Part 14 (1/2)
Davilow, when she and Gwendolen were in a dressing-room with Mrs.
Gascoigne and Anna, but at a distance where they could have their talk apart.
”I wish I were like her,” said Gwendolen.
”Why? Are you getting discontented with yourself, Gwen?”
”No; but I am discontented with things. She seems contented.”
”I am sure you ought to be satisfied to-day. You must have enjoyed the shooting. I saw you did.”
”Oh, that is over now, and I don't know what will come next,” said Gwendolen, stretching herself with a sort of moan and throwing up her arms. They were bare now; it was the fas.h.i.+on to dance in the archery dress, throwing off the jacket; and the simplicity of her white cashmere with its border of pale green set off her form to the utmost.
A thin line of gold round her neck, and the gold star on her breast, were her only ornaments. Her smooth soft hair piled up into a grand crown made a clear line about her brow. Sir Joshua would have been glad to take her portrait; and he would have had an easier task than the historian at least in this, that he would not have had to represent the truth of change--only to give stability to one beautiful moment.
”The dancing will come next,” said Mrs. Davilow ”You are sure to enjoy that.”
”I shall only dance in the quadrille. I told Mr. Clintock so. I shall not waltz or polk with any one.”
”Why in the world do you say that all on a sudden?”
”I can't bear having ugly people so near me.”
”Whom do you mean by ugly people?”
”Oh, plenty.”
”Mr. Clintock, for example, is not ugly.” Mrs. Davilow dared not mention Grandcourt.
”Well, I hate woolen cloth touching me.”
”Fancy!” said Mrs. Davilow to her sister who now came up from the other end of the room. ”Gwendolen says she will not waltz or polk.”
”She is rather given to whims, I think,” said Mrs. Gascoigne, gravely.
”It would be more becoming in her to behave as other young ladies do on such an occasion as this; especially when she has had the advantage of first-rate dancing lessons.”
”Why should I dance if I don't like it, aunt? It is not in the catechism.”
”My _dear_!” said Mrs. Gascoigne, in a tone of severe check, and Anna looked frightened at Gwendolen's daring. But they all pa.s.sed on without saying any more.
Apparently something had changed Gwendolen's mood since the hour of exulting enjoyment in the archery-ground. But she did not look the worse under the chandeliers in the ball-room, where the soft splendor of the scene and the pleasant odors from the conservatory could not but be soothing to the temper, when accompanied with the consciousness of being preeminently sought for. Hardly a dancing man but was anxious to have her for a partner, and each whom she accepted was in a state of melancholy remonstrance that she would not waltz or polk.
”Are you under a vow, Miss Harleth?”--”Why are you so cruel to us all?”--”You waltzed with me in February.”--”And you who waltz so perfectly!” were exclamations not without piquancy for her. The ladies who waltzed naturally thought that Miss Harleth only wanted to make herself particular; but her uncle when he overheard her refusal supported her by saying--
”Gwendolen has usually good reasons.” He thought she was certainly more distinguished in not waltzing, and he wished her to be distinguished.
The archery ball was intended to be kept at the subdued pitch that suited all dignities clerical and secular; it was not an escapement for youthful high spirits, and he himself was of opinion that the fas.h.i.+onable dances were too much of a romp.
Among the remonstrant dancing men, however, Mr. Grandcourt was not numbered. After standing up for a quadrille with Miss Arrowpoint, it seemed that he meant to ask for no other partner. Gwendolen observed him frequently with the Arrowpoints, but he never took an opportunity of approaching her. Mr. Gascoigne was sometimes speaking to him; but Mr. Gascoigne was everywhere. It was in her mind now that she would probably after all not have the least trouble about him: perhaps he had looked at her without any particular admiration, and was too much used to everything in the world to think of her as more than one of the girls who were invited in that part of the country. Of course! It was ridiculous of elders to entertain notions about what a man would do, without having seen him even through a telescope. Probably he meant to marry Miss Arrowpoint. Whatever might come, she, Gwendolen, was not going to be disappointed: the affair was a joke whichever way it turned, for she had never committed herself even by a silent confidence in anything Mr. Grandcourt would do. Still, she noticed that he did sometimes quietly and gradually change his position according to hers, so that he could see her whenever she was dancing, and if he did not admire her--so much the worse for him.
This movement for the sake of being in sight of her was more direct than usual rather late in the evening, when Gwendolen had accepted Klesmer as a partner; and that wide-glancing personage, who saw everything and nothing by turns, said to her when they were walking, ”Mr. Grandcourt is a man of taste. He likes to see you dancing.”
”Perhaps he likes to look at what is against his taste,” said Gwendolen, with a light laugh; she was quite courageous with Klesmer now. ”He may be so tired of admiring that he likes disgust for variety.”