13 Chapter 13 (1/2)

I was feeling very tired.

I was standing in the corner of a classroom, heavily breathing. My arms were full of blood, and I was in intense pain. My chest and face was hurting very badly. My eyes couldn't focus on anything for a while. I could only hear the sounds of my own body. I had very little energy, and I was hardly standing on my feet. I couldn't remember what happened in the recent minutes, and how I found myself in here.

In about a minute, my vision started to clear up, and I could see everything.

There were some blood marks on the walls and the floor, some of them resembling the shapes of hands and bodies; although a lot of them were amorphous.

The two dead bodies were still there, one on the ground and one still hanging from the ceiling. Perhaps the dormitory had transformed back into it's classroom form while I was unaware of my surroundings.

With a more detailed inspection of the scenery, I noticed Idil laying on the ground on the opposite corner of the classroom. Her uniform was pretty beaten up, and her body was covered in blood as well. Her body was standing very still.

My mind was full of worrisome thoughts. It... It couldn't be...

”Idil!” I cried.

There was no response. She didn't move the slightest bit. I kept yelling until I gathered my strength to walk again. I slowly started to walk towards her, but stumbled and fell on the floor. Instead of standing up again, I started to crawl towards her.

”No... This isn't happening...” I was telling myself. ”You are not okay, you are hallucinating...”

I noticed open wounds on her arms, shoulders and chest as I got closer. I reached her and shook her slowly.

”Idil!”

Yet, still no response. I tried to check her impulse, but I couldn't feel anything with my wounded hands.

How... How could I let this happen to her? We had promised to protect each other no matter what, yet... that was her situation.

I put my head on her chest, crying.

”I am sorry... I am sorry, it was my mistake... I'm sorry I let you down... I couldn't keep my promise... I didn't listen to you... It was my mistake...”

No matter what I did, it wouldn't matter anymore.

At that moment, I heard something. The dead adult body on the floor started speaking again. I stood up, and started listening to it.

”Don't ever do something I don't want you to do again.” he said.

”Mr. Kenan? Is... Is that you?” I said.

”Yes, how lucky you are...” he replied. ”When I tell you to do something or not, you can be sure that I have a good damn reason for it!”

He was angry with me, understandably.

”I'm sorry I let you all down...” I said. ”I thought I could learn somet-”

”Was it worth it?” he replied. ”If it was worth it, I would personally tell you to do it. I just wanted you to stay out of danger zones and find a damn note, yet you screwed such a simple task up! Why won't you control yourself? She is laying there in her own blood because of you!”

He stopped talking, and continued in a calmer voice.

”I know how hard it is to stand against the manipulative power of 'the community', but you have to understand. If we didn't reach you in time to push 'the community' out of this room, you would have killed her!”

I hoped that I understood the last sentence correctly.