.
Before the gentle heart, in Nature's scheme, Love was not, nor the gentle heart ere Love.”
--GUIDO GUNICELLI (_Rossetti's Translation_).
There was another house besides the white house at Pennicote, another breast besides Rex Gascoigne's, in which the news of Grandcourt's death caused both strong agitation and the effort to repress it.
It was Hans Meyrick's habit to send or bring in the _Times_ for his mother's reading. She was a great reader of news, from the widest-reaching politics to the list of marriages; the latter, she said, giving her the pleasant sense of finis.h.i.+ng the fas.h.i.+onable novels without having read them, and seeing the heroes and heroines happy without knowing what poor creatures they were. On a Wednesday, there were reasons why Hans always chose to bring the paper, and to do so about the time that Mirah had nearly ended giving Mab her weekly lesson, avowing that he came then because he wanted to hear Mirah sing.
But on the particular Wednesday now in question, after entering the house as quietly as usual with his latch-key, he appeared in the parlor, shaking the _Times_ aloft with a crackling noise, in remorseless interruption of Mab's attempt to render _Lascia ch'io pianga_ with a remote imitation of her teacher. Piano and song ceased immediately; Mirah, who had been playing the accompaniment, involuntarily started up and turned round, the crackling sound, after the occasional trick of sounds, having seemed to her something thunderous; and Mab said--
”O-o-o, Hans! why do you bring a more horrible noise than my singing?”
”What on earth is the wonderful news?” said Mrs. Meyrick, who was the only other person in the room. ”Anything about Italy--anything about the Austrians giving up Venice?”
”Nothing about Italy, but something from Italy,” said Hans, with a peculiarity in his tone and manner which set his mother interpreting.
Imagine how some of us feel and behave when an event, not disagreeable seems to be confirming and carrying out our private constructions. We say, ”What do you think?” in a pregnant tone to some innocent person who has not embarked his wisdom in the same boat with ours, and finds our information flat.
”Nothing bad?” said Mrs. Meyrick anxiously, thinking immediately of Deronda; and Mirah's heart had been already clutched by the same thought.
”Not bad for anybody we care much about,” said Hans, quickly; ”rather uncommonly lucky, I think. I never knew anybody die conveniently before. Considering what a dear gazelle I am, I am constantly wondering to find myself alive.”
”Oh me, Hans!” said Mab, impatiently, ”if you must talk of yourself, let it be behind your own back. What _is_ it that has happened?”
”Duke Alfonso is drowned, and the d.u.c.h.ess is alive, that's all,” said Hans, putting the paper before Mrs. Meyrick, with his finger against a paragraph. ”But more than all is--Deronda was at Genoa in the same hotel with them, and he saw her brought in by the fishermen who had got her out of the water time enough to save her from any harm. It seems they saw her jump in after her husband, which was a less judicious action than I should have expected of the d.u.c.h.ess. However Deronda is a lucky fellow in being there to take care of her.”
Mirah had sunk on the music stool again, with her eyelids down and her hands tightly clasped; and Mrs. Meyrick, giving up the paper to Mab, said--
”Poor thing! she must have been fond of her husband to jump in after him.”
”It was an inadvertence--a little absence of mind,” said Hans, creasing his face roguishly, and throwing himself into a chair not far from Mirah. ”Who can be fond of a jealous baritone, with freezing glances, always singing asides?--that was the husband's _role_, depend upon it.
Nothing can be neater than his getting drowned. The d.u.c.h.ess is at liberty now to marry a man with a fine head of hair, and glances that will melt instead of freezing her. And I shall be invited to the wedding.”
Here Mirah started from her sitting posture, and fixing her eyes on Hans, with an angry gleam in them, she said, in a deeply-shaken voice of indignation--
”Mr. Hans, you ought not to speak in that way. Mr. Deronda would not like you to speak so. Why will you say he is lucky--why will you use words of that sort about life and death--when what is life to one is death to another? How do you know it would be lucky if he loved Mrs.