Part 12 (2/2)

She and Caleb follow me, and the second I reach for the door that leads to that room, I hear her breathing pick up. I know she thinks I'm bringing her here to kill her. I push open the door and stop, not bothering to glance back. ”Tor, I'm not gonna let anyone hurt you again. This is for you.”

I place my hand on the small of her back and guide her through the door. I can feel her muscles tense as she braces herself. She takes one look around the room and spins to face me. ”What is this?” Her voice is quiet, barely above a whisper.

I briefly divert my gaze from hers. The light from the doorway casts a faint glow over the room. Bob dangles from the metal hook in the ceiling, groaning, his feet barely touching the floor. Dried blood stains his chin, and his bare torso is covered in large, black bruises.

I manage to maintain my calm when I look at him. I have to strain to keep control of my voice. ”You had no right to touch her, you sick piece of s.h.i.+t!” I direct my attention back to Tor. ”He was wrong, and you're gonna make this right. This is the only way I know to help you.”

I yank the thin cord to the light and the bulbs flicker and buzz. I can hear each breath I draw in rumble with a growl as I circle by him. I walk toward the corner of the room and pull open a drawer on the small metal cabinet. I stare down at the a.s.sortment of weapons and grab a hunting knife. I slam the cabinet shut with a bang, and everything inside rattles. Within seconds, I've grabbed Tor's hand and placed the blade inside her damp palm. She's trembling, her eyes blanketed in confusion as her eyes dart from me to the knife to Bob.

Her gaze sharpens on the knife, her brow creasing. ”I'm not a monster, Jude, not like you, not like him.” Her voice is soft, uncertain, as a look of disgust crawls over her face.

”Maybe you weren't”-my eyes narrow on hers-”but you are not the same person you were when you were brought through those doors. When someone hurts you, the only way to take that pain away is by taking revenge. He didn't just steal something of monetary value, Tor.” I can feel my pulse thumping in my temples. My teeth grind against each other from the anger bubbling to the surface. ”In this world, when someone f.u.c.ks you up, you f.u.c.k them up, or you will never survive.” I take a few steps toward her and close my palm around her tiny hand in an effort to tighten her grip on the handle. ”Make him feel what he made you feel,” I growl, my eyes tearing into hers.

I want to help her. I want her to feel vindicated. And after what has been done to her, the only way she will ever feel that is with bloodshed.

My heart hammers against my ribs and my palms are damp as I grip the handle of the knife. Jude's fingers cover mine, tightening my hold. I look up into his eyes, and he holds my gaze. Part of me f.u.c.king hates him, part of me would sooner plunge this knife into his chest and just be done with it, but the other part, well, in his own sick and twisted way, he's trying to make amends.

In his world, this is how justice is served. I can feel how much he wants this, how much he wants to give me back something that was taken, but he can't. All that's left is this anger and hatred that's festering inside me. I don't want to be this person.

”He will pay for what he's done.” Jude lowers his face to mine, his eyes intense, intimidating. ”Do you hear me, Tor?” I've never actually been able to feel someone else's anger before, but at this moment, it radiates from him like an inferno, and if I don't get away from him I'm going to be consumed by it.

I hear the chains rattle, and a weak groan echoes through the room. I can't look up at Bob.

”I was only thinking of you, Jude,” Bob rasps. ”She makes you weak. We're family!”

The room seems to drop by five degrees, and it has nothing to do with the temperature. Jude goes deathly still, and that is far scarier than any words he could possibly say. He moves toward Bob with a deadly grace that has me in awe of him. He stops in front of him and grabs his jaw.

”You disobeyed me.” His voice is a low rumble, full of menace. ”And you disrespected me. Family or not, you will pay.”

”She'll ruin you!” Bob whispers, his chains clanging together once again.

”Shut the f.u.c.k up!” Jude snarls, clenching and releasing his fists. He turns and I think he's going to walk away, but suddenly he spins around, his fist smas.h.i.+ng into the side of Bob's face. I instinctively recoil from the show of violence and power, but I'd be lying if I said that I don't want Bob to suffer; I do.

He turns away and moves to stand in front of me. His large frame towers over me, blocking out everything but him. He holds my chin gently between his fingers, and it's such a strange sensation-amidst all his rage, his touch is gentle.

”Sometimes two wrongs make a right.” His eyes narrow, and it's as though he's trying to convince me of this. ”Trust me, nothing is more healing than making someone who hurt you bleed. Justice doesn't know how to play fair.” His eyes flick briefly to the blade in my hand. ”This is the only way I know how to help you, Tor,” he whispers, and there's remorse in that statement, I can hear it.

There's the slightest vulnerability in his eyes, and despite my instant revulsion at his methods, I almost understand them. He wants to help me, he just doesn't know how. I don't know if I can even be helped at this stage, but the fact that he wants to try touches on something that it really shouldn't. Maybe my mind is so f.u.c.ked up that I can't tell right from wrong anymore, enemies from friends, because right now, Jude doesn't seem like the enemy, and that's dangerous.

A low moan floats through the air. ”I would have been doing you a favor by killing her,” Bob pants.

Any softness in Jude's eyes disappears, and an icy rage covers his features. He grabs my hand, taking the knife from me. Every step he takes echoes off the walls in the empty room.

”Unchain him,” Jude orders, and Caleb scurries over. I watch as he unfastens the shackles and Bob drops to the concrete floor with a m.u.f.fled thud.

Jude circles around him, literally stalking him like a wounded deer. The blade every so often glints under the flickering light.

”Get up!” Jude shouts hoa.r.s.ely.

Bob lays there.

”Get”-Jude reaches down and yanks Bob to his feet-”up!”

Bob languidly shrugs. ”What ya gonna do? Kill me? Your father would be disgusted with you,” he spits.

The guy must have a death wish. Maybe he already knows his time is up, no point in dragging it out, I guess. I can relate to that. I've felt that. He made me feel that.

Jude shakes his head and slashes the knife across Bob's stomach in one quick movement. Blood pours from the wound, and Bob screams. I usually shun away from violence, but somehow I find myself fascinated by the blood, reveling in Bob's screams. I want him to suffer and I want him to die, because that's the only way I will ever be able to close my eyes and not see his sick, twisted grin as he butchered my body.

”You gonna fight me?” Jude asks. ”Or do you realize you're just that f.u.c.king worthless?”

Bob says nothing.

Jude grabs his hair, violently jerking his head back. He's walking him over to me. Oh, my G.o.d! What is he doing?

”You tell her you're sorry.” Jude shoves him in front of me, and Bob falls to his knees, Jude's hand still gripping his hair. ”Tell her you are a worthless piece of s.h.i.+t!”

Bob's groaning in pain. The blood is pooling right in front of my bare feet, and I take a step back.

”Tell her!” Jude shouts, his voice booming around the room.

”I...I'm, I'm sorry,” Bob grovels.

”Tell her how worthless you are.”

Bob inhales several times. ”I'm worthless...”

Jude kicks him in the back and Bob falls forward, his face smacking the cold concrete. ”Do better than that!”

”Jude!” I shout. He looks up at me, his lips pressed into a hard line. ”Stop,” I say quietly. I shake my head, but he's too far gone. This isn't about me anymore. This is about him, and whatever demon he has riding his back.

He wipes his hand down his face, pacing behind Bob as he nods his head. He drops to a crouch beside Bob and flips him over, pinning him to the floor by his throat. His face is focused and determined as he squeezes Bob's throat, watching as the man coughs and fights him. This is when Jude is at his most terrifying, not because he looks crazy, quite the opposite; he's so controlled, fully aware of what he's doing.

”Tor,” he grates. His voice makes all the hairs on the back of my neck stand up. He looks up at me and gestures me over. The angry and abused girl in me wants to hurt Bob. The rational side of me says it won't help, but I'm so f.u.c.king tired of feeling like a victim, of feeling weak in this place where monsters pretend to be men. So I take the first step toward him.

”Ria...” Caleb starts. I glance at him, and his expression is filled with pity. I don't want his pity. ”You don't have to do this. Let me do it for you.”

”Caleb, out!” he snaps. I focus on Jude's face, on his dark green eyes that always seem so bottomless. Something pa.s.ses between us, an understanding, a matching need for revenge, an outlet to purge the rage and hate. I've been blaming him for what happened, but I know it wasn't him. His only crime is leaving me. The man currently choking and gasping for breath, he's the animal here.

I close the distance to Jude and kneel down beside Bob's thras.h.i.+ng body. Jude's eyes never leave mine as he carefully places the knife in my palm with a nod. He may be violent, he may be a criminal, but he understands what I need, and he's giving me the means to take back my own power. He can't give it to me, though, I have to take it.

My pulse speeds as I shakily hold out the blade toward Bob's chest. My hand won't still, and I close my eyes as I try to control my nerves. I feel warm fingers wrap around my hand, stilling it. When I open my eyes, Jude is right there with me. He guides my hand to Bob's chest, pressing the tip into his skin before slowly dragging my hand down, and the blade with it.

Bob screams, and there's a certain satisfaction in it that both thrills and scares me. I feel as though by inflicting pain on him, I'm being relieved of my own; it's almost cleansing.

Blood wells and spills down his sides. I want to hate myself for this, I want to hate Jude for turning me into this, but I can't. I didn't do this, I became this.

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